CREED

i'm proud of you dad... you made it big...

(and the original creators of the source material)

OK HI YALL my friends hit an incredible 2k for the PCRF .. but just to get a little closer to the original goal >:-D gonna open up (5) 1-hour pixel commissions I’ll stream tomorrow YAYAY 🎀💗🧸 (around 2PM EST Sunday I’LL LINK HERE)

LINK HERE TO CLAIM: donate.tiltify.com/ee5e955e-b90...

O YA also rq here’s some additional examples of my pixel studies— again this raffle will be unlocked once the milestone is met 🧸💗 THANK YA

i will keep having these awful panic attacks and it's still possible that they might get worse, but it's reassuring to know that there are people who i can turn to when that happens.

thank you mari ❤️ i know we've only just met but you have been a good friend and i'm happy to have met you

another thing i wanted to mention. i get stressed in the morning and day cause everyone who triggers me are awake. and at night i'm too tired to stay awake. so every waking moment of every day is anxiety unless i distract myself with the internet. god forbid the wifi goes out

ope forgot to mention that i cannot afford medication or any kind of professional help. very much a factor in dying being my only option 👍

idk where i was going with this but i really needed an outlet. idk if i said everything i wanted to say. idek if writing all of that has even made me feel any better. sorry again for the vent on main, i really do not know where else i can talk about this that won't just be talking to a wall.

the internet has been my happy place but it has been getting harder even being on it. i'm grateful to have met my online friends and to see them everyday, but i am not entitled to your presence all the time, and other formd of distractions have not been keeping me calm.

i've convinced that my life has been doomed from birth. i have been treated so unfairly and i have no hope of getting out of the situation that was caused by my past. it really feels like the only option is to die. i cannot possible see a way out right now.

i have a lot of repressed anger because of that. i get easily triggered and it makes me explode from the smallest stressors. i have a lot of intrusive thougts about harming other people and myself, and it makes me grind my teeth when they happen.