Lexi Vargas
@ofsoftthorns.bsky.social
When your world shatters not too many people will be there to pick you up from it. Make sure you take notice of who is by your side when you feel completely alone 21+ RP #SOA #MayansMC
- with her was making me more nervous than not.]
December 5, 2025 at 1:53 PM
- with her was making me more nervous than not.]
[I just looked at him like he was nuts because the idea of me and mama having a good day without them here.] Are you sure you didn’t hit your head today she always looks at me like I’m some kind of wierdo. [Maybe she was getting better but she wasn’t budging with a lot of it the idea of being home -
December 5, 2025 at 1:53 PM
[I just looked at him like he was nuts because the idea of me and mama having a good day without them here.] Are you sure you didn’t hit your head today she always looks at me like I’m some kind of wierdo. [Maybe she was getting better but she wasn’t budging with a lot of it the idea of being home -
- weird because I’m never with Mama by myself she doesn’t know what to do with me. She gets very awkward.
December 4, 2025 at 10:48 PM
- weird because I’m never with Mama by myself she doesn’t know what to do with me. She gets very awkward.
[once we were alone, I climbed on his lap carefully. I would never do this where anybody could see, but when we were alone, I was always on his lap or on his chest.] I’ll try. It really hurts to move and I’m not used to that either. You have to go to school tomorrow without me. This is going to be -
December 4, 2025 at 10:48 PM
[once we were alone, I climbed on his lap carefully. I would never do this where anybody could see, but when we were alone, I was always on his lap or on his chest.] I’ll try. It really hurts to move and I’m not used to that either. You have to go to school tomorrow without me. This is going to be -
- doing anything but laying on the couch and watching TV.” I was thankful he said something but the fact that I almost fell off the couch wasn’t fun. At least E was fast enough to catch me before anything happened.]
December 3, 2025 at 10:18 PM
- doing anything but laying on the couch and watching TV.” I was thankful he said something but the fact that I almost fell off the couch wasn’t fun. At least E was fast enough to catch me before anything happened.]
[I winced as I shifted on the couch. I felt like every time I took a deep breath. It was harder. ] She’s usually in bed by now and she’s being creepy again. [When Papa spoke up, I almost fell off the couch laughing. “ Dianna please if they were going to do something, they would. They aren’t -
December 3, 2025 at 10:18 PM
[I winced as I shifted on the couch. I felt like every time I took a deep breath. It was harder. ] She’s usually in bed by now and she’s being creepy again. [When Papa spoke up, I almost fell off the couch laughing. “ Dianna please if they were going to do something, they would. They aren’t -
- have happened to me.] I know why she keeps watching us, but it’s creepy. It’s not like we’re having sex in here.
December 3, 2025 at 3:55 PM
- have happened to me.] I know why she keeps watching us, but it’s creepy. It’s not like we’re having sex in here.
[The amount of comfort I had with him was hard to explain.] thank you. It really hurts to move. [the way, mama kept watching me was kind of creepy, but I understood it the way. The doctors explained things to me was if my brother hadn’t been looking there’s no telling what kind of damage would -
December 3, 2025 at 3:55 PM
[The amount of comfort I had with him was hard to explain.] thank you. It really hurts to move. [the way, mama kept watching me was kind of creepy, but I understood it the way. The doctors explained things to me was if my brother hadn’t been looking there’s no telling what kind of damage would -
- take a deep breath though. I have a feeling I’ll be relying on my machine lot more than I was when I first moved here. This sucks.
December 2, 2025 at 11:00 PM
- take a deep breath though. I have a feeling I’ll be relying on my machine lot more than I was when I first moved here. This sucks.
[I smiled cuddling into him closer because I felt safe with him.] I got into the choir and one of them was in the room. I think I don’t remember. [there was something comforting about being able to spend time with him. Most people don’t have this and I was aware of that.] I wish it didn’t hurt to -
December 2, 2025 at 11:00 PM
[I smiled cuddling into him closer because I felt safe with him.] I got into the choir and one of them was in the room. I think I don’t remember. [there was something comforting about being able to spend time with him. Most people don’t have this and I was aware of that.] I wish it didn’t hurt to -
-was just leaving school. I don’t even know who they were.
December 1, 2025 at 11:14 PM
-was just leaving school. I don’t even know who they were.
[when mama was out of sight, I kissed his cheek.] I’m confused. I don’t understand why they were after me. They messed up my hair and everything. [I would be happier if we were in one of our bedrooms, but neither one of us had a TV.] I hope these girls get in trouble for what they did because I -
December 1, 2025 at 11:14 PM
[when mama was out of sight, I kissed his cheek.] I’m confused. I don’t understand why they were after me. They messed up my hair and everything. [I would be happier if we were in one of our bedrooms, but neither one of us had a TV.] I hope these girls get in trouble for what they did because I -
- but I didn’t want to do it alone.
November 30, 2025 at 10:07 PM
- but I didn’t want to do it alone.
- [as much as I appreciated the visitors. I just wanted to cuddle into my family and hide. These girls had pulled out chunks of my hair among other things and I hated it. Mama said she would fix it but tonight I just wanted E to be as close as possible.] thank you for staying with me. I trust them -
November 30, 2025 at 10:07 PM
- [as much as I appreciated the visitors. I just wanted to cuddle into my family and hide. These girls had pulled out chunks of my hair among other things and I hated it. Mama said she would fix it but tonight I just wanted E to be as close as possible.] thank you for staying with me. I trust them -
[Once everyone had left, I cuddled into E making sure to thank Papa for arranging that visit because I didn’t know how long it would be before I could have another one. I was still having a hard time moving around that’s why I barely moved once I got cuddled into E.] did mama lock the door now? -
November 30, 2025 at 10:07 PM
[Once everyone had left, I cuddled into E making sure to thank Papa for arranging that visit because I didn’t know how long it would be before I could have another one. I was still having a hard time moving around that’s why I barely moved once I got cuddled into E.] did mama lock the door now? -
- see me. Even with the company I made sure E. was right by me, holding my hand the entire time.]
November 29, 2025 at 7:10 PM
- see me. Even with the company I made sure E. was right by me, holding my hand the entire time.]
- that wouldn’t allow it.” I looked around and he was right his wife was with him. Opie was with him and so was Nan. Papa‘s words were sweet “I told you I would find a way. I did now let’s get you inside so you can lay down.” I was carried in the house and settled on the couch before anyone could -
November 29, 2025 at 7:10 PM
- that wouldn’t allow it.” I looked around and he was right his wife was with him. Opie was with him and so was Nan. Papa‘s words were sweet “I told you I would find a way. I did now let’s get you inside so you can lay down.” I was carried in the house and settled on the couch before anyone could -
- what he was talking about until the smell of leather cigarettes and weed hit my nose. I turned my head, wincing slightly.] Uncle Otto! [the chuckle made me smile, but the words that followed made me cry. “Hey chickpea I didn’t come here by myself you know I wanted to, but there were some people -
November 29, 2025 at 7:10 PM
- what he was talking about until the smell of leather cigarettes and weed hit my nose. I turned my head, wincing slightly.] Uncle Otto! [the chuckle made me smile, but the words that followed made me cry. “Hey chickpea I didn’t come here by myself you know I wanted to, but there were some people -
[when we got home, mama got out of the car and she was grinning from ear to ear. I looked at E like Mama had lost her mind. Papa lifted me out of the car as carefully as possible, but it’s what he said that made everything make sense “someone is here to see you for a little bit.” I had no idea -
November 29, 2025 at 7:10 PM
[when we got home, mama got out of the car and she was grinning from ear to ear. I looked at E like Mama had lost her mind. Papa lifted me out of the car as carefully as possible, but it’s what he said that made everything make sense “someone is here to see you for a little bit.” I had no idea -
- chocolate and a movie when we get home?
November 28, 2025 at 4:32 PM
- chocolate and a movie when we get home?
[I hated that I couldn’t just walk out of the hospital, but rules were rules. Getting in the car hurt more than I thought it would but Papa said I could lay down across the backseat. He didn’t know it, but I had already made plans to do that. I rested my head on E’s lap smiling a little] Hot -
November 28, 2025 at 4:32 PM
[I hated that I couldn’t just walk out of the hospital, but rules were rules. Getting in the car hurt more than I thought it would but Papa said I could lay down across the backseat. He didn’t know it, but I had already made plans to do that. I rested my head on E’s lap smiling a little] Hot -
-really wanted to do was go home and curl up on the couch with E. I didn’t really understand why I was attacked. I just know that I needed this pain to go away.]
November 27, 2025 at 10:25 PM
-really wanted to do was go home and curl up on the couch with E. I didn’t really understand why I was attacked. I just know that I needed this pain to go away.]
- that. For now we are just staying long enough for her to get cleared and then we’re going home.” I was thankful for that because I hated hospitals. One of the nurses came in to check on me and she said it would be about 20 more minutes or so as long as I could keep food down for that long. All I -
November 27, 2025 at 10:25 PM
- that. For now we are just staying long enough for her to get cleared and then we’re going home.” I was thankful for that because I hated hospitals. One of the nurses came in to check on me and she said it would be about 20 more minutes or so as long as I could keep food down for that long. All I -
[I pressed the button to sit up, but winced at the discomfort doing this caused] ouch! I don’t have to go to school tomorrow do I? [Papa shook his head before taking a bite of pizza “no baby you need to heal up before you can go to school. Esai we’ll get all her schoolwork so don’t worry about -
November 27, 2025 at 10:25 PM
[I pressed the button to sit up, but winced at the discomfort doing this caused] ouch! I don’t have to go to school tomorrow do I? [Papa shook his head before taking a bite of pizza “no baby you need to heal up before you can go to school. Esai we’ll get all her schoolwork so don’t worry about -
- so much for many reasons.]_
November 27, 2025 at 4:07 AM
- so much for many reasons.]_