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@whitevii.bsky.social
FE/Zelda/PGO/OW. I do archery and grow plants in my free time. Data Tech in my not so free time. ♒ 28 He/Him! PFP by @meliaart.bsky.social
Fucking hate being judged no matter what I do
February 13, 2026 at 11:36 PM
Fucking hate being judged no matter what I do
No outlet for it to get out
February 13, 2026 at 11:35 PM
No outlet for it to get out
Nothing worse than a liar in this life
February 11, 2026 at 2:37 AM
Nothing worse than a liar in this life
I apologise for that spam but I want to stop feeling these things for now so they can go on my profile and be a little less out of my mind
February 9, 2026 at 11:32 PM
I apologise for that spam but I want to stop feeling these things for now so they can go on my profile and be a little less out of my mind
I just wish I was a healthier (mentally), better version of myself who knew how to control his emotions and feelings and could properly understand them
February 9, 2026 at 11:31 PM
I just wish I was a healthier (mentally), better version of myself who knew how to control his emotions and feelings and could properly understand them
There are a lot of days where I just wanna be taken out of this world. Today has kinda been one. The guilt of being the only living child from what was meant to be weighs heavier on me than it does others. I've been led to believe that I should have gotten over it by now
February 9, 2026 at 11:30 PM
There are a lot of days where I just wanna be taken out of this world. Today has kinda been one. The guilt of being the only living child from what was meant to be weighs heavier on me than it does others. I've been led to believe that I should have gotten over it by now
Today marks me turning 28. I didn't think I would get this far. At 21 when I was bedridden for about 6-8 months with depression I told myself I wouldn't go past 25 and be sure to end myself.
Some days I think about that a lot
Some days I think about planning it out again.
Not for me. For everyone
Some days I think about that a lot
Some days I think about planning it out again.
Not for me. For everyone
February 9, 2026 at 11:25 PM
Today marks me turning 28. I didn't think I would get this far. At 21 when I was bedridden for about 6-8 months with depression I told myself I wouldn't go past 25 and be sure to end myself.
Some days I think about that a lot
Some days I think about planning it out again.
Not for me. For everyone
Some days I think about that a lot
Some days I think about planning it out again.
Not for me. For everyone
Feeling these things is apparently human until you meet people who apparently have never experienced this and you start to wonder what the hell is going on
February 9, 2026 at 11:23 PM
Feeling these things is apparently human until you meet people who apparently have never experienced this and you start to wonder what the hell is going on
Oh and envy/jealousy, most horrible fucking feeling In the world and I have no way of controlling it properly yet
February 9, 2026 at 11:22 PM
Oh and envy/jealousy, most horrible fucking feeling In the world and I have no way of controlling it properly yet
It feels like I'm not allowed both
February 9, 2026 at 11:21 PM
It feels like I'm not allowed both
I just want to be happy and make the people around me genuinely happy
February 9, 2026 at 11:21 PM
I just want to be happy and make the people around me genuinely happy
So many things I lose to this stupid fucking disease that is depression
February 9, 2026 at 11:20 PM
So many things I lose to this stupid fucking disease that is depression
I have to say no because I can't handle it with my mental space and my mental in general
February 9, 2026 at 11:20 PM
I have to say no because I can't handle it with my mental space and my mental in general
What if I feel there's nothing wrong with them but it's all on me?
February 9, 2026 at 11:19 PM
What if I feel there's nothing wrong with them but it's all on me?
How do I make the person I wanna make happiest, the happiest, while maintaining my happiness?
February 9, 2026 at 11:19 PM
How do I make the person I wanna make happiest, the happiest, while maintaining my happiness?
There's a balance in there somewhere but how do you balance something like that ?
February 9, 2026 at 11:18 PM
There's a balance in there somewhere but how do you balance something like that ?
And none of that makes sense because when I'm alone, I'm really sad that I'm alone, but when I'm in constant company, it can be a bit suffocating for me
February 9, 2026 at 11:18 PM
And none of that makes sense because when I'm alone, I'm really sad that I'm alone, but when I'm in constant company, it can be a bit suffocating for me
I'm so solitary too that pushing myself to do all this stuff is so taxing on my brain that it turns to anger
February 9, 2026 at 11:17 PM
I'm so solitary too that pushing myself to do all this stuff is so taxing on my brain that it turns to anger
Nothing feels right PERMANENTLY. Thinking and talking in therapy does it for a while but I always revert back to my same old ways
February 9, 2026 at 11:16 PM
Nothing feels right PERMANENTLY. Thinking and talking in therapy does it for a while but I always revert back to my same old ways
No matter how many times I talk about this in a different way with my therapist it just
February 9, 2026 at 11:15 PM
No matter how many times I talk about this in a different way with my therapist it just
My "normal" seems to push people away (minus a select few) after a while
February 9, 2026 at 11:14 PM
My "normal" seems to push people away (minus a select few) after a while
Am I bound to the same cycle of losing people?
February 9, 2026 at 11:14 PM
Am I bound to the same cycle of losing people?
Is it meant to feel right when you commit?
February 9, 2026 at 11:13 PM
Is it meant to feel right when you commit?
How do you commit when you have commitment issues ?
February 9, 2026 at 11:13 PM
How do you commit when you have commitment issues ?