The silence. The lack of *any* engagement.

I am starting to feel that maybe I am either shadowbanned, or my stuff is so subpar, but nobody has the heart to tell me to stop trying to do art.

I'm clearly doing something wrong, and these crash outs aren't helping. I can only be composed for so long..

Do my ideas suck? Is my art not good enough? Am I a bad person?

What is it? What do I have to fix?

It feels like I am constantly screaming into a void..

I really want to do art, I really do..

But everything in life just constantly discourages me, and demotivates me otherwise. I feel so isolated, and the only attention I get is when I express my woes..

I wish I had artist friends I felt comfortable sharing my ideas with, but it's a lot to ask for..

i appreciate it

In a sea of much more skilled, experienced, and/or even just gifted artists, I am just an embarassment at best. I hadn't been able to pick up my tablet in over a month now, at least because of it.

I'm sorry to everybody. I know I keep crying wolf, but this is seriously it. I quit.