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cw: 41.9 kg ☆ gw: 40 kg ☆ ugw: 35 kg
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cw: 41.9 kg ☆ gw: 40 kg ☆ ugw: 35 kg
backup: catharticcals.bsky.social
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im being so serious though my skin is buzzing my entire skull feels hot im crying like a fucking baby and praying the painkillers start working
one of the most overstimulating experiences oat im losing my mind
one of the most overstimulating experiences oat im losing my mind
im not letting dentists steal any more of my teeth -2/10 the sounds made me wanna kⓂ️s but im on medical leave until Friday 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
December 15, 2025 at 8:52 PM
im being so serious though my skin is buzzing my entire skull feels hot im crying like a fucking baby and praying the painkillers start working
one of the most overstimulating experiences oat im losing my mind
one of the most overstimulating experiences oat im losing my mind
no way this is the flesh im inprisoned in for life and im just supposed to accept the way it is
December 15, 2025 at 6:14 PM
no way this is the flesh im inprisoned in for life and im just supposed to accept the way it is
im not letting dentists steal any more of my teeth -2/10 the sounds made me wanna kⓂ️s but im on medical leave until Friday 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
December 15, 2025 at 4:04 PM
im not letting dentists steal any more of my teeth -2/10 the sounds made me wanna kⓂ️s but im on medical leave until Friday 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
im so stressed im gonna thr0w up 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
December 15, 2025 at 2:24 PM
im so stressed im gonna thr0w up 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
questioning the point of going to therapy again
being miserable & s3lf-d3struct1ng is so deeply ingraved in me idk why i thought i could ever change that
and it's not like i *really* care about getting better, i can't actually get rid of my p3rs0nal1ty d1s0rd3r, ill be struggling forever ://
being miserable & s3lf-d3struct1ng is so deeply ingraved in me idk why i thought i could ever change that
and it's not like i *really* care about getting better, i can't actually get rid of my p3rs0nal1ty d1s0rd3r, ill be struggling forever ://
December 15, 2025 at 8:52 AM
questioning the point of going to therapy again
being miserable & s3lf-d3struct1ng is so deeply ingraved in me idk why i thought i could ever change that
and it's not like i *really* care about getting better, i can't actually get rid of my p3rs0nal1ty d1s0rd3r, ill be struggling forever ://
being miserable & s3lf-d3struct1ng is so deeply ingraved in me idk why i thought i could ever change that
and it's not like i *really* care about getting better, i can't actually get rid of my p3rs0nal1ty d1s0rd3r, ill be struggling forever ://
good morning!!! i hope everyone is doing well :3
im getting a tooth pulled out today 🥲🥲 im a bit scared of the aftermath ngl but at least ill get to f4st with no reprecussions lolz
& hopefully i get a day off, i don't think i should be going back to dragging heavy shit around with stitches 😐😐
im getting a tooth pulled out today 🥲🥲 im a bit scared of the aftermath ngl but at least ill get to f4st with no reprecussions lolz
& hopefully i get a day off, i don't think i should be going back to dragging heavy shit around with stitches 😐😐
December 15, 2025 at 6:21 AM
good morning!!! i hope everyone is doing well :3
im getting a tooth pulled out today 🥲🥲 im a bit scared of the aftermath ngl but at least ill get to f4st with no reprecussions lolz
& hopefully i get a day off, i don't think i should be going back to dragging heavy shit around with stitches 😐😐
im getting a tooth pulled out today 🥲🥲 im a bit scared of the aftermath ngl but at least ill get to f4st with no reprecussions lolz
& hopefully i get a day off, i don't think i should be going back to dragging heavy shit around with stitches 😐😐
what happened calorically this weekend needs to never happen again 💔💔
i kept breaking my f4sts like 3-4 hours in to eat more bcs i just couldn't stand it what the frick 💔💔
i started another one just now and i PRAYYY i just lock in and last until 11:30 tomorrow
i kept breaking my f4sts like 3-4 hours in to eat more bcs i just couldn't stand it what the frick 💔💔
i started another one just now and i PRAYYY i just lock in and last until 11:30 tomorrow
December 14, 2025 at 5:03 PM
what happened calorically this weekend needs to never happen again 💔💔
i kept breaking my f4sts like 3-4 hours in to eat more bcs i just couldn't stand it what the frick 💔💔
i started another one just now and i PRAYYY i just lock in and last until 11:30 tomorrow
i kept breaking my f4sts like 3-4 hours in to eat more bcs i just couldn't stand it what the frick 💔💔
i started another one just now and i PRAYYY i just lock in and last until 11:30 tomorrow
ive been so painfully bloated the entire day I think i need to lay off bread for the weekend 😭😭
December 12, 2025 at 6:39 PM
ive been so painfully bloated the entire day I think i need to lay off bread for the weekend 😭😭
ended my f4st a bit earlier bcs i was going to pass out lol
honouring my cravings by having breadrolls and other stuff for omad ☺️☺️
honouring my cravings by having breadrolls and other stuff for omad ☺️☺️
December 12, 2025 at 10:31 AM
ended my f4st a bit earlier bcs i was going to pass out lol
honouring my cravings by having breadrolls and other stuff for omad ☺️☺️
honouring my cravings by having breadrolls and other stuff for omad ☺️☺️
it's bad enough that i still have Friday to get through i have to see my grandfather today too
free me from this hell on earth
free me from this hell on earth
December 12, 2025 at 6:07 AM
it's bad enough that i still have Friday to get through i have to see my grandfather today too
free me from this hell on earth
free me from this hell on earth
ok so i did have a whole chocolate bar and some cookies...the cravings were satisfied tho!!! back to f4sting!!! >:3
do i go and get that chocolate or stop bitching & lock in
December 11, 2025 at 3:26 PM
ok so i did have a whole chocolate bar and some cookies...the cravings were satisfied tho!!! back to f4sting!!! >:3
do i go and get that chocolate or stop bitching & lock in
December 11, 2025 at 12:38 PM
do i go and get that chocolate or stop bitching & lock in
dy1ng alone and missing out on life sounds great right about now
December 11, 2025 at 10:53 AM
dy1ng alone and missing out on life sounds great right about now
god im so tired and theres so much work idk what to do anymore :((
December 11, 2025 at 8:41 AM
god im so tired and theres so much work idk what to do anymore :((
severe tummy ache woke me up :(( 10h shift here i come 👍👍
December 11, 2025 at 5:11 AM
severe tummy ache woke me up :(( 10h shift here i come 👍👍
an unfortunate 2mad day bcs im incapable of making a portion of pasta fit for one person 😔😔
December 10, 2025 at 3:59 PM
an unfortunate 2mad day bcs im incapable of making a portion of pasta fit for one person 😔😔
lied for the whole appointment whenever my w3ight/food was brought up 😇😇
do i tell my psych about my issues with food today or do i lie and keep this to myself 🤨🤨
December 10, 2025 at 2:44 PM
lied for the whole appointment whenever my w3ight/food was brought up 😇😇
do i tell my psych about my issues with food today or do i lie and keep this to myself 🤨🤨
December 10, 2025 at 4:28 AM
do i tell my psych about my issues with food today or do i lie and keep this to myself 🤨🤨
feeling: awful 👍👍
can i pls start losing w3ight in my f4tass thighs instead of my upper body??? im happy my chest bones are more prominent but come ONNN
can i pls start losing w3ight in my f4tass thighs instead of my upper body??? im happy my chest bones are more prominent but come ONNN
December 9, 2025 at 5:54 PM
feeling: awful 👍👍
can i pls start losing w3ight in my f4tass thighs instead of my upper body??? im happy my chest bones are more prominent but come ONNN
can i pls start losing w3ight in my f4tass thighs instead of my upper body??? im happy my chest bones are more prominent but come ONNN
late good afternoon :3
i broke my f4st at 19hrs and indulged in the yummiest treats at the office today, totally overate but!!!!! in my defense!!!! i almost passed out this morning & I've yet to sit down 👍👍
i wish everyone a lovely day/night 🩷✨
i broke my f4st at 19hrs and indulged in the yummiest treats at the office today, totally overate but!!!!! in my defense!!!! i almost passed out this morning & I've yet to sit down 👍👍
i wish everyone a lovely day/night 🩷✨
December 9, 2025 at 11:31 AM
late good afternoon :3
i broke my f4st at 19hrs and indulged in the yummiest treats at the office today, totally overate but!!!!! in my defense!!!! i almost passed out this morning & I've yet to sit down 👍👍
i wish everyone a lovely day/night 🩷✨
i broke my f4st at 19hrs and indulged in the yummiest treats at the office today, totally overate but!!!!! in my defense!!!! i almost passed out this morning & I've yet to sit down 👍👍
i wish everyone a lovely day/night 🩷✨
made brownies for tomorrow's work Christmas Eve :3
December 8, 2025 at 8:51 PM
made brownies for tomorrow's work Christmas Eve :3
work so terrible the whole department collectively left office early 😭😭 11 more days of this bs im trying to stay positive
December 8, 2025 at 3:18 PM
work so terrible the whole department collectively left office early 😭😭 11 more days of this bs im trying to stay positive
goo morning!!!! im very much not in the mood to be existing today 🥲🥲 i cannot fucking wait for Christmas break i want away from the mountain of tasks piling up higher every day 😭😭
December 8, 2025 at 8:13 AM
goo morning!!!! im very much not in the mood to be existing today 🥲🥲 i cannot fucking wait for Christmas break i want away from the mountain of tasks piling up higher every day 😭😭
had an amazing time with my friends!!!! currently trying not to fall asleep in the train chair lol
started a smaller 16-hour f4st to reset my schedule after ignoring the guilt and eating like garbage the whole day 🫡🫡
started a smaller 16-hour f4st to reset my schedule after ignoring the guilt and eating like garbage the whole day 🫡🫡
December 7, 2025 at 6:16 PM
had an amazing time with my friends!!!! currently trying not to fall asleep in the train chair lol
started a smaller 16-hour f4st to reset my schedule after ignoring the guilt and eating like garbage the whole day 🫡🫡
started a smaller 16-hour f4st to reset my schedule after ignoring the guilt and eating like garbage the whole day 🫡🫡
soooooo i haven't been watching what i eat at all and idgaf im having too much fun 🤭🤭
December 7, 2025 at 3:12 PM
soooooo i haven't been watching what i eat at all and idgaf im having too much fun 🤭🤭