I got told I was chasing an unrealistic goal too...

But I want to attain it all!!! Let me make an attempt at least!!!

Also, am someone who have the witch of greed figurine in my room! So it can't be helped! (no correlation)

but work is not even finished yet and Im already so sleepy awawa

Thank you for the encouragement! 🫣 At times, I feel like Nin appreciated my effort more than my own self. So kind! Thank you!

At least communicate it to the mind, damned heart!!!

What is worse is because I was both reprimanded (for something I don't feel wrong, but aware is wrong in the way I communicate it) and praised (for something I didn't expect would be appreciated)

So I didn't even know why did I cry. Was it a sad, frustated, or happy tear????

I want to be an adult who can cooly goes "leave it to me!" as they finish everything well and always negotiate with calm tone of voice and clear head 😎

But I am still an adult who shed tear at work in front of client and wail about it in net to feel better waah 👶

Compared to back then, my emotion came out way too easily now though. As expected, once one learn freedom of expression, its difficult to revert back. But I do felt better this way, but I think its unwise to be this way aaaa. Of course, because I think the cause was petty. Augh, I'm embarrassed

I'm glad because my body is quick to give signal if it feel unhealthy or distressed. So I rarely get heavy sickness and recover fast. But it makes me unprofessional and troublesome at times. Also, I do worry what to do if I suddenly lost my ability to talk again. It was scary

Tbh, I know how to adapt mind to be happy even if I get hurt. I had history of being taught so before the concept of mental health(?) enter society

But despite of my mind, the feeling of "I don't want to get hurt" would win! My body would react even if I resist. I'm glad but I also dislike it