I think me too? like I've been really thinking about the way this summer has reignited a flame that was supposed to be burning this hot the whole time but was deprived of oxygen
the journalist who interviewed me and wrote the exposé on the cult run out of my uni and the predator who orchestrated it went on to win a pultizer for other reporting and now our story is behind a paywall, which sucks when looked at in the big picture
I've only known what it feels like to have people genuinely look out for my best interests for like.... a couple years and every step of healing I take is paved over my broken bones and every time I have to reckon with the ways I was failed I have to manually break my own heart
seeing that youtube ended up as slop status quo just like everything else is actually so depressing man i believed so hard in the shit i did back then and gave like... way more than i ever had to give to it because i thought it was gonna be different that sucks so hard to heal from god
