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at 22, chuuya knows that he and dazai are inevitably bound.

and chuuya knows that he won't do anything to break the chains around their wrists.

but he never expected to feel dazai's arms tightening around him and pulling him closer against his chest.

"i'll always save you."

"you wound me, chuuya."

"you saved me, dazai."

chuuya expects dazai to tease him, especially now that he doesn't have the strength to fight him back.

"chibi is truly an idiot."

normally, chuuya would insult dazai back. but it's comforting to hear his voice.

"you're here," he says in a feeble whisper.

"did you have any doubts?"

chuuya can imagine dazai's smirk gracing his lips.

"i had."

screaming his name out loud.

then his mind blacks out. and it's all darkness.

when chuuya opens his eyes, he wakes up feeling exhausted.

a pair of bandaged arms holds him tight as chuuya rests on someone's chest.

ancient god residing inside his human body.

"grantors of dark disgrace,"

chuuya thinks about the only person who can save him.

he closes his eyes.

dazai won't save him.

"do not wake me again."

before corruption scars his body, chuuya believes he's heard a familiar voice

chuuya trusts dazai with his life.

the only problem this time is that dazai is not around.

chuuya didn't want to use corruption. but he had no choice.

even if dazai is not here to save him, chuuya has to chant the phrase he knows by heart and let himself be consumed by the

chuuya did not have another choice.

but he's done it other times, he relinquished his control to dazai more times than he will ever admit.

because, even after everything they went through, chuuya trusts dazai.

it's unconditional.

it's irrational.

but this is what it is.

to oda that dazai had finally decided to leave.

at 22, chuuya meets dazai after four years of no contact at all, in the dungeons of the mafia.

also at 22, chuuya is using corruption once again.

he wasn't supposed to allow arahabaki to take over his body this time, and yet

at 18, chuuya has fallen in love with dazai.

he should hate dazai for leaving him behind when he deflects the mafia, but honestly? chuuya is glad that at least one of them is free.

he simply loathes the fact that dazai didn't warn him. and he hates the fact that it was thanks

at 17, something changes in the way chuuya sees dazai.

he doesn't have a name for it yet, but somehow he doesn't loathe the idea of being dazai's partner anymore.

at 16, chuuya hates dazai even more.

and he hates the fact that they save yokohama together.

he should have done it with his friends, the flags, but they're all dead.