I'm so likely not gonna post anything this month either, but I...dont mind at all...art is supposed to be something I have fun doing, not something that stresses me out, its not like its a job, and a job well done also takes time...a LOT of time
Thank you very much for reading if you reached the end

Having a ton of ideas I want to do ALREADY sure still...gives me anxiety...but forcing myself to get them done as quick as possible will only end in disaster, I gotta be slow and not worry if i will take too long, why worry about the future when I have to live the moment

it sounds a little stupid, but really...I have to just....not worry if I haven't posted art in a long while, I'm not a fast artist...I'm a slow artist, this is who I am and I should embrace it

my art looks a lot better when I am slow and put so much love in it, and it makes me feel...amazing

I've been taking some psychologist appointments for over a year already to get over this overwhelming anxiety and...I made a new mentality for myself that's been doing absolute wonders in my life, I can just take all the time I want to make a singular picture as high quality as I want it to be

I would often get really...really upset if a picture I just finished doesnt surpass my expectations...or makes me feel like it could have been better if I just had a little more time....
it would actually make me feel so stressed and anxious constantly pushing myself to get stuff done

I learned that, I really don't need to push myself to get art quickly, when I first made this account, I thought I would need to push myself to be continuously getting content done...often making me upset if I would take too long (over a week and a half) to make another new picture