Æ.
@aesthr.com
Call me Esther, Aesthr, or Æ if you want to be extra.
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
she/her
Artist, writer, photographer, luddite, witch, dyke - Berlin
Art: https://www.aesthr.com
Writing: https://www.selfawaresoup.com
There are four lights!
Pinned
I just shouldn’t ever say anything I guess. Or just go die already and stop being a problem
December 5, 2025 at 8:14 PM
I just shouldn’t ever say anything I guess. Or just go die already and stop being a problem
What is it with the sudden uptick in randos in my mentions? I didn’t gain many followers recently, it must be something else
December 5, 2025 at 6:01 PM
What is it with the sudden uptick in randos in my mentions? I didn’t gain many followers recently, it must be something else
Fuck, really bad workout today and my back is very much not ok yet
December 5, 2025 at 2:28 PM
Fuck, really bad workout today and my back is very much not ok yet
I see wider proliferation of the Æ/æ ligature and I’m all for it
December 5, 2025 at 11:11 AM
I see wider proliferation of the Æ/æ ligature and I’m all for it
Improvement: the nightmares were about a general apocalypse this time instead of personally specific horrors.
December 5, 2025 at 11:02 AM
Improvement: the nightmares were about a general apocalypse this time instead of personally specific horrors.
Big plot twist: closeted trans teenage girl who got really into Evangelion grows up to get really into psychoanalysis.
What puts me off in behaviorism is that much of it is built on the idea of a “normal” and disorders are deviations from that.
Psychoanalysis otoh assumes that we’re all weird and broken. It’s interested in why, and in how we can live in a world that inflicted that damage on us and maybe change it.
Psychoanalysis otoh assumes that we’re all weird and broken. It’s interested in why, and in how we can live in a world that inflicted that damage on us and maybe change it.
December 5, 2025 at 10:58 AM
Big plot twist: closeted trans teenage girl who got really into Evangelion grows up to get really into psychoanalysis.
It’s funny how modern academic psychology education is so focused on empiricism and behaviorism while psychodynamic views get very little attention, but I still ended up psychoanalysis-pilled.
December 5, 2025 at 10:49 AM
It’s funny how modern academic psychology education is so focused on empiricism and behaviorism while psychodynamic views get very little attention, but I still ended up psychoanalysis-pilled.
(soaking my brain in glyphosate)
Am I doing this right?
Am I doing this right?
Kill your brainworms
December 5, 2025 at 9:31 AM
(soaking my brain in glyphosate)
Am I doing this right?
Am I doing this right?
I would like to do this to a few people.
But also someone should do this to me too please
But also someone should do this to me too please
domme voice, tilting your chin up to force eye contact: "No, don't call yourself stupid. You're not stupid unless you've been fucked that way. Understood?"
December 4, 2025 at 10:55 PM
I would like to do this to a few people.
But also someone should do this to me too please
But also someone should do this to me too please
Guess what my comfort youtube channel is …
Should I be worried about this number?
Should I be worried about this number?
December 4, 2025 at 10:29 PM
Guess what my comfort youtube channel is …
Should I be worried about this number?
Should I be worried about this number?
Rotating lesbianism in my mind
December 4, 2025 at 8:45 PM
Rotating lesbianism in my mind
So, regarding 4:
Does it have to be on my own face?
Does it have to be on my own face?
December 4, 2025 at 8:24 PM
So, regarding 4:
Does it have to be on my own face?
Does it have to be on my own face?
Academic stuff for the week: done!
(and the Thursday night psychoanalysis seminar was actually really nice today)
(and the Thursday night psychoanalysis seminar was actually really nice today)
December 4, 2025 at 7:07 PM
Academic stuff for the week: done!
(and the Thursday night psychoanalysis seminar was actually really nice today)
(and the Thursday night psychoanalysis seminar was actually really nice today)
I'm trying
HANG UP YOUR SHORTSWORD, TODAY YOU WILL BATTLE SELF DOUBT. AND YOU WILL WIN.
December 4, 2025 at 5:42 PM
I'm trying
A drider can rotate me as much as they want
Being rotated by an eight legged woman in my mind
December 4, 2025 at 4:10 PM
A drider can rotate me as much as they want
Reposted by Æ.
"It's not that any of the other streaming services are good, but Spotify is almost certainly the worst. Do not trust it. Do not let it turn your enjoyment of music into stats and algorithmic playlists."
Spotify Haters Club
Spotify Haters Club
December 4, 2025 at 3:40 PM
"It's not that any of the other streaming services are good, but Spotify is almost certainly the worst. Do not trust it. Do not let it turn your enjoyment of music into stats and algorithmic playlists."
Spotify Haters Club
Spotify Haters Club
Being productive, talking to normal* people, and reading Butler have helped. I'm still massively exhausted but mentally things are a lot better.
(* not fucking weird around trans women)
(* not fucking weird around trans women)
December 4, 2025 at 3:34 PM
Being productive, talking to normal* people, and reading Butler have helped. I'm still massively exhausted but mentally things are a lot better.
(* not fucking weird around trans women)
(* not fucking weird around trans women)
Women are women because they were forbidden to desire their mothers ... ok, hot take Judith.
(I'm reading Butler's "Melancholy gender—refused identification")
(I'm reading Butler's "Melancholy gender—refused identification")
December 4, 2025 at 2:01 PM
Women are women because they were forbidden to desire their mothers ... ok, hot take Judith.
(I'm reading Butler's "Melancholy gender—refused identification")
(I'm reading Butler's "Melancholy gender—refused identification")
Reposted by Æ.
The language our allies need to defend us out there can actually be this elegant all the time, as long as you know what you're saying 🏳️⚧️
Girl Guides of Canada has made a statement, likely in response to the cowardly decisions of Girlguiding UK. 🏳️⚧️
December 4, 2025 at 1:15 PM
The language our allies need to defend us out there can actually be this elegant all the time, as long as you know what you're saying 🏳️⚧️