pixel heart
@pxelheart.is.eepy.now
mentally ill msw student
my page is practically a public diary
23 | she/they | me core:
https://tellonym.me/pixelheart
my page is practically a public diary
23 | she/they | me core:
https://tellonym.me/pixelheart
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![A summary of my 2025 playback:
Top Tracks—
1. The Perfect Girl by Mareux (slowed)
2. Hunger on Hillside by J. Cole
3. A Burning Hill by Mitski
4. Wasteland by Royal & the Serpent (Arcane devastated me lmao)
5. So Sick by saraunh0ly
Top Artists—
1. Mitski (DUH)
2. Lil Peep (I’m depressed lmao)
3. [redacted] (too controversial)
4. J. Cole (love him, my fav male rapper)
5. Weepings
Top Genres—
1. Hip Hop
2. Pop
3. Electronic
4. Indie
5. Folk
Top Moods—
1. Powerful
2. Romantic
3. Relaxed
4. Quirky
5. Dark](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:xbjmbsi43wxgvt6nt3wmrye5/bafkreienni5emkgyeo7pkbv6ocb77orgkxhn5x2bbumyp22t3zqi6cveme@jpeg)
This is not helping with the parasocial connection I have with Mitski at all. Feeding my delusions SoundCloud 😩
Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.
Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.
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i feel like god should worship me
December 8, 2025 at 3:24 AM
i feel like god should worship me
I build entire character arcs with cinematic pacing bc I like to pretend to be different ppl lol. My mom is like “you should write a book.” Why does everything need to be monetized and distributed 😵
The plots are juicy but they’re also just for me… and occasionally my sister who I yap to!
The plots are juicy but they’re also just for me… and occasionally my sister who I yap to!
December 8, 2025 at 12:23 AM
I build entire character arcs with cinematic pacing bc I like to pretend to be different ppl lol. My mom is like “you should write a book.” Why does everything need to be monetized and distributed 😵
The plots are juicy but they’re also just for me… and occasionally my sister who I yap to!
The plots are juicy but they’re also just for me… and occasionally my sister who I yap to!
On break only to realize I’m depressed. I don’t even have hobbies. I have coping mechanisms that I was using to dissociate. Now I get a break from being exploited, for a few weeks, I’m losing my mind. Not much distress to dissociate from & I’m bored. Free time who?
on.soundcloud.com/4SJ01reokeNG...
on.soundcloud.com/4SJ01reokeNG...
House featuring John Cale
Listen to House featuring John Cale by charlixcx #np on #SoundCloud
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December 7, 2025 at 5:28 PM
On break only to realize I’m depressed. I don’t even have hobbies. I have coping mechanisms that I was using to dissociate. Now I get a break from being exploited, for a few weeks, I’m losing my mind. Not much distress to dissociate from & I’m bored. Free time who?
on.soundcloud.com/4SJ01reokeNG...
on.soundcloud.com/4SJ01reokeNG...
When Chappell Roan said, “I try not to care but it hurts my feelings” yeah I felt that.
December 7, 2025 at 4:26 PM
When Chappell Roan said, “I try not to care but it hurts my feelings” yeah I felt that.
FINALLY FINALLY FUCKING FINALLY !!
I finished my last paper for the fall 2025 semester 8 minutes ago 😎
I finished my last paper for the fall 2025 semester 8 minutes ago 😎
December 6, 2025 at 11:48 PM
FINALLY FINALLY FUCKING FINALLY !!
I finished my last paper for the fall 2025 semester 8 minutes ago 😎
I finished my last paper for the fall 2025 semester 8 minutes ago 😎
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I <3 trauma dumping on the internet
December 6, 2025 at 4:55 PM
I <3 trauma dumping on the internet
One of my younger sisters actually used to call me her plant. For me pretty depressing reasons actually but anyway it makes me like this checkpoint card even more.
December 6, 2025 at 4:14 PM
One of my younger sisters actually used to call me her plant. For me pretty depressing reasons actually but anyway it makes me like this checkpoint card even more.
I need everyone here to know that “a running house faucet” was in my top 50 songs this year bc urine drug testing is extremely unaccommodating for ppl with anxiety disorders. I will die on that hill. The second peeing felt like a goddamn performance I suddenly couldn’t do it ._.
December 5, 2025 at 1:07 PM
I need everyone here to know that “a running house faucet” was in my top 50 songs this year bc urine drug testing is extremely unaccommodating for ppl with anxiety disorders. I will die on that hill. The second peeing felt like a goddamn performance I suddenly couldn’t do it ._.
Being intelligent is lonely. Being educated is even lonelier. Do you all think you can be loved without being understood? I’ve been contemplating this recently. Maybe you can, but love without understanding just makes me feel lonelier. I don’t want to constantly explain everything to someone else.
December 5, 2025 at 11:36 AM
Being intelligent is lonely. Being educated is even lonelier. Do you all think you can be loved without being understood? I’ve been contemplating this recently. Maybe you can, but love without understanding just makes me feel lonelier. I don’t want to constantly explain everything to someone else.
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men when someone fem presenting are visibly uncomfortable and are trying to be a people pleaser so they don't die: wow ... I think she's in love with me
December 4, 2025 at 9:30 PM
men when someone fem presenting are visibly uncomfortable and are trying to be a people pleaser so they don't die: wow ... I think she's in love with me
I want someone to care about me for once and not just what I can do for them.
December 4, 2025 at 2:41 AM
I want someone to care about me for once and not just what I can do for them.
on.soundcloud.com/yCmDbILSCEDQ...
Tbh this song is a mood lately bc idk wtf is the air, but it’s not cute at all. My ***** what?? Get tf out. I’m actually pissed. I want to punch this man in the face. Go ahead & message this number wild shit since he wanna give out his number so damn bad.
Tbh this song is a mood lately bc idk wtf is the air, but it’s not cute at all. My ***** what?? Get tf out. I’m actually pissed. I want to punch this man in the face. Go ahead & message this number wild shit since he wanna give out his number so damn bad.
December 3, 2025 at 10:59 PM
on.soundcloud.com/yCmDbILSCEDQ...
Tbh this song is a mood lately bc idk wtf is the air, but it’s not cute at all. My ***** what?? Get tf out. I’m actually pissed. I want to punch this man in the face. Go ahead & message this number wild shit since he wanna give out his number so damn bad.
Tbh this song is a mood lately bc idk wtf is the air, but it’s not cute at all. My ***** what?? Get tf out. I’m actually pissed. I want to punch this man in the face. Go ahead & message this number wild shit since he wanna give out his number so damn bad.
Me making typos on here is killing me inside. Edit button when?? WHEN??
December 3, 2025 at 7:05 PM
Me making typos on here is killing me inside. Edit button when?? WHEN??
This is not helping with the parasocial connection I have with Mitski at all. Feeding my delusions SoundCloud 😩
Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.
Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.
December 3, 2025 at 7:00 PM
This is not helping with the parasocial connection I have with Mitski at all. Feeding my delusions SoundCloud 😩
Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.
Also I’m sorry but Megan and Mitski are two sides of the same coin. I’m a sad lover girl through and through.
My supervisor: you were here until 6pm? 😳… yes like bro. 15 minutes per progress note —> 45 minutes. My last appt ended at 5pm. So that’s 5:45pm then I had to email admin bc I kept making documentation mistakes. So… there you go 15 more minutes plus packing up all my shit etc.
This woman omfg
This woman omfg
December 3, 2025 at 3:23 PM
My supervisor: you were here until 6pm? 😳… yes like bro. 15 minutes per progress note —> 45 minutes. My last appt ended at 5pm. So that’s 5:45pm then I had to email admin bc I kept making documentation mistakes. So… there you go 15 more minutes plus packing up all my shit etc.
This woman omfg
This woman omfg
I was upset bc well it’s my finals week, I didn’t stick to my schedule so now I have to cram all my finals into 4 days. My internship treats me badly that has never been a secret I’m excluded from things all the time. I wanted to leave early bc of safety concerns: I take the bus, it’s dark, icy etc.
I am not okay.
December 3, 2025 at 1:18 PM
I was upset bc well it’s my finals week, I didn’t stick to my schedule so now I have to cram all my finals into 4 days. My internship treats me badly that has never been a secret I’m excluded from things all the time. I wanted to leave early bc of safety concerns: I take the bus, it’s dark, icy etc.
About to document all my afternoon appts 🥹… hoping to somehow finish in time to make the next bus. Watching my supervisor leave like happy holidays demon 🙄
December 2, 2025 at 10:00 PM
About to document all my afternoon appts 🥹… hoping to somehow finish in time to make the next bus. Watching my supervisor leave like happy holidays demon 🙄
Not only is my boss not letting me leave early but I have 3 appts back to back. All same day documentation and I’m on break from my internship after this. SCREAMING SCREAMING SCREAMING BANGING MY HEAD ON THE WALL. No not actually. I am the face of calm, in this corporate climate.
December 2, 2025 at 6:11 PM
Not only is my boss not letting me leave early but I have 3 appts back to back. All same day documentation and I’m on break from my internship after this. SCREAMING SCREAMING SCREAMING BANGING MY HEAD ON THE WALL. No not actually. I am the face of calm, in this corporate climate.
I love how me and a bunch of my mutuals are at work 😭
This day could be winter whimsy but adulthood enters the chat so now it’s just misery
This day could be winter whimsy but adulthood enters the chat so now it’s just misery
it’s snowing and instead of being cozy in my bed i’m suffering at work
December 2, 2025 at 2:45 PM
I love how me and a bunch of my mutuals are at work 😭
This day could be winter whimsy but adulthood enters the chat so now it’s just misery
This day could be winter whimsy but adulthood enters the chat so now it’s just misery
My grief is that even if I bled out I would still give ppl my bones if I thought for even a moment I was reducing the suffering of others. I have made myself a martyr and I’m not sure the reason is noble when repeatedly the cost has been my mind, my body. This is not love, it’s destruction. Sick.
December 2, 2025 at 12:14 PM
My grief is that even if I bled out I would still give ppl my bones if I thought for even a moment I was reducing the suffering of others. I have made myself a martyr and I’m not sure the reason is noble when repeatedly the cost has been my mind, my body. This is not love, it’s destruction. Sick.
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i am so loser core
November 30, 2025 at 10:40 PM
i am so loser core
Finally let the religious ppl by my job pray over me. My lip twitched the whole time. I respect others beliefs BUT they don’t know what demons I’m fighting. To call my light god’s light? To say I strayed from him? He abandoned me. Anyway photo dump cuz look how cute I am finding joy despite the odds
December 1, 2025 at 11:07 PM
Finally let the religious ppl by my job pray over me. My lip twitched the whole time. I respect others beliefs BUT they don’t know what demons I’m fighting. To call my light god’s light? To say I strayed from him? He abandoned me. Anyway photo dump cuz look how cute I am finding joy despite the odds
Me thinking I would get to leave work early just for my last client to reschedule to the last possible hour for appts. I fucking hate it here T_T
December 1, 2025 at 8:53 PM
Me thinking I would get to leave work early just for my last client to reschedule to the last possible hour for appts. I fucking hate it here T_T
My youngest sister (who is very greedy) suspiciously gave me a pudding cup. This pudding cup tastes like lotion if lotion was edible. I am suspicious. She wouldn’t actually feed me lotion… would she?? It’s even thick like lotion 😭
December 1, 2025 at 6:56 PM
My youngest sister (who is very greedy) suspiciously gave me a pudding cup. This pudding cup tastes like lotion if lotion was edible. I am suspicious. She wouldn’t actually feed me lotion… would she?? It’s even thick like lotion 😭