I don’t know how I’m supposed to function when I can’t sleep, I don’t feel safe, and I now know for sure that it’s up to me to defend myself if this happens again. Everything is so completely fucked that I feel bad even complaining but my world is very small and unbearable right now and I’m so tired

I feel like a shell of myself. I don’t enjoy anything anymore, I’ve given up on my hobbies and interests, I don’t feel safe going out but also don’t feel safe staying in, and every creak in the house has me running for the weapons the police shamed me for not having the night of the break-in.

I’ve lost all faith in the concept of justice and no longer feel safe in my own home much less in my community. I haven’t slept through the night since May. I dread every interaction I have with government agencies because the apathy and cruelty are built into the system. I’m tired and I’m done.

I feel more let down by the courts, the DA’s office, and local law enforcement than I ever could have imagined. I used to think that if someone breaks into your home to hurt you there are consequences. It turns out there really aren’t, especially if that person is a stranger to you.

Are your core muscles really tight? I do this and it feels like my middle is the only part of my body with structural integrity and the rest is just folding wherever and running on vibes.

Omg that face 😭

I just choked on my coffee, incredible.

I think this is still bothering her because she keeps muttering “Why were we there? Where were we?”

I felt like I had no emotions at all for like my first week or so and then they came back with a vengeance. It evened out though!!