Æ.
@aesthr.com
Call me Esther, Aesthr, or Æ if you want to be extra.
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
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Always feeling like this wold just doesn’t have a place for me
December 4, 2025 at 10:39 AM
Always feeling like this wold just doesn’t have a place for me
Maybe I’m worthless trash after all
December 4, 2025 at 8:53 AM
Maybe I’m worthless trash after all
Scared of going to uni today
December 4, 2025 at 8:03 AM
Scared of going to uni today
Woke up already crying after nightmares
December 4, 2025 at 6:43 AM
Woke up already crying after nightmares
That’s a big town we’re talking here 🥹
Well, you are the smartest, most gentle and funny girl in town💜
December 3, 2025 at 10:35 PM
That’s a big town we’re talking here 🥹
Despite everything I maintain hope
this is a positivity checkpoint 🔫
everyone who sees this;: say something nice about yourself right now !!! 🔫
everyone who sees this;: say something nice about yourself right now !!! 🔫
December 3, 2025 at 10:26 PM
Despite everything I maintain hope
From time to time I think back to bottom surgery and the main thought is always “Wait, that actually worked?”
If someone just describes the procedure to you, it sounds made up.
If someone just describes the procedure to you, it sounds made up.
December 3, 2025 at 10:06 PM
From time to time I think back to bottom surgery and the main thought is always “Wait, that actually worked?”
If someone just describes the procedure to you, it sounds made up.
If someone just describes the procedure to you, it sounds made up.
So, today was the last one on this horror trip, ok?
Already had a nice evening and tomorrow uni will be ok too. Right?
Already had a nice evening and tomorrow uni will be ok too. Right?
December 3, 2025 at 9:40 PM
So, today was the last one on this horror trip, ok?
Already had a nice evening and tomorrow uni will be ok too. Right?
Already had a nice evening and tomorrow uni will be ok too. Right?
Rewatching Armitage III for the first time in over 20 years sure is an experience
December 3, 2025 at 8:26 PM
Rewatching Armitage III for the first time in over 20 years sure is an experience
ICBM: intercontinental boob message
December 3, 2025 at 3:42 PM
ICBM: intercontinental boob message
I've never done a snatch lift and honestly I'm afraid to try, but watching it done at such a high level sure is inspiring.
December 3, 2025 at 3:39 PM
I've never done a snatch lift and honestly I'm afraid to try, but watching it done at such a high level sure is inspiring.
The healing power of watching this ... www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJxM...
Mihaela's Perfect Clean & Jerk Day! Worlds '25
YouTube video by Weightlifting House
www.youtube.com
December 3, 2025 at 2:56 PM
The healing power of watching this ... www.youtube.com/watch?v=OJxM...
If I could put my brain in one of those vacuum chambers that they use for getting the bubbles out of epoxy resin, I think that would feel so good.
December 3, 2025 at 2:11 PM
If I could put my brain in one of those vacuum chambers that they use for getting the bubbles out of epoxy resin, I think that would feel so good.
idk, somewhere we took a wrong turn. Wasn't the whole point of dynamic languages that we wouldn't need long compile times to test or deploy a change? But now I find myself waiting for the build processes on some JS and R projects for longer than for the Rust compiler.
December 3, 2025 at 1:59 PM
idk, somewhere we took a wrong turn. Wasn't the whole point of dynamic languages that we wouldn't need long compile times to test or deploy a change? But now I find myself waiting for the build processes on some JS and R projects for longer than for the Rust compiler.
Connectors should be more chunky again. This is unironically good.
I will be taking no further questions.
I will be taking no further questions.
USB4 OverDrive HyperConnect Type‑G‑TwinRow Deluxe 4.3X(n)™ aka USB Type X: For the multi-tiered, data-fragmentation connectivity compatible device, enabling nominally predictable data propagation conventionalities through user adherence to interfacial alignment protocols.
December 3, 2025 at 1:43 PM
Connectors should be more chunky again. This is unironically good.
I will be taking no further questions.
I will be taking no further questions.
All major todos done for today.
big slow breaths, time to unwind
big slow breaths, time to unwind
December 3, 2025 at 1:40 PM
All major todos done for today.
big slow breaths, time to unwind
big slow breaths, time to unwind
Love having anxiety attacks about the place where I have mandatory attendance.
December 3, 2025 at 10:24 AM
Love having anxiety attacks about the place where I have mandatory attendance.
Today I’m afraid of going back to uni. Fucking great.
December 3, 2025 at 9:02 AM
Today I’m afraid of going back to uni. Fucking great.
I guess what really gets to me about most of the other students is that in cases of transphobia nobody ever says anything. They’re completely unaware and have no mental framework to even recognize it. I’m entirely alone with it.
Yet I’m sure every single one would call themselves an “LGBTQ+ ally”.
Yet I’m sure every single one would call themselves an “LGBTQ+ ally”.
December 3, 2025 at 8:59 AM
I guess what really gets to me about most of the other students is that in cases of transphobia nobody ever says anything. They’re completely unaware and have no mental framework to even recognize it. I’m entirely alone with it.
Yet I’m sure every single one would call themselves an “LGBTQ+ ally”.
Yet I’m sure every single one would call themselves an “LGBTQ+ ally”.
When full night of sleep barely recharges anything
December 3, 2025 at 7:28 AM
When full night of sleep barely recharges anything
Every winter semester seems to have one absolute awful day at uni. Today was definitely the one this time around.
What a disaster on so many levels
Here’s to a better one tomorrow
What a disaster on so many levels
Here’s to a better one tomorrow
December 2, 2025 at 10:26 PM
Every winter semester seems to have one absolute awful day at uni. Today was definitely the one this time around.
What a disaster on so many levels
Here’s to a better one tomorrow
What a disaster on so many levels
Here’s to a better one tomorrow
doom metal
Name a music genre
December 2, 2025 at 10:16 PM
doom metal
My Wrapped is me flipping through nice big physical records with beautiful cover art and admiring my well-organized digital collection.
Yes, I am smug about this. Sue me.
Yes, I am smug about this. Sue me.
December 2, 2025 at 9:53 PM
My Wrapped is me flipping through nice big physical records with beautiful cover art and admiring my well-organized digital collection.
Yes, I am smug about this. Sue me.
Yes, I am smug about this. Sue me.
This is what worries me most. Many seem to believe that all marginalization has been overcome, political identities are now useless and “old people stuff”, and there’s no more struggle to be done.
i can see it in my cousins and they think, they are "ism free" 😪
December 2, 2025 at 9:35 PM
This is what worries me most. Many seem to believe that all marginalization has been overcome, political identities are now useless and “old people stuff”, and there’s no more struggle to be done.
Oh, “the kids are alright”?
Spend a week among present day psych students. That’ll give you a reality check.
The ableism alone is weapons-grade, and it’s sometimes worse than the stuff that significantly older lectures will teach.
Spend a week among present day psych students. That’ll give you a reality check.
The ableism alone is weapons-grade, and it’s sometimes worse than the stuff that significantly older lectures will teach.
December 2, 2025 at 9:13 PM
Oh, “the kids are alright”?
Spend a week among present day psych students. That’ll give you a reality check.
The ableism alone is weapons-grade, and it’s sometimes worse than the stuff that significantly older lectures will teach.
Spend a week among present day psych students. That’ll give you a reality check.
The ableism alone is weapons-grade, and it’s sometimes worse than the stuff that significantly older lectures will teach.