time he behaves so shamefully. (Exhibitionism kink seed planted, not to bloom for decades yet...)

Notably, he never comes from these various forms of quasi-masturbation (he's never cum in his life and won't until the pon farr - he COULD but he won't) so he's never satisfied. + Everytime one his roommates moves around or wakes up he pauses or stops altogether, telling himself this is the last

Bc he's not only a Vulcan but he's also just not well liked. Yes. Not by anyone besides the captain...(and his thoughts wander again, repeating the cycle until he either passes out or settles for some form of quasi-masturbation that wouldn't be obvious to anyone else seeing it)

any moment and see him plainly & maybe he already got on someone's case for jerking it while SOME PEOPLE are trying to sleep ("C'mon, we're all guys. You get it right? Can't you just let it go?" <- He had not 'gotten it' nor had he let it go) and he KNOWS that if he's caught he'll never live it down

In case there's something wrong. Maybe engaging with it will help somehow?? But as he's going for his waistband he hears one of his roommates snore and jerks his hand back like he's been burned, expression neutral (eyes closed as if sleeping) & heart pounding. Bc ANYONE could look down or over at

And there's this odd, hot sensation between his legs he was told he wouldn't have to concern himself with until the fever and he is NOT feverish (he checked thrice) so he will NOT concern himself with it...that's his earnest intention. But the feeling is so insistent. Perhaps he should check

Sulu's other hand came up to completely encircle his own and keep the cup from falling & scalding them both. (Note: This was not one of Sulu's flirtations) and that memory slowly bleeds into fantasy the likes of which Tuvok's never had before (I like to think his crush on Jara was chaste, funnier)

I know those beds probably didn't have blankets just bc it'd be a pain to depict for the scene but imagine that's canonical & Tuvok's trying to be good and go to sleep but can't stop thinking about how the captain brushed his hand when reaching for the tea he gave him & when Tuvok jerked in surprise

Meanwhile Tuvok's discovering sexual attraction for the first time in his life at like 30. Which is NOT ideal because
1] He's concerned it'll be like his love incident and he'll lose himself in it
2] He shares a room with like 5 dudes

And maybe he plays into it a LITTLE....just a tiny bit. Sulu strikes me as a roguish man. Never as buttoned up as Kirk, even when he's captain. (Rand tuts about him flirting and Sulu's like flirting!? You haven't SEEN me flirting if you think that's it. & Rand laughs bc they're old friends.)

EXAAAAACTLY!!

YEAH Tuvok definitely strikes me as a strict person raised strictly so I like playing with that and making even other Vulcans think he's uptight. Sheath play is...[judgement-tinged pause] Just not something HE would ever do...It's improper. Epicurean, even. Then BAM!! Delta Quadrant!

In my beautiful mind there's a fic that draws insane parallels between simulated violence not being able to fulfill the urge to kill & simulated dick not being able to fulfill the urge to get fucked...one day it'll be real...Suder as a sexy bad influence on holier than thou Tuvok is so good to mee<3

Well actually three birds one stone bc of another headcanon I have which is that Tuvok looks down on men who masturbate. Aliens.....fine. They can't control themselves v_v but a VULCAN man should be more disciplined than that. (This is not a common Vulcan attitude)

Fluctuating headcanons of mine are that Tuvok has never utilized his sheath or jerked it before so this is sort of a two birds one stone situation. I just enjoy the thought of him trying both for the first time in the delta quadrant & absolutely losing it.

I love how down bad they are for each other...of COURSE she's gonna have his voice recorded for just such an occasion ❤️ It's probably a completely mundane message too! Doesn't matter, it still works for her~!

Vulcans can usually fully control whether or not their fra'al interlock except during pon farr. It's still POSSIBLE to control but not LIKELY. Either way, interlocking fra'al usually leads to intense telepathic contact (including shared sensation) and brings immense pleasure.