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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 20h

Incredible that I've spent the whole week literally wanting to kill myself, then today got my period and suddenly feel fine.

What are hormones, what is the point of them

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 3d

On an absolute fucking knife edge between noisy neighbour at night and building works during the day, sandwiching 3000 urgent work deadlines.

On the plus side I think I figured out an idea for the exchange fic I need to write?

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 4d

Cats can definitely get similar allergies to people. Mine is very sensitive to dust (let's me know when I need to clean behind the sofa lol) since she was a kitten. I think the rule with watery eyes is that so long as the runniness is clear, not cloudy or coloured, it's probably fine

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 4d

*glances at all my open ao3 tabs* ...I guessss

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 5d

On the one hand who cares it's just fic it's not a big deal, on the other hand I am only valuable to the extent that I'm useful

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 5d

Much prefer thinking someone isn't interested than thinking I've disappointed them

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 5d

If someone excitedly says they're going to read my fic and then there's crickets I don't assume they haven't read it yet I assume they read it and hated it which feels WAY WORSE than if they'd said nothing in the first place.

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 7d

Perfection

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 7d

I posted fic this week which is a big thing for me! It's not common! But I just feel like I'm not doing ENOUGH. When was the last time I posted art? Or contributed to fandom in any way??

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 8d

Roofers working on the adjoining building stay the hell off my property challenge

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 11d

Some improvement this evening so that's good, but I just know it's going to flare up again the second I dare to put on pants and try to walk anywhere

Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 11d

Update: ankle swelled up so much I literally couldn't wear shoes even if I had to; worked from home with an ice pack held awkwardly in one hand; had three naps because of, presumably, sad-sick fatigue

Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 12d

A week ago I got stung by a wasp of all things on my ankle of all places and it seemed to be healing but no, my skin cannot react normally to anything ever, today it's flared up in a hives-like reaction and I can't go anywhere because wearing socks or shoes or leg coverings of any kind will rub it

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 12d

It's more itchy than anything but the itching is KILLING ME

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 12d

archiveofourown.org/works/719485...

Every Step A Circle - Chapter 1 - alightbuthappypen (dairyme) - 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV) [Archive of Our Own]

An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works

archiveofourown.org

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 12d

May I offer some porn-with-feelings in these trying times #wangxian

Summary:

After unexpectedly sleeping together (both literally and figuratively) during the trip to Caiyi Town, Wei Wuxian and Lan Wangji figure out their relationship over the rest of the summer at Cloud Recesses.

Via sex. And possibly, eventually, talking about it.

Every Step A Circle by alightbuthappypen

Chapters: 1/?
Fandom: The Untamed
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji/Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
Characters: Lan Zhan | Lan Wangji, Wei Ying | Wei Wuxian
Additional Tags: Cloud Recesses Study Arc (Modao Zushi), Pining while fucking, Friends With Benefits to Lovers, Mutual Pining, Getting Together, CQL canon, Wei Wuxian's A+ flirting techniques, Porn with Feelings, Dry Humping
Series: Part 2 of Summer, Starting

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 12d

A week ago I got stung by a wasp of all things on my ankle of all places and it seemed to be healing but no, my skin cannot react normally to anything ever, today it's flared up in a hives-like reaction and I can't go anywhere because wearing socks or shoes or leg coverings of any kind will rub it

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 13d

oh shoot I think I finished it (the chapter. not the fic, sadly)

Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 13d

"I think I'll switch to that silly little CR era wip for a break" SURPRISE, the second chapter is passable but the first was brainfog central and has taken so many hours of rewriting it may have been quicker to just draft it from scratch

But the sunk cost....!

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 13d

"I think I'll switch to that silly little CR era wip for a break" SURPRISE, the second chapter is passable but the first was brainfog central and has taken so many hours of rewriting it may have been quicker to just draft it from scratch

But the sunk cost....!

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 13d

I swear everything I wrote in that part of 2022 or whenever it was, when I was trying to force words out daily despite brainfog, was not worth it. Every one I've gone back to is a complete mess needing extensive rewriting. I'm still going to keep going back to fix them because I'm stubborn, but damn

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 14d

For me with lan wangji the top or bottom part is unimportant but the service part is non-negotiable, like this is a man who gets off on giving wei wuxian pleasure and I won't be persuaded otherwise

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 14d

🫂

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 17d

It's taken only three days back at work for my jaw to perma-clench. Nothing is helping, I suspect only universal basic income will fix it

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 23d

Me finishing a book: "I liked the first half more than the second half"

Every single similiarly rated goodreads review: "I liked the second half more than the first half"

EVERY TIME. Why are people wrong

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 24d

I think my favorite thing is in the phoenix mountain one lwj continuing to look at wwx for a beat longer after wwx has looked away

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Pen @alightbuthappypen.bsky.social · 28d

How can I think about wangxian as much as I do and have so little filter through into fic/art, what is this bottleneck??? (it's my brain)

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