I've been so busy between work and school (dropping out lol, again) that I'm surprised I've been able to make as much as I have been thus far.

Newgrounds is a site that still feels real, but even then, it's probably not as big as it was 20 years ago.

Sometimes, I miss being a kid on the Internet in the 2000s. It felt like a more visceral experience. It was partly what inspired me to make vistaworld.org. A testament that people can make things on the Internet without being siloed on corporate platforms.

Anyway, it was so dumb to see all of the discourse in 2022 about how Elon was going to make X a "free speech platform" when in reality, it became a two tiered platform for him and his cohort. Of course that was going to happen.

Sorry if I sounded vain about followers btw, it would be nice to have more recognition but I would rather prioritize being authentic.

I'm so bothered by being called "weird" because I was just being myself. I tried so hard to be "normal" but realised I was sacrificing myself and my comfort in the process. If people think I'm too much, that's on them only. I'm tired of accomidating other people including my family.

I hope you are able to truly be yourself in your own space again. That's exactly what I'm going through right now, I'm hoping to move to NYC next year, I'm stressed about it but also so ready to just fucking be myself. I can stim or talk to myself in my own apartment or play "weird" music.

I totally get what you mean. I faced so much weird, cruel bullying growing up from both siblings and in school and it really made me question if I was ever gonna find friends. I tried so hard to be funny and likeable, but was publicly humiliated for it. So I learned to be quiet and dissociate.