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mentally ill msw student
my page is practically a public diary
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MY DAD JUST TOLD ME HE LIKES BOTHERING ME AS A HOBBY BECAUSE I GET “SCRAPPY” THEN PROCEEDED TO COMPARE ME TO THE DOG SCRAPPY FROM SCOOBY DOO THEN MAKE A JOKE ABOUT ME BEING YAPPY?!
January 25, 2026 at 6:56 PM
MY DAD JUST TOLD ME HE LIKES BOTHERING ME AS A HOBBY BECAUSE I GET “SCRAPPY” THEN PROCEEDED TO COMPARE ME TO THE DOG SCRAPPY FROM SCOOBY DOO THEN MAKE A JOKE ABOUT ME BEING YAPPY?!
I am not invalid :c
What the hell bsky !!
What the hell bsky !!
January 25, 2026 at 4:50 PM
I am not invalid :c
What the hell bsky !!
What the hell bsky !!
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I cried on the way home. There are some parts of grad school no one rlly talks about, that no one can rlly prepare you for. I gave my everything for this. Some nights it doesn’t feel worth it anymore. I want more for myself than this. I truly do want my life to be more than constant pain & effort.
January 23, 2026 at 3:36 AM
I cried on the way home. There are some parts of grad school no one rlly talks about, that no one can rlly prepare you for. I gave my everything for this. Some nights it doesn’t feel worth it anymore. I want more for myself than this. I truly do want my life to be more than constant pain & effort.
Idk how I feel so overwhelmed when I spent all day yesterday doing nothing. I feel overwhelmed bc now I still have to do all the same stuff but in less time great !! Fucking peachy
January 22, 2026 at 6:43 PM
Idk how I feel so overwhelmed when I spent all day yesterday doing nothing. I feel overwhelmed bc now I still have to do all the same stuff but in less time great !! Fucking peachy
January 22, 2026 at 2:22 AM
The trauma is hitting so hard tonight. I want to drink 💀
January 21, 2026 at 4:11 AM
The trauma is hitting so hard tonight. I want to drink 💀
First official day with my new supervisor. It’s 6°F and I don’t want to go to work 😃
January 20, 2026 at 1:27 PM
First official day with my new supervisor. It’s 6°F and I don’t want to go to work 😃
Randomly saying “where’s my phone?” And my sister can no longer tell if I genuinely lost it again or if I’m just referencing Mitski. I love it lmao
January 19, 2026 at 1:17 AM
Randomly saying “where’s my phone?” And my sister can no longer tell if I genuinely lost it again or if I’m just referencing Mitski. I love it lmao
SIGH!!! Me when I was 21 going to my younger sisters middle school graduation and the lady responsible for seating looked dead at me with all the seriousness of a heart attack and said “are you the graduate?” Do I look 13 to you ?? My parents laughed, I died inside
January 18, 2026 at 6:02 PM
SIGH!!! Me when I was 21 going to my younger sisters middle school graduation and the lady responsible for seating looked dead at me with all the seriousness of a heart attack and said “are you the graduate?” Do I look 13 to you ?? My parents laughed, I died inside
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mitski is finally betting on winning cats
January 17, 2026 at 10:02 PM
mitski is finally betting on winning cats
My mistakes this week were not continuing to use time management, watching my friend play the SIMS instead of doing homework and then staying up until 6am after taking a huge nap. I was doing so good whyyyyy
January 17, 2026 at 5:57 PM
My mistakes this week were not continuing to use time management, watching my friend play the SIMS instead of doing homework and then staying up until 6am after taking a huge nap. I was doing so good whyyyyy
I know I’ll get shunned for setting a boundary but honestly this is becoming an every week/every other week thing. I feel like I’ve helped my mom out a lot but my sister refusing to use her resources & eat the FREE school lunch when she knows we’re struggling financially pisses me off. So I said no
![A screenshot of text messages between me and my mom after a heated phone call where she asked me to send my sister money for lunch and I said no.
Mom: Her supervisor isn't there. Can you please send her the money? I will send you $15 when I get paid
Mom: I get paid next Friday
Context: my mom owes me $61 and has owed me money since November of last year. I feel very strongly about being paid back considering I’m funding my own graduate degree through LOANS while living with my parents and I don’t have a paying job so I have to budget the loan money for school, books, transportation, food, licensure, graduation etc. I have sent my sister money for lunch multiple times bc my younger sister in high school REFUSES to take the free packed lunch offered at her school. Her high school does community based internships one day of the week. There was also leftover food she could have packed in the fridge. I told my mom the last 2 times i paid for my sister’s lunch that it was “the last time.” This time I meant it.
Me: I said no. Idk why ur pressuring
Me: When again [redacted] is only in this situation bc of herself.
Honestly it felt good to name this even though I know she’s pissed and I’ll get the silent treatment / made to feel like I’m the villain](https://cdn.bsky.app/img/feed_thumbnail/plain/did:plc:xbjmbsi43wxgvt6nt3wmrye5/bafkreicxmpr323scmlmuvxrfi4awplrebqhfdyzweyonurhb65byqaeb5i@jpeg)
January 16, 2026 at 5:26 PM
I know I’ll get shunned for setting a boundary but honestly this is becoming an every week/every other week thing. I feel like I’ve helped my mom out a lot but my sister refusing to use her resources & eat the FREE school lunch when she knows we’re struggling financially pisses me off. So I said no
Also am I rlly an a functional adult when my mom came to my room at 2am asking if I’m asleep bc she’s curious if I ate dinner or not? 😭
The answer is almost always no.
Ain’t no fucking way
The answer is almost always no.
Ain’t no fucking way
January 16, 2026 at 2:50 PM
Also am I rlly an a functional adult when my mom came to my room at 2am asking if I’m asleep bc she’s curious if I ate dinner or not? 😭
The answer is almost always no.
Ain’t no fucking way
The answer is almost always no.
Ain’t no fucking way
Me when someone calls something easy but it was nothing short of fucking confusing for me ??
How do you literally work for the board and ur answer is IDK?? Don’t you literally review everyone’s applications?
I don’t need to be talking to ppl first thing in the morning I’m annoyed.
How do you literally work for the board and ur answer is IDK?? Don’t you literally review everyone’s applications?
I don’t need to be talking to ppl first thing in the morning I’m annoyed.
January 16, 2026 at 2:13 PM
Me when someone calls something easy but it was nothing short of fucking confusing for me ??
How do you literally work for the board and ur answer is IDK?? Don’t you literally review everyone’s applications?
I don’t need to be talking to ppl first thing in the morning I’m annoyed.
How do you literally work for the board and ur answer is IDK?? Don’t you literally review everyone’s applications?
I don’t need to be talking to ppl first thing in the morning I’m annoyed.
Outlook recall why? Why must u embarrass me like this?? 🥲
January 15, 2026 at 8:48 PM
Outlook recall why? Why must u embarrass me like this?? 🥲
My teacher is sick so my afternoon class is online today. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I pay on campus tuition but have done mostly online courses. OSU is such a fucking scam. Then I recently learned for licensure exam approval it’s $80 meanwhile another $230 to take the exam. Sometimes I do feel like
I pay on campus tuition but have done mostly online courses. OSU is such a fucking scam. Then I recently learned for licensure exam approval it’s $80 meanwhile another $230 to take the exam. Sometimes I do feel like
January 15, 2026 at 3:34 PM
My teacher is sick so my afternoon class is online today. Ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
I pay on campus tuition but have done mostly online courses. OSU is such a fucking scam. Then I recently learned for licensure exam approval it’s $80 meanwhile another $230 to take the exam. Sometimes I do feel like
I pay on campus tuition but have done mostly online courses. OSU is such a fucking scam. Then I recently learned for licensure exam approval it’s $80 meanwhile another $230 to take the exam. Sometimes I do feel like
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I'm so tired this week man my bones ache and my spirit is not willing
January 15, 2026 at 3:06 PM
I'm so tired this week man my bones ache and my spirit is not willing
I could finish my online homework today and then finish the stuff I need to do to iron out my evaluation project BUT I choose joy 🥰 (I am so fucked).
January 14, 2026 at 9:28 PM
I could finish my online homework today and then finish the stuff I need to do to iron out my evaluation project BUT I choose joy 🥰 (I am so fucked).
Getting social work licensure makes no sense. Like wtf do u mean public address?? You want me to dox myself or something??
Nothing has ever made me feel as stupid as every single part of grad school 🤩
Nothing has ever made me feel as stupid as every single part of grad school 🤩
January 14, 2026 at 4:24 PM
Getting social work licensure makes no sense. Like wtf do u mean public address?? You want me to dox myself or something??
Nothing has ever made me feel as stupid as every single part of grad school 🤩
Nothing has ever made me feel as stupid as every single part of grad school 🤩
Thinking about how my supervisor undermined me when I was talking about the diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa just for me to be right. And she made such a big deal about it. I literally took a DSM class, own a copy, have a fucking background in psych, & did eating disorder prevention research
January 14, 2026 at 1:07 PM
Thinking about how my supervisor undermined me when I was talking about the diagnostic criteria for anorexia nervosa just for me to be right. And she made such a big deal about it. I literally took a DSM class, own a copy, have a fucking background in psych, & did eating disorder prevention research
I hate when ppl are mean to me like omg?? I’m a human being with feelings u fucking asswipe 🤯
January 14, 2026 at 12:26 PM
I hate when ppl are mean to me like omg?? I’m a human being with feelings u fucking asswipe 🤯
Went to sleep at 9pm, up at 4am. My sister gets up at 5am and will inevitably wake me up for a hour. I could go back to sleep… I rlly should since I have a class at 9am but maybe I indulged too much last night. Got donuts for me & my sister as a sweet treat but the guy put too much cream in my donut
January 14, 2026 at 9:21 AM
Went to sleep at 9pm, up at 4am. My sister gets up at 5am and will inevitably wake me up for a hour. I could go back to sleep… I rlly should since I have a class at 9am but maybe I indulged too much last night. Got donuts for me & my sister as a sweet treat but the guy put too much cream in my donut
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Still having to ask people how their holiday break was <<<<<
Damn I'm over all this shit‼️💥
Damn I'm over all this shit‼️💥
January 14, 2026 at 12:51 AM
Still having to ask people how their holiday break was <<<<<
Damn I'm over all this shit‼️💥
Damn I'm over all this shit‼️💥
Survived !
Last day with my abusive supervisor until the new guy takes over. Almost feels like a long sigh of relief but I still have to get through all of today with her 😵💫
January 13, 2026 at 10:42 PM
Survived !