things getting a little tight on food & essentials, so throwing up the link again.

managed to get somewhere stable & most of my property replaced (ty to all help <3); currently just holding out on passport processing, and I'm finally out of this place...

www.paypal.com/paypalme/jes...

i was literally about to post this song again lol

my solution to these feelings has been to isolate myself cuz its genuinely the easiest and safest solution, but its not an option, so i feel like im rotting and festering in my own skin. i hope i can get on medication soon

instead of interpreting everything as it is it all gets warped between the source and the long distance it takes to reach me. i feel so far away from everything, if it's not every emotion at the same time cranked up to 700 its nothing at all. i dont feel like myself, i dont feel like a real person

i feel like im walking around with self harm scars all over my body i feel like a stray dog with diseases i feel like a machine that doesnt function properly

idk how to explain it but my brain feels like i impulsively ripped out all my organs and had to shove them all back in my body and theyre not arranged correctly and im just walking around in the wrong shape and wrong configuration and like a sickness it ruins everything i touch

no one seems to understand how much of a serious genuine masterpiece The Menu is

ugh the visual texture on the big ass slab is so sex

Also probably very shit timing but tomorrow* (Oct 15th) is my birthday and I currently have nothing to my name besides a bunch of bills and debt, so if anyone is in the position to help, please consider sending something this way if you enjoy my art, and thanks a lot for reading
ko-fi.com/reezard

soulseek is awesome

exactly

the reason bsky sucks is bc no one uses feeds

i havent been posting in general as much as i used to but i should bring back my music feed

its just so fucking bleak idk music is important youd think people would understand theres like infinite avenues for listening to it. but over dependence and laziness makes people CLING to this shitty fucking app like idfk man i dont understand it

ive learned that for most spotify users, they could start advertising that using spotify will actively start shooting users in the dick, and theyll still use it cuz they're so dependent on it they legit will not try any other way to listen to music

"but guys I don't know any other way to listen to music"
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Spotify is now running recruitment ads for ICE.

It’s time to cancel your account.

octopus day (ignore that this is a couple hours late) #tf2

nose behind the throne 👑

a separation from the heart. cw gore

A lot of feelings that are more than words

(I guess, in a way, #paleoart)

its still part of next fest to me

Brush Burial: Gutter World is part of STEAM NEXT FEST.
You can play the Demo for this right now.
The full game releases NOV 19.