not a fun time

ever since i was a little girl and my sister died i didnt understand it. why does He fucking take everything from us? id need more than 2 hands to count the amount of loss ive experienced in my life and each loss just confuses me further. i feel like ill never have closure.

ihad no money on my paypal but its connected to my bank card so im scared

and now i cant fucking spell either just put a bullet in me now

"oh sixx hasn't touched this in a singular day must mean she doesn't want it at all" is a common and annoying occurrence in my house

i love him so dearly, i genuinely dont see myself spending the rest of my life with anyone else but holy SHIT he can be so frustratingly fucking stupid and its something i dont want continuing if we get married and have kids yknow

i could have my dad's lasagna but my acid reflux will KILL MEEEEE after i just want something mild pls