The main thing I want to say is if you feel like you might be ASD, ADHD or AuDHD inclined, please start the path of diagnosis. My life would have made so much more sense to me if this was happening in my 20s as opposed to my 40s. Way less emotional turmoil for all.

I've tried finding the photo of my during treatment, but I think I deleted it not wanting to see it any more. This is me the week before treatment. Yep, nWo t-shirt and all!

I didn't give my mother enough credit at the time, and have since corrected this, but she drove me 90 miles every second Monday to hospital to be treated. Dealt with all the health insurance stuff and other appointments. She was devastated the day I was diagnosed. Have never heard her cry like that.

Survivor guilt sucks. Everyone tells you that you should be happy you beat it, but you're miserable. It hit me hard Christmas 2001. I was just so down. I really stopped being able to relate to most people.

People I knew who weren't in my inner circle of friends didn't believe me when I said I was sick, because they saw me post chemo. That and the distaste for special treatment just led to me masking it. In reality I should have accepted it, but there are other mental factors at play.

I refused all special consideration. I could have got into the university course I wanted, but I felt I was slack in 12th grade and deserved what I got. I worked my way into that course on my own. I had to take a reduced study load when I did go to university, so a year longer to get my degree.

There is this mental divide between pre-cancer me and post-cancer me. Sometimes I mourn the lost of my former self. I used to be very sharp-witted. Often that mouth could get me into trouble. I was reserved and quiet unless I was with my friends. Now I'm reserved and quiet even when I am with them.

Vinblastine can cause tissue damage if it escapes the vein, and there was an incident where the IV was set too fast. That drug basically an hour of pain because it burns while it goes in. The other drugs were administered pretty quickly by comparison.

I have some blackened/damaged veins in my right hand/arm from one of the chemo drugs in particular. You don't tend to see these as all photos I take of games etc. are either with the item laying down or held in my left hand.

I have been in remission for 24.5 years, but the chemotherapy effects are long lasting.
- No kids. IVF was an option but storage fees skyrocketed.
- Stopped growing. Should have been 6'7" by estimates.
- Poor immune system
- Brain fog
- Reduced lung capacity
- Heart issues
- Fatigue
- Anxiety

I had to undergo six months of treatment of ABVD, followed by six months of recovery. That started January 1 2001. I'd gone from preparing to move out and go to university with my friends, to being isolated.

My prognosis was good, about 80% chance of survival, but chemotherapy at that age, while effective, has long lasting impact. It had spread to my spleen but that was caught early enough to not have to be removed.

It wasn't possible to pick up the weight loss that comes alongside it, because back then I was a really scrawny kid. I was 60kg/130lbs before it started developing and 120lbs at diagnosis. I was 6ft tall then, so a total rake.

It's not common for Hodgkin Lymphoma patients to have alcohol sensitivity, but I think it's a unique characteristic? When the lump came back 2 months later, he knew and put me in for a CT scan. Then biopsy and bone marrow test thereafter.

The GP who diagnosed me is my father. He is an amazing diagnostician. Retired now. After my 17th birthday I complained about a pain in the neck and shoulder. I had been drinking - a lot. A lump had appeared in my neck. He put me on antibiotics, but the alcohol sensitivity concerned him.

I told myself at the start of the year to get ready to stop masking it. Start talking about my experience and stop being stoic about how it affected me.

She also tried to murder her brother yesterday. I think fame is going to her head.

People were weird about it last year which made me not want to do it again, but some of the keys will expire soon, so I want them to get used.