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· Sep 3
About me:
29F
Bpd, Bulimia nervosa, Ptsd, SAD, agoraphobia
My ED relapse rules my life atm
Ugw 0lbs 0 ounces.
Don't enjoy life.
I post here to vent. I am unhealthy and probably dying. Do not do what I do.
Planning a huge fast for fall of this year. So, a week from now.
I'm a tortured soul #edsky
29F
Bpd, Bulimia nervosa, Ptsd, SAD, agoraphobia
My ED relapse rules my life atm
Ugw 0lbs 0 ounces.
Don't enjoy life.
I post here to vent. I am unhealthy and probably dying. Do not do what I do.
Planning a huge fast for fall of this year. So, a week from now.
I'm a tortured soul #edsky
If I could talk to you, I'd ask one question:
"Do you have any idea the harm you've caused?"
Trust is gone.
I'm not so much mad as I am sad and disappointed. But this will be the last fucking time I'll feel disappointed, because I give up on you.
You broke my belief in us.
"Do you have any idea the harm you've caused?"
Trust is gone.
I'm not so much mad as I am sad and disappointed. But this will be the last fucking time I'll feel disappointed, because I give up on you.
You broke my belief in us.
December 18, 2025 at 1:33 PM
If I could talk to you, I'd ask one question:
"Do you have any idea the harm you've caused?"
Trust is gone.
I'm not so much mad as I am sad and disappointed. But this will be the last fucking time I'll feel disappointed, because I give up on you.
You broke my belief in us.
"Do you have any idea the harm you've caused?"
Trust is gone.
I'm not so much mad as I am sad and disappointed. But this will be the last fucking time I'll feel disappointed, because I give up on you.
You broke my belief in us.
December 18, 2025 at 11:04 AM
I cant escape him or them so I go to my safe place where my ears ring and my head throbs and my size shrinks and they congratulate me for losing weight because I'm fat
#caterpillarsky
#caterpillarsky
December 18, 2025 at 3:52 AM
I cant escape him or them so I go to my safe place where my ears ring and my head throbs and my size shrinks and they congratulate me for losing weight because I'm fat
#caterpillarsky
#caterpillarsky
December 18, 2025 at 2:40 AM
December 17, 2025 at 6:35 PM
The link is back and this time it's sure, it whispers to me "you can never escape."
There is only one way to regain control of my life. And she protects me, as dark as it may seem.
#edbsky
There is only one way to regain control of my life. And she protects me, as dark as it may seem.
#edbsky
December 17, 2025 at 12:06 AM
The link is back and this time it's sure, it whispers to me "you can never escape."
There is only one way to regain control of my life. And she protects me, as dark as it may seem.
#edbsky
There is only one way to regain control of my life. And she protects me, as dark as it may seem.
#edbsky
December 16, 2025 at 8:29 PM
December 16, 2025 at 8:29 PM
It was gradual (over months) but... really? The final blow has to happen rn? Welp anyway we did it folks. I am now on the other side, where food isn't enjoyable anymore 😔
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 26, 2025 at 5:53 PM
It was gradual (over months) but... really? The final blow has to happen rn? Welp anyway we did it folks. I am now on the other side, where food isn't enjoyable anymore 😔
#edbsky
#edbsky
I had binge eating tendencies most of my life. How ironic that food doesn't make me feel any reward anymore right before Thanksgiving. Now I must search for a new copium. 🤷🏻♀️
#edbsky
#edbsky
November 26, 2025 at 5:28 PM
I had binge eating tendencies most of my life. How ironic that food doesn't make me feel any reward anymore right before Thanksgiving. Now I must search for a new copium. 🤷🏻♀️
#edbsky
#edbsky
me to my mother: please dont mention my grandparents. i shove their memory in my head away bc their loss was too painful.
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
November 24, 2025 at 5:54 PM
me to my mother: please dont mention my grandparents. i shove their memory in my head away bc their loss was too painful.
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
mother: ok
5 seconds later: mentions them
a week later: sends a pic of me with them
gee why do i have bulimia again?
#edbsky
November 24, 2025 at 3:01 PM
I'm too anxious and upset at my past mistakes.
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
November 24, 2025 at 2:00 PM
I'm too anxious and upset at my past mistakes.
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
The adderall doesn't help.
Skipping the eating part of today. Where's the Adam Sandler's click remote when I need it.
🍔 ⏩
#caterpillarsky
I don't want to be a woman, I don't want to be a man, I guess I'm a nothing.
November 24, 2025 at 12:53 AM
I don't want to be a woman, I don't want to be a man, I guess I'm a nothing.
November 23, 2025 at 9:21 PM
someone is sick in the house and i will NOT be sick thanksgiving day (aka bulimia paradise) so unfortunately I have to put the ED on hold and eat...v...v...vegetables and fruits. 😭 #edbsky
November 21, 2025 at 8:29 PM
someone is sick in the house and i will NOT be sick thanksgiving day (aka bulimia paradise) so unfortunately I have to put the ED on hold and eat...v...v...vegetables and fruits. 😭 #edbsky
Ed took all my energy. Coma-like state. I'm a zombie
November 21, 2025 at 10:43 AM
Ed took all my energy. Coma-like state. I'm a zombie
The eating disorder is never, ever fucking leaving me.
November 16, 2025 at 2:39 PM
The eating disorder is never, ever fucking leaving me.
500cals for 1 slice of pecan pie lol pecan bye
November 16, 2025 at 8:37 AM
500cals for 1 slice of pecan pie lol pecan bye
While starving: heavy eyebags, looked older, flat af hair
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
November 15, 2025 at 4:30 PM
While starving: heavy eyebags, looked older, flat af hair
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
While eating: complexion revives, eyes light up, cortisol lowers, hair looks less dead
I'm still in denial of my ed, btw. 💜 🍜
After a week of bingeing it's time to fast not because I care about my weight but because mom's doing that thing again where she ignores me for no reason and only responds with what she cares about and I'm sad because of it. #caterpillarsky #edbsky
November 14, 2025 at 6:07 PM
After a week of bingeing it's time to fast not because I care about my weight but because mom's doing that thing again where she ignores me for no reason and only responds with what she cares about and I'm sad because of it. #caterpillarsky #edbsky