Æ.
@aesthr.com
Call me Esther, Aesthr, or Æ if you want to be extra.
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
Pinned
I don’t want to live like this
December 7, 2025 at 6:02 PM
I don’t want to live like this
Still scared and I don’t know what to do
December 7, 2025 at 4:58 PM
Still scared and I don’t know what to do
iOS 18 now has a permanent notification bubble on the Settings icon for the upgrade to 26 and I don’t know how long I can ignore that
December 7, 2025 at 12:17 PM
iOS 18 now has a permanent notification bubble on the Settings icon for the upgrade to 26 and I don’t know how long I can ignore that
A guy on mastodon mansplaining linear regression wrongly to me is really not what I needed today after having a crisis centered around not being taken seriously and being talked down to.
December 7, 2025 at 1:36 AM
A guy on mastodon mansplaining linear regression wrongly to me is really not what I needed today after having a crisis centered around not being taken seriously and being talked down to.
Shot day, finally.
It's been over two weeks since the last one and that was already a reduced dose.
It's been over two weeks since the last one and that was already a reduced dose.
December 7, 2025 at 12:04 AM
Shot day, finally.
It's been over two weeks since the last one and that was already a reduced dose.
It's been over two weeks since the last one and that was already a reduced dose.
Mostly feeling anger today so maybe that's an improvement
December 6, 2025 at 7:45 PM
Mostly feeling anger today so maybe that's an improvement
Case in point: I just heard someone say that the normal distribution (the statistical probability distribution that shows up fucking everywhere in nature) is a Nazi idea.
It’s a take immune to knowledge because, if you actually try to push back with expertise, you’ll be called a Nazi sympathizer.
It’s a take immune to knowledge because, if you actually try to push back with expertise, you’ll be called a Nazi sympathizer.
Knowledge is cringe actually. If you know anything, keep it to yourself, or else.
Only takes are allowed.
Only takes are allowed.
December 6, 2025 at 7:16 PM
Case in point: I just heard someone say that the normal distribution (the statistical probability distribution that shows up fucking everywhere in nature) is a Nazi idea.
It’s a take immune to knowledge because, if you actually try to push back with expertise, you’ll be called a Nazi sympathizer.
It’s a take immune to knowledge because, if you actually try to push back with expertise, you’ll be called a Nazi sympathizer.
Knowledge is cringe actually. If you know anything, keep it to yourself, or else.
Only takes are allowed.
Only takes are allowed.
December 6, 2025 at 6:56 PM
Knowledge is cringe actually. If you know anything, keep it to yourself, or else.
Only takes are allowed.
Only takes are allowed.
Reposted by Æ.
trans women are women until they upset me. then they are “this person”
December 6, 2025 at 3:32 PM
trans women are women until they upset me. then they are “this person”
I have to take good care of myself which involves distraction from the struggles instead of focusing on them but the world moves on and I’ll never get to follow up on any of it without feeling like a petty asshole who can’t let things go.
December 6, 2025 at 3:58 PM
I have to take good care of myself which involves distraction from the struggles instead of focusing on them but the world moves on and I’ll never get to follow up on any of it without feeling like a petty asshole who can’t let things go.
Looks like I gave myself a concussion yesterday, again. So i’ll have a very slow weekend
December 6, 2025 at 11:07 AM
Looks like I gave myself a concussion yesterday, again. So i’ll have a very slow weekend
I’m safe, people took care of me.
Good night
Good night
December 6, 2025 at 2:40 AM
I’m safe, people took care of me.
Good night
Good night
I just shouldn’t ever say anything I guess. Or just go die already and stop being a problem
December 5, 2025 at 8:14 PM
I just shouldn’t ever say anything I guess. Or just go die already and stop being a problem
What is it with the sudden uptick in randos in my mentions? I didn’t gain many followers recently, it must be something else
December 5, 2025 at 6:01 PM
What is it with the sudden uptick in randos in my mentions? I didn’t gain many followers recently, it must be something else
Fuck, really bad workout today and my back is very much not ok yet
December 5, 2025 at 2:28 PM
Fuck, really bad workout today and my back is very much not ok yet
I see wider proliferation of the Æ/æ ligature and I’m all for it
December 5, 2025 at 11:11 AM
I see wider proliferation of the Æ/æ ligature and I’m all for it
Improvement: the nightmares were about a general apocalypse this time instead of personally specific horrors.
December 5, 2025 at 11:02 AM
Improvement: the nightmares were about a general apocalypse this time instead of personally specific horrors.
Big plot twist: closeted trans teenage girl who got really into Evangelion grows up to get really into psychoanalysis.
What puts me off in behaviorism is that much of it is built on the idea of a “normal” and disorders are deviations from that.
Psychoanalysis otoh assumes that we’re all weird and broken. It’s interested in why, and in how we can live in a world that inflicted that damage on us and maybe change it.
Psychoanalysis otoh assumes that we’re all weird and broken. It’s interested in why, and in how we can live in a world that inflicted that damage on us and maybe change it.
December 5, 2025 at 10:58 AM
Big plot twist: closeted trans teenage girl who got really into Evangelion grows up to get really into psychoanalysis.
It’s funny how modern academic psychology education is so focused on empiricism and behaviorism while psychodynamic views get very little attention, but I still ended up psychoanalysis-pilled.
December 5, 2025 at 10:49 AM
It’s funny how modern academic psychology education is so focused on empiricism and behaviorism while psychodynamic views get very little attention, but I still ended up psychoanalysis-pilled.
(soaking my brain in glyphosate)
Am I doing this right?
Am I doing this right?
Kill your brainworms
December 5, 2025 at 9:31 AM
(soaking my brain in glyphosate)
Am I doing this right?
Am I doing this right?
I would like to do this to a few people.
But also someone should do this to me too please
But also someone should do this to me too please
domme voice, tilting your chin up to force eye contact: "No, don't call yourself stupid. You're not stupid unless you've been fucked that way. Understood?"
December 4, 2025 at 10:55 PM
I would like to do this to a few people.
But also someone should do this to me too please
But also someone should do this to me too please
Guess what my comfort youtube channel is …
Should I be worried about this number?
Should I be worried about this number?
December 4, 2025 at 10:29 PM
Guess what my comfort youtube channel is …
Should I be worried about this number?
Should I be worried about this number?