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Kesler!!
@itskesler.bsky.social
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Lynxmom on the world wide web! 36, she/her, 🏳️‍⚧️, likes retro gaming, VR, Second Life, breadies 🍞🥖 Likes and posts may be NSFW. Minors begone Girlfrans~: @puppyfat.bsky.social (who also did my icon!) and @cimmycimmy.bsky.social‬ ! ❤️✨ Header by Kaii Kiyori!
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 3d
Speaking of catboy, he is no longer down an arm! I threw him a bone and gave him a ball-jointed prosthetic, and the results were very fun!

Getting the fingers and controllers and thingies to move right was a pain, but very worth it!

#vrchat
VRChat avatar of my formerly one-armed catboy, Dolce, flashing a peace sign with his new prosthetic arm. He looks so happy for once!
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 3d
I've settled comfortably into the new apartment, and that means working on VRChat avatars!

I found a tool called Alterith that automates a lot of the busywork when converting clothes from one body to another, so I've been using it to put my catboy in pretty pretty dresses 🥺

#vrchat
VRChat avatar of my blonde catboy, Dolce, wearing a pretty blue dress with a cloudy sky motif. He's blushing, but not in a bad way... ! VRChat avatar of my blonde catboy, Dolce, wearing a maid outfit with blue ribbons and red-framed glasses. The way he's sweating, it might be a bit much... !
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 8d
Eating dinner with Cimmy! We're having such a lovely time 💕
Dinner spread at an Asian restaurant. I'm having sushi and she's having chicken tempura
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 10d
Good morning everyone!
Everything has been moved into the new apartment and needs to be unpacked, but that'll come soon enough.
In the meantime, I'm at Cimmy's apartment after a four hour drive and I'm so sleepyyyy
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 11d
Seconding the suggestion for Slime trackers, but I'd recommend a six tracker set (hips in addition to chest, knees, ankles) to improve poses when sitting, bending and laying down. More trackers beyond that are diminishing returns unless you like to wiggle your feeties 🐾
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 14d
Gonna be busy busy this next week... not only do we have to finish moving our stuff, but on the 8th I'm going down to Boston to visit Cimmy and see Anamanaguchi in concert!! ✨ Wao
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 14d
Sorry for the radio silence, but I've been busy moving things into the new apartment! It's getting cozyyy
Photo of my new apartment's living room, showing the furniture I've brought in so far Another photo of the living room, showing the couch and a pile of plushies
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BEATRICE @arachnophonia.bsky.social · 14d
so my ex (we're cool) needs to get treatment for my cat, who lives with him... the cost of this thing is way more than he was expecting, and this is something that could potentially keep our cat alive. if there is anything anyone can do, his cashapp is $shufflesu

thank you in advance.
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inky 🎷🐛 @inkyfirefly.bsky.social · 16d
i hate having to do this but i'm going through some extreme circumstances that are very quickly draining my finances and putting the future of my living situation in a dire position of uncertainty. if anybody is able to help out, even just a little, it'd be greatly appreciated

ko-fi.com/inkyfirefly
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 19d
Nightmare has passed... I feel safe and okay now. I can get through this.
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 19d
Nightmare is back

Scared...
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Robin Charm Password @rondoofblood.bsky.social · Aug 9
anyways, look at loot poring
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 21d
I hear Tokyo Xtreme Racer is sick as heck
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 22d
[On a double date at a restaurant] So which one of you is Trickster and which one is Royal Guard
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 22d
I know that feeling all too well... I'd be happy to VRChat with you sometime though!
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 22d
Aris and I got the apartment!! 🎉 It was a long process and I'm so glad it all worked out.
Now to start slowly moving our stuff over... !
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
The elephant in the room that I need to address is, like... The outpouring of support and care I've received throughout this is absolutely incredible. I, I'm, I just.

Thank you all so much. Thank you... Thank you. To those who donated to my Ko-Fi, those who checked in on me... Thank you. 🥹❤️❤️
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
After playing phone tag all morning, I finally managed to get my medicine refilled—it turns out insurance was playing hardball again...
But, I took a dose and the nightmare will be over soon. I'm so relieved...
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
(cw self-harm)

When I'm at my worst, I consider trying to end it in the hopes of keeping my loved ones safe... taking the demons down with me, you know? But that's ridiculous, they're not real... too many kind people would miss me, would wonder if they could have done something.
I can't die yet.
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
I'm sorry... I'm not bad. I'm not a demon. I'm not broken.
I just have to keep going, keep my head together, not let bad things happen again...
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
This has happened to me way too many times too count. It's constant. The medicine seals it all away and I can function fine, but without it it's a nightmare. A nightmare specific to you and only you, a nightmare you dare never convey to others because you're scared to drag them down with you.
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
Imagine awful, discordant little voices amplifying bad thoughts in your head, twisting around it, trying to make you act poorly. Imagine trying to explain what's happening, trying to get support for it, and being cast out, told you're too much, too dangerous.
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
You know the Otherworld bits in Silent Hill? Imagine that. Imagine being scared to close your eyes. Imagine horrible things raking across your skin, piercing your brain. Imagine hearing awful shrieks that sound like your mom did when you were little.
You can't fight it or run from it, it's not real.
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
So when something happens that's out of my control, like the pharmacy receiving a delayed supply or my psychiatrist just plain delaying it too long, this happens.
And... And I get really bad when it happens. I've always been scared to describe the nature of it because it sounds ridiculous, but...
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Kesler!! @itskesler.bsky.social · 24d
I've taken medicine for them for the past ten years, and I get support from professionals and from my loved ones. As long as I stay on them, things are fine and I'm okay.
Problem is, insurance being as it is, I'm not allowed to get refills until I'm almost out. Every month. I can't stockpile it.
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