for what it's worth even without some of your particular troubles, just dealing with Everything, I got a fair bit of that these days... it ain't just you
i'm not gonna be all apologist about it, but I am pretty happy with mine. I don't consider it a computer - more like a tablet with a keyboard. Desktop-grade browser > mobile-grade browser for sitting on the sofa and bullshitting on socials.
Because marginalized people are the ones whose speech is most often disapproved of, the burden and consequences of deanonymization laws falls extremely disproportionately on them, and always will. No one should ever support mandatory age verification, ever.
