If you get the reference from the cake I'll be very happy

I would love that lol

Cool

*But I can't push myself to hard focus on drawing or game design because I get either too unmotivated and depressed so I have to take a break but when I do take a break I feel like a failure and I should be productive but I'm extremely hesitant to draw, a perfectionist, and low energy

I always wanted to be a game designer as a kid but I never made a single game let alone a demo and I'm going to turn 19 I always feel insecure and envious of people who are younger than me making better art or games than me as it feels like I've been slacking off my entire life but I can push myself

I'm tired of hearing "how are you going to handle a job if you can't listen to me or how are you going to talk to your boss this"

Ashamed to admit it but the most I've been doing this summer was playing games trying to escape reality I did work on my hobbies slightly by getting ideas written down or getting more artwork to study and practice but I don't feel proud of doing the bare minimum

I need to get my shit together

Also I've been feeling a lot better now been relaxing enjoying comfort media although I have been slacking off occasionally doodling and I feel bad for not doing anything productive but I'm thinking about getting a job or start learning to drive