💜 you so much, Obie xxx

Love you so much.

My instinct is to hide.

BUT. Please, if you want to, share this post far and wide.

People who are going through similar should know they are seen.

I wish I could say there is always hope. I can't. But. To those of us who have connected in this small but important community: you are not alone xxx

To all people who have supported Kissed By Fire, I love you very much.

That podcast has kept me going through thick and thin.

Tomorrow, @bword.bsky.social and I are sorting out next steps to make sure we can keep on truckin'.

We love you all.

It's not just that, though. I am trying to leave my (abusive) marriage. It's fucking hard. It's part of the problem.

So there's a lot going on.

But hiding and pretending isn't doing much for me anymore.

I need to write. I need to reach out.

Feeling alone is shitty.

And yes, I am a food writer. I see the irony. Food is a huge pleasure. Perhaps that's part of my problem: the denial of pleasure?

I keep being told if I don't sort this out I am going to die.

The ambivalence to that is something I am trying to sort through.

It's a resurgence of an ED I had years ago, rearing its ugly head once again.

I'm now in treatment and, honestly, it's a full time fucking job seeing all the people and being monitored all the live long day.

Absolutely! And it was so good. Amazing band, amazing set, incredible performer.

Totally misjudged where I was while distractedly running for a bus. Fell over a low wall I didn’t see and landed right on my old noggin. I have learned many lessons from this! 😂

Yum

Yeah, I have similar feelings on the quirky-annoying continuum. And yes! Go Emily!

I’m actually with her on this. She and Christopher are great together. Her and Luke? There’s chemistry but if it was going to happen it shouldn’t have taken 7 seasons and a 4 part special.

I’ve just had so many thoughts so quickly I’m not sure what I think anymore.