I’m sorry to the patrons who have had no new content this month, I’m truly so sorry. I’m gonna try and make up for that next week; I know it’s late in the month but I’m gonna still try. I’m really sorry to everyone I’m disappointing. This just hasn’t been a good year for me at all. I’m so sorry.

- for the move I’m hoping to be able to do soon, so if anyone ever wanted to donate a bit to help me get out of this hell hole of a town that’d mean a lot but never feel like you have to. Just thank you all so much. Im so grateful. I’m still so shocked this happened. Just thank you.

And I should say if you’re able to or want to donate to help me get out of this town or at the very least for now, be able to eat, it’d mean a ton to me. We’re starving. It’s bad.

Here’s my link. I don’t like begging but anything does help immensely. ko-fi.com/toastyraincl...

Thank you for reading this, if you did. I know it’s a lot and I apologize for all the crying.

If these posts annoy or bother you then please feel free to look the other way. I’m really ashamed of myself that I’m in this situation. I feel weak and useless. But I’m trying to be strong. I’m gonna work my ass off if I have to. Anything I have to do so me and my partner can be happy.

I apologize cause I feel very silly and honestly… weak for asking for help. But I don’t know what else to do. It’s a really, really bad time. Nothing wants to go right. This year has been nothing but hell for me. I just want something to go right.

And I should say if you’re able to or want to donate to help me get out of this town or at the very least for now, be able to eat, it’d mean a ton to me. We’re starving. It’s bad.

Here’s my link. I don’t like begging but anything does help immensely. ko-fi.com/toastyraincl...

Also IF I open comms back up, please just spread em around. If you’re not able to financially help I swear I totally get it, just boosting my stuff is honestly a huge help. If you could even boost my donations/kofi that’d be great. Anything.

Like I need to make a few thousand probably to make this work, so I’m gonna have to work my ass off. So please give me adopt ideas, for starters. I’ll try and make adopts soon. I’m still very shaken from typing all this and from general life but I need to fit more adopt making into my schedule.

us both mentally and will maybe get more pep in my step in general, especially cause we’ll be with friends and we won’t be alone anymore. I think that’d be amazing. So I bring this up because I’d really like help in whatever way anyone’s able to do.

And now the biggest thing. I’m trying to move out of this shitty little town that I think has a part in why my mental health has been so shitty. So I’m saving up as much as I can (after I have funds for groceries) so I can make this happen. I think me and my partner leaving this town will help

ONLY because I have quite a bit of owed work atm and I don’t want to pile it on even more, that’s not fair to everyone involved. Oh and don’t worry, even though I’ve been gone I HAVE been working as much as I possibly can. I just feel the need to let everyone know that.

Please just give me some time and I’ll try and respond. It’s taking a lot out of me to even post this. But basically I bring this up because I’m gonna do my best to maybe make some adopts to get some food for me and my partner. I may open regular comm slots too but I really don’t want to atm.

I’m sorry to everyone I’ve worried the last few months with my mental health and absences, I’m truly sorry. I really appreciate everyone caring so much and looking after me, I really don’t deserve such kindness. And I’m sorry I still haven’t responded to some folks, I’m still just really overwhelmed

So that’s another thing that’s been added to the stress of life and is why I haven’t been on lately. When you’re severely depressed and starving it’s kinda hard to do much of anything. I hope I’m wording everything well enough. I’m incredibly nervous to be making this post.

-SNAP benefits have been paused for this month. That’s literally the only way I’ve been able to feed me and my partner. We don’t make enough to handle our bills and grab groceries. We’ve tried looking for other work to maybe fix this but nothings worked out. We’re just kinda fucked.

I’m sorry cause I know this isn’t always something people want to hear but I figured yall deserved to know why I’ve been so quiet; it’s just so hard to talk right now. I’m so overwhelmed with life. Everything is terrible. I don’t even have money for food. If you’re in the US you’ll know that-