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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 10d

Hullo! I'm Felix, AKA Fanfaron over on AO3, and I am a #Hannigram smut peddler.

Here's a pinned tweet of all of my fics, which I'll update as I post more!

I write all manner of sexual/kink dynamics and themes. 💕

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Abi Stevens: MCM N16 @abistevensart.bsky.social · 1h

Here's some of my illustration work for literary magazines. 😁
I'd love to do more work for lit, especially SFF!

email [email protected] if you'd like to work with me! 👀
#PortfolioDay #art #editorial #IllustratorForHire

A cover illustration for issue 24 of Fusion Fragment magazine, featuring a giant whale swooping through space over a crumbling gothic-inspired space station. The whale is coloured and patterned like rainbow hued nacre shell.

A cover for Fusion Fragment magazine in grayscale, featuring a crow taking flight from foreground rocks with a gold coin in its mouth. In the background is a tower on a hill and a cloudy shy with sunlight breaking through behind the crows head.

A digital illustration of a screaming white man in fancy ski gear, covered in swarming flies. In the background a woman in futuristic medical-worker-ski gear is skiing past, through the swarming flies. The background is silhouetted layers of mountains in warm tones. There's a medical helicopter in the distance. An illustration for a speculative fiction story in an issue of High Country News magazine.

Cover illustration for Haven Speculative featuring an orange fish in a dish with potatoes, onions and herbs, on a pink table laid for 2. The fish's body morphs into a crumpled plastic bottle between head and tail.

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1h

I have Thoughts on people online saying that they care, people who ultimately do not know me, but they're extremely negative, cynical and depressing, so I'm just going to leave that as that.

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1h

Really not helping with the whole, "struggling about the fact that no one will care when I die" thing right now

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1h

I deactivated my hannibaltwt twitter account last night, whilst suicidal, for a break

Reactivated this morning

And it reset my followers/following to 0 and unmuted and unblocked loads of accounts

Apparently it's a server thing and it'll fix itself within 48 hours, but jesus christ

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 13h

I really did try

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 14h

🔒🔒🔒

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 15h

Ideally strength training AND cardio, but if it has to only be one or the other, that's still a success.

Because I want to get into the habit of doing it 5 times a week every week.

I need to lock in.

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 15h

I'm probably dooming it by posting this, but I'm doing it to hold myself accountable lmao

After another lapse due to the funeral news, tomorrow I am going to attempt to exercise for 5 days in a row.

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 17h

(To be clear: it's Oviva that originally pushed weight loss injections at me, I'm the one that deferred lmao, and now they've decided to make it hard to get back to that point)

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 17h

Part of it is also probably untreated ADHD, which combined with Seasonal Affective Disorder kicking in now also means that my depression and PTSD are harder to manage, so this time of year is just really difficult for me

Then add in death and funerals and fuck me I am struggling

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 17h

But thinking about food 24/7 is really starting to get to me and most people find the injections massively help with that and I really want it to help me write more because atm every waking moment is spent thinking about food, calories, my next meal, etc. and I am exhausted

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 17h

Because that is 100000% something that Oviva would do.

They've literally stopped checking in on the app, which they're supposed to do regularly, after saying they'd be doing it more often, so I'm tracking all my food and drink to an audience of no one lmao

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 17h

CW: weight & diet stuff blah

Because I am now looking forward to the prescriber call, I'm starting to become convinced that they actually just made me wait months, get my kidney bloods done, etc. just so they can turn around and go, "We don't think you should have it."

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

(NO ONE had better make a comment about naturally fluctuating weight because I am tired of people assuming that I don't know things and I WILL bite your head off)

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

CW: weight stuff

Okay I no longer feel apprehensive about being offered weight loss injections on the NHS because this is some BULLSHIT

Oct 06 - 210.4lb
-1.6lb

Oct 13 - 211.6lb
+1.2lb

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

💕💕💕

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

It's so strong

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

🤝 I get it

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

I have treated myself too much for my wallet to take other treats 😂💕

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

The worst thing about being sad, even when it's not just irrational and there's a lot of valid reasons for said sadness, is the intense desire for ✨a little treat✨ to try and fix it

1 - It doesn't fix it
2 - I have ordered many treats, I just have to be patient
3 - weeeeeeeeeh

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

Legitimately forgot what my birth name was for a moment LOL

I haven't used it in 19 years and I saw someone mention deadnames and I had to really think for a second

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

I'm still struggling, but cooking today definitely helped perk up my brain a bit.

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

Oh and I remembered to buy fucking turmeric this time lmao, I also upped the amount of garlic and ginger I used

Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

Original recipe: rainbowplantlife.com/vegan-red-le...

Red Lentil Curry

This one-pot Red Lentil Curry is a simple yet gourmet pantry recipe and bonafide fan favorite. Creamy, indulgent, and ready in 45 minutes.

rainbowplantlife.com

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Hannibal Lecter's Active Cowper's Gland @felixffern.bsky.social · 1d

And like before it's on a bed of quinoa :3

The taste has just been BOOSTED and now instead of being 12.6g protein per serving, it's 34.2g per serving, and higher calorie so no additional bulking needed thanks to the tofu

Very happy with this

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