Seeing as my schedule will be lighter at work and seasonal depression will probably be off my ass, I think next time, I'll be able to actually do it. I'm looking forward to giving it another shot.

that's why I'm telling myself to stop worrying about it. I need to take a step back so it can keep being fun after the mayhem of this time of year is over. I made it half way in my first writathon, and I'm pretty happy about it at the end of the day.

I plan on participating in RR's spring writathon

That's a *lot* of writing for me, and I've been doing pretty much all of it with little to no planning. I open a canvas, think 'this is the direction I'm going', and let the words get me there. It's fun when I get in the zone and can just let it all play out. The fun's gone now, though, so

I 'failed' the Writathon, but as a personal challenge, It's more the guilt of failing on personal accountability that's making me feel ashamed about it. I shouldn't be, I know that well, but it's hard to convince yourself how to feel sometimes. Even so, I'm proud of how much I've managed.

Everything's kinda working against me right now. My work hours are doubled with the holidays, and seasonal depression is hitting, so I'm always exhausted. I was able to power through it to reach the midpoint deadline, but I lost steam after that. Hard. I'm just too tired to knock out 3k a day.

Maybe instead of ham-fisting AI into every software in existence maybe we can focus on making our software work, guys?

I cannot wait for the AI bubble to fucking implode even if it does spiral us into a fucking depression

Worth noting my writing here is raw and unedited. Spending too much time editing would make this pace way harder to maintain. Hoping to go through and revise it all after the story is done.