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am i still here? am i still me? ( 🎨; sgtxavi )
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- ban, fandomless oc (mostly)
- she / they
- 22
- fairy…ish creature. 2 feet tall
- living embodiment of anxiety disorder. overly apologetic nervous wreck
- CWs for depictions of panic attacks, mental breakdowns, potential self harm mentions
] since you listed out your character inspos i feel more comfortable mentioning the things she reminds me of since i know some people don’t like having their work compared to existing stuff but coming back to this to say this design gives me big frankie foster / eda clawthorne vibes
[ .. thinks about her battats and starts to feel dizzy ]
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So self aware, I intend to die this way
There is nothing that anyone can change
] like she’s been flirted with and everything but nobody’s ever. made a move on her like That
] i think this is the first time anyone has ever said anything remotely like that to her
( is she flirting with me?? is this something friends do????? )
[ .. glancing down at her own chest and then back at her ] i don’t. Um
are you the one doing the motorboating or are you on the receiving end
i don’t think it’s weird to have something you’re passionate about. but you should pace yourself, for sure.. i don’t want to see you feel any worse.
i’m not.. terribly optimistic, as much as i’d like to be.. i just hope /they/ can deal with it.
.. i won’t be.. unhappy, either way. i promise.

you’re free to make that choice for yourself—? it’s really not a big deal..
[ .. oh. the sound of her being confident makes /them/ start blushing. these two are never going to stop tossing that back and forth, are they. ]

see—!! you’re a hard worker, and i appreciate that about you..
.. it /would/ make me happy. if you chose that?

[ no, that’s not.. they’re seeing things. they’re so dissociative, it’s hard to tell.. ]
i hope so. i mean.. your teen self was also down on their luck, and you turned out okay, but.. i just hope they have the same sort of influences.
[ .. snrrk. she’s cute, when she’s not constantly crushed under the weight of the world. ]

well, if you worked hard on it, you’d probably deserve all the credit anyway.

[ d. does she have a nose? it looks like she has a nose, and then it’s gone again.. ]
[ .. a little snort. sitting on the ground. that way, if she follows suit, they’ll be somewhat more even. ]

i want /you/ to make that choice.
me too.

.. poor kid.
.. mm.

( probably. it doesn’t make you any less concerned. )

yeah.
.. what do /you/ want?

[ crouching a little to get on her level. ]
games.. okay.

[ .. it’s not that surprising. they’re the same way, after all. ]

i’m.. not too familiar with. uh. games. so you might have to be the one teaching /me/ about them, hhah..