Of course, all of the latest editions being made by me wouldn't have been possible without the incredible work of Elysia Designs on the cars I commissioned from them.

They deserve all of the credit for basically creating my current look, the only input I had was the gradient idea.

i... is feeling like yogurt a good thing?

I'm just, lost.

I feel like every single thing I do at this point is a negative for me and everything is fucked and it's all my fault.

I don't play shooting games.

I don't play or don't own a large amount of more arcadey racing titles.

I've fucked my relationships with so many people up to the point where I don't even have enough people to play any "friend slop" games with.

And in terms of outlets to do other things with my friends,

nobody really wants to play Railroader with me, and I left the only place where people did want to because I'm incapable of ever making a positive decision for my mental health.

I wanna have fun with sim racing, and a big part of that is sharing the enjoyment with my friends.

But every time I race with my friends, something goes wrong for one of, if not all, of us.

It's just deflating at this point.

honestly homophobic tbh

I also absolutely hate doing this, so this will be the one time you see me mention it. But, I created a Ko-fi page.

It's the holiday season, so please be smart and put your money towards more important people and things.

But if you do wish to help out, it's there.

ko-fi.com/thealexmill

I'm sorry because I hate that I promised you all streams with a schedule, but the broken wheel rim combined with all sorts of other factors in the last week have really taken a toll on me mentally, so taking some time for myself is the right call for me.

nah I think you need a few more yet

kussy

This isn't the way I expected or wanted my attempt at the pro series to end, but even I knew it was a long shot for me to make it anyway.

I'll be live with, well, something tonight, I'll figure something out.

I don't want to promise you all 4 streams and only give you 1.

in other news, the sun is bright

what if I don't want you to do that though