Also stupider note I want to average out the distances of his delivery trips and make that the standard for me on the treadmill lmao.

I want to be alone, but I also want connection. I want to genuinely help, but I also sometimes feel like there is no other option but to help.

There is something about this loner who seeks connection clumsily and also does not want connection at the same time and who also feels duty bound to help others.... brother......... same