Jen “cool older trans lady trying her best”
@transducer.bsky.social
40, she/her, east coast. Live-blogging transition since 2023. 🏳️⚧️💊24-12-06; 🏳️⚧️💉25-06-24
My posts are about me, not you. Go write your own—I’d love to read them! 💖
Start HRT now, figure the rest out later.
There is still time. The time will pass either way.
My posts are about me, not you. Go write your own—I’d love to read them! 💖
Start HRT now, figure the rest out later.
There is still time. The time will pass either way.
lol lmk how that goes, if y’all come up with any great riffs I’ll want to use them on my brother haha
November 19, 2025 at 6:42 PM
lol lmk how that goes, if y’all come up with any great riffs I’ll want to use them on my brother haha
Is this the movie “Cloverfield,” but the all human characters are dirtbag trans girls? Or is it the novel “Nevada,” but also there’s a giant monster stomping around?
My answer is: yes.
My answer is: yes.
November 19, 2025 at 6:38 PM
Is this the movie “Cloverfield,” but the all human characters are dirtbag trans girls? Or is it the novel “Nevada,” but also there’s a giant monster stomping around?
My answer is: yes.
My answer is: yes.
Congrats on the 5 months HRT! 💖 love hearing you started that first and came to grips with the mental aspects later, totally wish I’d done it in that order lol
November 19, 2025 at 6:35 PM
Congrats on the 5 months HRT! 💖 love hearing you started that first and came to grips with the mental aspects later, totally wish I’d done it in that order lol
It’s funny, this is less how I realized I was trans than it is how I realized I was bisexual lol
November 19, 2025 at 4:04 PM
It’s funny, this is less how I realized I was trans than it is how I realized I was bisexual lol
this is inspirational af, bless you 🙌🔮💖
November 19, 2025 at 3:58 PM
this is inspirational af, bless you 🙌🔮💖
It’s seeking some support from your community of friends and I love that for you. You’re putting so much work into yourself and I know it might not seem like it now BUT you’re really going to reap the rewards of what you’re doing. 💖 hang in there, babe. You’re good people.
November 19, 2025 at 3:56 PM
It’s seeking some support from your community of friends and I love that for you. You’re putting so much work into yourself and I know it might not seem like it now BUT you’re really going to reap the rewards of what you’re doing. 💖 hang in there, babe. You’re good people.
depends, where are you in Legends ZA
November 19, 2025 at 3:54 PM
depends, where are you in Legends ZA
I love this prescription for you (and additional rest as needed, I hope!)
💖 Let us know how the muffin is, we’re amateur-baker curious lol
💖 Let us know how the muffin is, we’re amateur-baker curious lol
November 19, 2025 at 3:54 PM
I love this prescription for you (and additional rest as needed, I hope!)
💖 Let us know how the muffin is, we’re amateur-baker curious lol
💖 Let us know how the muffin is, we’re amateur-baker curious lol
Aw I love the little curls in front!!!
November 19, 2025 at 3:52 PM
Aw I love the little curls in front!!!
And there was a segment in a zero-gravity room, and all the Mickey Mouse characters were there
Then it was the stampede scene from Lion King, but that turned into Nightmare Before Christmas but, like, an underwater version
(why did James and the Giant Peach have an underwater scene, anyway?)
Then it was the stampede scene from Lion King, but that turned into Nightmare Before Christmas but, like, an underwater version
(why did James and the Giant Peach have an underwater scene, anyway?)
November 19, 2025 at 9:38 AM
And there was a segment in a zero-gravity room, and all the Mickey Mouse characters were there
Then it was the stampede scene from Lion King, but that turned into Nightmare Before Christmas but, like, an underwater version
(why did James and the Giant Peach have an underwater scene, anyway?)
Then it was the stampede scene from Lion King, but that turned into Nightmare Before Christmas but, like, an underwater version
(why did James and the Giant Peach have an underwater scene, anyway?)
And then my dad was supposed to make a, like, Shutterfly book about the camp or whatever, but he fucked it up somehow and it printed with printers’ marks but we couldn’t use it anyhow bc of legal issues with this horrible kid. But it also had The Proof that solved the whole situation? IDK
November 19, 2025 at 9:38 AM
And then my dad was supposed to make a, like, Shutterfly book about the camp or whatever, but he fucked it up somehow and it printed with printers’ marks but we couldn’t use it anyhow bc of legal issues with this horrible kid. But it also had The Proof that solved the whole situation? IDK
I’m in this post and I don’t like it 😤
(😉 🫂 💖)
(😉 🫂 💖)
November 19, 2025 at 3:46 AM
I’m in this post and I don’t like it 😤
(😉 🫂 💖)
(😉 🫂 💖)
🫂 I can relate to that too. And feeling like "I don't understand why anyone likes me; so at any moment they might stop," right? I was literally playing that before you were born 😉
Listen babe I gotta go to bed, I'm sleepy-full of bbq here. 😅 I hope you can get some sleep and feel better in the AM 💖
Listen babe I gotta go to bed, I'm sleepy-full of bbq here. 😅 I hope you can get some sleep and feel better in the AM 💖
November 19, 2025 at 3:45 AM
🫂 I can relate to that too. And feeling like "I don't understand why anyone likes me; so at any moment they might stop," right? I was literally playing that before you were born 😉
Listen babe I gotta go to bed, I'm sleepy-full of bbq here. 😅 I hope you can get some sleep and feel better in the AM 💖
Listen babe I gotta go to bed, I'm sleepy-full of bbq here. 😅 I hope you can get some sleep and feel better in the AM 💖
not as frustrated as I am that I feel the same way, despite spending an additional ten to fifteen years fretting about it & trying to “fix” myself BEFORE transitioning 🤦🏻♀️
You’re doing great, Asha. I know it doesn’t feel like it, and I have SO much sympathy for that pain you’re feeling. But you are.
You’re doing great, Asha. I know it doesn’t feel like it, and I have SO much sympathy for that pain you’re feeling. But you are.
November 19, 2025 at 3:40 AM
not as frustrated as I am that I feel the same way, despite spending an additional ten to fifteen years fretting about it & trying to “fix” myself BEFORE transitioning 🤦🏻♀️
You’re doing great, Asha. I know it doesn’t feel like it, and I have SO much sympathy for that pain you’re feeling. But you are.
You’re doing great, Asha. I know it doesn’t feel like it, and I have SO much sympathy for that pain you’re feeling. But you are.
You’re on to something here! Bc to us it doesn’t look like *you’re* fucking up either. Claire’s envious of me and I’m envious of Claire. We’re all just focused on our own missteps babe! Which sucks, but it’s freeing. Bc like… pressure’s off. Teacher’s not watching 🤷🏻♀️
November 19, 2025 at 3:38 AM
You’re on to something here! Bc to us it doesn’t look like *you’re* fucking up either. Claire’s envious of me and I’m envious of Claire. We’re all just focused on our own missteps babe! Which sucks, but it’s freeing. Bc like… pressure’s off. Teacher’s not watching 🤷🏻♀️
this is how I felt for like 20 or 30 years, and then I transitioned lol 😅
I’m kidding (sorta) but you don’t have to let it all go at once. Finding the spaces on the burner knob between “off” & “full blast” is a skill you can practice, babe. You ARE practicing; I see you do it in real time. 💖
I’m kidding (sorta) but you don’t have to let it all go at once. Finding the spaces on the burner knob between “off” & “full blast” is a skill you can practice, babe. You ARE practicing; I see you do it in real time. 💖
November 19, 2025 at 3:35 AM
this is how I felt for like 20 or 30 years, and then I transitioned lol 😅
I’m kidding (sorta) but you don’t have to let it all go at once. Finding the spaces on the burner knob between “off” & “full blast” is a skill you can practice, babe. You ARE practicing; I see you do it in real time. 💖
I’m kidding (sorta) but you don’t have to let it all go at once. Finding the spaces on the burner knob between “off” & “full blast” is a skill you can practice, babe. You ARE practicing; I see you do it in real time. 💖
I guess what I’m trying to convey to you, Asha, is: does it help if we’re all fucking it up in the same way; together? 😅
November 19, 2025 at 3:28 AM
I guess what I’m trying to convey to you, Asha, is: does it help if we’re all fucking it up in the same way; together? 😅
Some days it helps me to:
1.) imagine some separate shitty little guy in the backseat of my car is saying these things
2.) me, the girl driving the car, says to him “that’s just, like, your opinion, maaaaan”
3.) IRL: go “well, the fun parts of today are over. Trying again tomorrow” & head to bed 🫂
1.) imagine some separate shitty little guy in the backseat of my car is saying these things
2.) me, the girl driving the car, says to him “that’s just, like, your opinion, maaaaan”
3.) IRL: go “well, the fun parts of today are over. Trying again tomorrow” & head to bed 🫂
November 19, 2025 at 3:28 AM
Some days it helps me to:
1.) imagine some separate shitty little guy in the backseat of my car is saying these things
2.) me, the girl driving the car, says to him “that’s just, like, your opinion, maaaaan”
3.) IRL: go “well, the fun parts of today are over. Trying again tomorrow” & head to bed 🫂
1.) imagine some separate shitty little guy in the backseat of my car is saying these things
2.) me, the girl driving the car, says to him “that’s just, like, your opinion, maaaaan”
3.) IRL: go “well, the fun parts of today are over. Trying again tomorrow” & head to bed 🫂
LOL I felt the same way, but for me! Like, I got the sentence backwards twice… The ol’ lysdexia trips me up again 😅
November 19, 2025 at 3:25 AM
LOL I felt the same way, but for me! Like, I got the sentence backwards twice… The ol’ lysdexia trips me up again 😅
yes, that’s part of what’s messed up about it! 🫠 it’s a fallacy standing on an assumption standing on a stereotype standing on patriarchy. Messed-up all the way down.
November 19, 2025 at 3:22 AM
yes, that’s part of what’s messed up about it! 🫠 it’s a fallacy standing on an assumption standing on a stereotype standing on patriarchy. Messed-up all the way down.