suudonym
@suudonym.bsky.social
I draw things I like, but only occasionally
finished chapter 22 but I have now finally run right up into the great big wall of "I do not know what happens next." or like, I know what happens next but not how to make a story out of it... I know the main conflicts but not how to develop them into events......
January 26, 2026 at 11:07 PM
finished chapter 22 but I have now finally run right up into the great big wall of "I do not know what happens next." or like, I know what happens next but not how to make a story out of it... I know the main conflicts but not how to develop them into events......
aaagh I wanted to try to draw at least one picture a month and I'm running out of time more and more and I'm about to fail the challenge RIGHT out the gate. but instead I just keep writing and playing minecraft......
January 23, 2026 at 12:18 AM
aaagh I wanted to try to draw at least one picture a month and I'm running out of time more and more and I'm about to fail the challenge RIGHT out the gate. but instead I just keep writing and playing minecraft......
anytime I see a thoughtful well-written fic with one comment that just says "this is good" it gives me secondhand wanting to throw myself off a cliff
January 15, 2026 at 3:56 PM
anytime I see a thoughtful well-written fic with one comment that just says "this is good" it gives me secondhand wanting to throw myself off a cliff
tbh I don't understand why people tag "they/them pronouns for kris." it made sense in ch1 era when kris was given a pronoun like one time in the entire game but at this point it's like. "be aware that I'm using the character's canon pronouns!" duh?? you gonna tag she/her susie while you're at it??
January 14, 2026 at 7:29 PM
tbh I don't understand why people tag "they/them pronouns for kris." it made sense in ch1 era when kris was given a pronoun like one time in the entire game but at this point it's like. "be aware that I'm using the character's canon pronouns!" duh?? you gonna tag she/her susie while you're at it??
friend invited me to a minecraft server and I was like "I dunno I don't exactly play minecraft in a normal way" and she was like "oh we're just dicking around anyway, it's fine."
neglected to mention that the "abnormal" way I play is as a walking simulator. they will never see me again.
neglected to mention that the "abnormal" way I play is as a walking simulator. they will never see me again.
January 14, 2026 at 3:17 PM
friend invited me to a minecraft server and I was like "I dunno I don't exactly play minecraft in a normal way" and she was like "oh we're just dicking around anyway, it's fine."
neglected to mention that the "abnormal" way I play is as a walking simulator. they will never see me again.
neglected to mention that the "abnormal" way I play is as a walking simulator. they will never see me again.
sometimes I write a scene I like and I just go "hell yeaaah that's good shit" and reread it over and over instead of like. continuing.
January 13, 2026 at 4:21 AM
sometimes I write a scene I like and I just go "hell yeaaah that's good shit" and reread it over and over instead of like. continuing.
finally set up the new pc, but at what cost (hours and hours of my life)
January 9, 2026 at 11:51 PM
finally set up the new pc, but at what cost (hours and hours of my life)
oh shit you CAN post things privately on ao3, by using collections... hmmmmm.... that would make navigating back to refer to previous chapters sooo much easier, but could I withstand the anxiety that I might fuck it up and make it public accidentally....
January 7, 2026 at 10:09 PM
oh shit you CAN post things privately on ao3, by using collections... hmmmmm.... that would make navigating back to refer to previous chapters sooo much easier, but could I withstand the anxiety that I might fuck it up and make it public accidentally....
downloaded installers for all my software and backed up all my files for transferring today. this is the power of procrastination at work (time to start another new chapter)
January 6, 2026 at 9:48 PM
downloaded installers for all my software and backed up all my files for transferring today. this is the power of procrastination at work (time to start another new chapter)
struggling once again with the fact that I am not a creative person. pain and suffering pain and suffering
January 5, 2026 at 8:40 PM
struggling once again with the fact that I am not a creative person. pain and suffering pain and suffering
saw a thread where people were discussing how they can "tell" a fic was at least partially generated and scrolled through increasingly demoralized like oh.... I use that phrasing... I use that word... I use that structure.....
January 2, 2026 at 3:18 PM
saw a thread where people were discussing how they can "tell" a fic was at least partially generated and scrolled through increasingly demoralized like oh.... I use that phrasing... I use that word... I use that structure.....
does this site not have polls yet. I need someone else to decide for me whether I should ride the wave into starting chapter 20 (rare occurrence of knowing exactly how to start the chapter) or draw like I've been wanting to do for a very long time now.
December 31, 2025 at 3:29 PM
does this site not have polls yet. I need someone else to decide for me whether I should ride the wave into starting chapter 20 (rare occurrence of knowing exactly how to start the chapter) or draw like I've been wanting to do for a very long time now.
I suddenly remembered the existence of .hack//sign and started rewatching for the first time in god knows how long and man. this shit was for sure hiiiiiiighly formative to little suu. that's one of the original blorbos right there.
December 31, 2025 at 1:29 AM
I suddenly remembered the existence of .hack//sign and started rewatching for the first time in god knows how long and man. this shit was for sure hiiiiiiighly formative to little suu. that's one of the original blorbos right there.
how do I go back to being a person who draws without stopping being a person who writes. is it greed to want both? is it hubris?
December 28, 2025 at 5:18 PM
how do I go back to being a person who draws without stopping being a person who writes. is it greed to want both? is it hubris?
I was gonna make a joke about something having taken 75k words to happen in this fic but I got stuck on the fact that I've written fucking 75k words since september
December 26, 2025 at 5:05 AM
I was gonna make a joke about something having taken 75k words to happen in this fic but I got stuck on the fact that I've written fucking 75k words since september
every week I finish a chapter and so every week I get another chance to consciously defer setting up the new pc for at least one more week thereafter.
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
December 23, 2025 at 4:28 PM
every week I finish a chapter and so every week I get another chance to consciously defer setting up the new pc for at least one more week thereafter.
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
next week for sure's gonna be the week it finally happens. I feel it in my bones. (<- words of someone who may or may not be an invertebrate)
who do I need to talk to to about how I really don't need to do any research on migraines to get the migraines to stop
December 19, 2025 at 4:26 PM
who do I need to talk to to about how I really don't need to do any research on migraines to get the migraines to stop
having to start a new chapter may be just the push I need to finally set up that pc. (remembers all the steps required to deshittify windows) having to set up that pc may be just the push I need to finally start a new chapter
December 16, 2025 at 4:02 PM
having to start a new chapter may be just the push I need to finally set up that pc. (remembers all the steps required to deshittify windows) having to set up that pc may be just the push I need to finally start a new chapter
I was like "man this chapter is taking SOOOO LONG to write! guess I've slowed down to my usual grind 😔" and then I looked back at how long it's taken and it's been. two weeks.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
December 16, 2025 at 12:14 AM
I was like "man this chapter is taking SOOOO LONG to write! guess I've slowed down to my usual grind 😔" and then I looked back at how long it's taken and it's been. two weeks.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
and then I finished it and it turned out it's actually two chapters so like. apparently I'm still in machine mode after all.
I am integrating the fucked up alt ending into the og ending I think. too much potential to miss out on. this does mean the most fucked up part of it gets cut but honestly, I am perfectly okay with that.
December 10, 2025 at 1:24 AM
I am integrating the fucked up alt ending into the og ending I think. too much potential to miss out on. this does mean the most fucked up part of it gets cut but honestly, I am perfectly okay with that.
daydreamed too close to the sun and now have a whole alternate ending for this fic. og ending is delightful. alt ending is appallingly fucked up. both are thematically rich and viable.
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
December 9, 2025 at 4:20 AM
daydreamed too close to the sun and now have a whole alternate ending for this fic. og ending is delightful. alt ending is appallingly fucked up. both are thematically rich and viable.
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
...........might write it if I ever finish and have enough gumption left to keep going. big if though
thinking fondly and wistfully of crestoria. I don't know how I'm managing to do that when so few of the memories that come to mind are actually pleasant - arena grinding, event grinding, memoria grid grinding, affinity grinding. grinding grinding grinding. and yet I miss it.....
December 6, 2025 at 11:31 PM
thinking fondly and wistfully of crestoria. I don't know how I'm managing to do that when so few of the memories that come to mind are actually pleasant - arena grinding, event grinding, memoria grid grinding, affinity grinding. grinding grinding grinding. and yet I miss it.....
maannnn I'm DEEPLY entrenched in microwaving. 5 hours of sleep 0 words written levels of entrenched. microwaving scenes that aren't even gonna be a part of the story because of the pov they take place from. the enrichment is euphoric but god, at what cost
December 6, 2025 at 1:58 AM
maannnn I'm DEEPLY entrenched in microwaving. 5 hours of sleep 0 words written levels of entrenched. microwaving scenes that aren't even gonna be a part of the story because of the pov they take place from. the enrichment is euphoric but god, at what cost
hobbling out of the research lair, trembling and gasping for breath, with a 10-year timeline* grasped in my fist
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
December 4, 2025 at 8:06 PM
hobbling out of the research lair, trembling and gasping for breath, with a 10-year timeline* grasped in my fist
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
*timeline pertains solely to the injury/recovery of ONE character. the actual plot.... is not integrated...... there is still so fucking much to sort out. I cannot bear to face this now.
ooooooooh people talking like romantic feelings are a pokemon evolution that happens to platonic feelings once you reach a high enough level of friendship points. violence and murder and violence and murder and violence and murder
December 3, 2025 at 8:01 PM
ooooooooh people talking like romantic feelings are a pokemon evolution that happens to platonic feelings once you reach a high enough level of friendship points. violence and murder and violence and murder and violence and murder