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silly

lots of ranting maybe
I'm sorry
January 15, 2026 at 7:31 AM
I'm considering harm again. I'm considering the worst actually.

I'd be out in 2 and a half weeks... I'd be out of there... but I don't think I can survive. Not with my job pressuring me and whatever the fuck is going on "At home"

I cant do it anymore

I cant keep fighting
January 15, 2026 at 7:31 AM
I was unaware that I didn't have a right to privacy. Good to know after such a long time...
January 15, 2026 at 7:26 AM
certain songs just hit right
January 7, 2026 at 8:01 PM
love how when one thing is going well, everything else slowly goes down the drain again
January 7, 2026 at 7:57 PM
I dont understand why my parents dont support me moving out or me getting a job... why would you want your adult child to live like that?
January 6, 2026 at 9:46 PM
I had a successful day. The job is secure, just have to sign the contract. Its getting better.

Unless you're at home with your mother thats mad at everyone for no reason. Taking a nap is a sin too apparently.

I cant WAIT to be out
January 5, 2026 at 6:00 PM
I had a nice new years celebration with my friends. They're staying over in the living room and I'm in my room now, feeling incredibly lonely and disconnected from the world.

I'm tempted to hop on a game and just play the entire night...
January 1, 2026 at 3:38 AM
I just love how one little piece of knowledge can make me feel like such a piece of shit.

I feel watched and exposed. Worse than before. I'm seriously considering quitting the internet. Nothing is safe or private

If I do, just forget I ever existed
December 30, 2025 at 11:55 PM
Can I just get adopted into a different family please
December 2, 2025 at 9:23 PM
its getting worse. I cant believe how I recovered from wanting to kms to getting back there in just a couple of weeks. Thank you family. You truly make me feel loved, valued and cared for
December 2, 2025 at 8:25 PM
Its just unfair at this point
December 2, 2025 at 7:42 PM
things were already agreed on. things were decided. everything was okay. And now they pressured me long enough that I cant fight back. they won.

I cant wait to be out of here
December 2, 2025 at 7:05 PM
I cant WAIT for february...
December 2, 2025 at 5:59 PM
Idk if i want comfort art or nsfw art-

I've been feeling down and I crave both for some reason

need someone who draws ocXcanon nsfw/suggestive stuff... I have ideas

or just comfort stuff... I need it
November 28, 2025 at 3:19 AM
Trying to shop for clothes with dysphoria and generally not being happy with my body is so difficult and painful. I look at myself in the mirror and all I cant see myself even if I love the clothes
November 27, 2025 at 2:27 PM
I feel like I love too much.

Like, theres so much love in my heart for certain people that it hurts me

not just for my partner, but friends too. I love them so much that it hurts me more than it should

and all that love despite the fact that I was hurt so bad all my life... It confuses me
November 27, 2025 at 1:30 PM
Might have a job soon. Very happy and excited
November 26, 2025 at 1:35 PM
The part is STILL going. Its 8am. let me sleep
November 23, 2025 at 6:57 AM
but tbf I cant sleep. Its too loud
November 23, 2025 at 4:22 AM
gathering references in the middle of the night as if sleep isn't important. I just want to stay up and draw...
November 23, 2025 at 4:18 AM
it would just be too much to redo everything. It's tiring to even think about
November 22, 2025 at 10:06 PM
temporary (hopefully)

strange times
November 22, 2025 at 7:51 PM