Nettle
@neantog.bsky.social
Want to play league but my body says no 😡
January 14, 2026 at 7:32 AM
Want to play league but my body says no 😡
This account has become a dumb mini diary - badly documenting my exhaustion with my own company.
December 31, 2025 at 6:26 AM
This account has become a dumb mini diary - badly documenting my exhaustion with my own company.
Dreading the end of the year, and the start of the next.
Honestly I'd like to delete all these milestones from my life. I don't need more reminders of how hopelessly stuck I am.
Honestly I'd like to delete all these milestones from my life. I don't need more reminders of how hopelessly stuck I am.
December 29, 2025 at 7:05 AM
Dreading the end of the year, and the start of the next.
Honestly I'd like to delete all these milestones from my life. I don't need more reminders of how hopelessly stuck I am.
Honestly I'd like to delete all these milestones from my life. I don't need more reminders of how hopelessly stuck I am.
Just switch me off please switch me off
December 15, 2025 at 12:13 PM
Just switch me off please switch me off
I give up. I may as well not exist. I want to disappear. I don't want to know what comes after. I just want my awareness of existence to stop. Less than a handful would be impacted and I'm exhausted with the constant reminders of it. I tried and I give up. I want to just stop existing.
December 15, 2025 at 9:34 AM
I give up. I may as well not exist. I want to disappear. I don't want to know what comes after. I just want my awareness of existence to stop. Less than a handful would be impacted and I'm exhausted with the constant reminders of it. I tried and I give up. I want to just stop existing.
Mastery 10 on Nami. Supposedly she's the best blind pick supp, but for now I still blind play Senna better.
I miss Brawl.
I miss Brawl.
December 5, 2025 at 3:25 PM
Mastery 10 on Nami. Supposedly she's the best blind pick supp, but for now I still blind play Senna better.
I miss Brawl.
I miss Brawl.
Where Winds Meet is an excellent game, and it's providing much needed distraction from...well almost everything.
November 28, 2025 at 10:35 AM
Where Winds Meet is an excellent game, and it's providing much needed distraction from...well almost everything.
I regret trying again.
November 16, 2025 at 1:44 AM
I regret trying again.
I am just so done with being awake. Alert. Aware of anything. Every escape is taken away, tanited, or wants to constantly remind me of why I want to escape in the first place.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I am so tired.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I am so tired.
November 7, 2025 at 2:33 AM
I am just so done with being awake. Alert. Aware of anything. Every escape is taken away, tanited, or wants to constantly remind me of why I want to escape in the first place.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I am so tired.
I'm tired. I'm tired. I'm so tired. I'm so fucking tired. I am so tired.
Stopped playing Nami ages ago because I was crap with her Q. Started playing her again in Brawl, and turns out I'm now fairly decent with it.
Less than a week of Brawl left. I'm going to miss it :(
Less than a week of Brawl left. I'm going to miss it :(
October 15, 2025 at 4:52 AM
Stopped playing Nami ages ago because I was crap with her Q. Started playing her again in Brawl, and turns out I'm now fairly decent with it.
Less than a week of Brawl left. I'm going to miss it :(
Less than a week of Brawl left. I'm going to miss it :(
A bit less so now. A bit.
October 8, 2025 at 12:31 AM
A bit less so now. A bit.
I want to rip my face off and be swallowed by the ground
September 25, 2025 at 6:05 AM
I want to rip my face off and be swallowed by the ground
I'm so disappointed that right now it feels like I won't watch the race again.
It doesn't happen every tier, but too often the timing of when the various regions can start is too strong a deciding factor on the winner.
Only race in the world in which some regions get a head start. It's dumb.
It doesn't happen every tier, but too often the timing of when the various regions can start is too strong a deciding factor on the winner.
Only race in the world in which some regions get a head start. It's dumb.
August 24, 2025 at 4:34 AM
I'm so disappointed that right now it feels like I won't watch the race again.
It doesn't happen every tier, but too often the timing of when the various regions can start is too strong a deciding factor on the winner.
Only race in the world in which some regions get a head start. It's dumb.
It doesn't happen every tier, but too often the timing of when the various regions can start is too strong a deciding factor on the winner.
Only race in the world in which some regions get a head start. It's dumb.
I'm genuinely starting to feel like I have an issue with auditory processing. Add to the pile of symptoms I guess.
I just want to hide from everyone. I'm tired of just being a mess of symptoms ruining everyone's games.
I just want to hide from everyone. I'm tired of just being a mess of symptoms ruining everyone's games.
August 15, 2025 at 7:43 AM
I'm genuinely starting to feel like I have an issue with auditory processing. Add to the pile of symptoms I guess.
I just want to hide from everyone. I'm tired of just being a mess of symptoms ruining everyone's games.
I just want to hide from everyone. I'm tired of just being a mess of symptoms ruining everyone's games.
I need to quit but there's no one to replace me. I'm tired of getting angry and being shit company. I'm tired of constantly being reminded of how stupid I am. I'm tired.
August 15, 2025 at 2:29 AM
I need to quit but there's no one to replace me. I'm tired of getting angry and being shit company. I'm tired of constantly being reminded of how stupid I am. I'm tired.
Man I don't know what's going on with Aram these past few weeks...I'm almost constantly against teams full of junglers and tanks while my team is a squish fest. When the enemy team gets enough items they win just by outliving us.
Yes yes I know git gud, but I'm still only one person.
Yes yes I know git gud, but I'm still only one person.
August 5, 2025 at 2:47 AM
Man I don't know what's going on with Aram these past few weeks...I'm almost constantly against teams full of junglers and tanks while my team is a squish fest. When the enemy team gets enough items they win just by outliving us.
Yes yes I know git gud, but I'm still only one person.
Yes yes I know git gud, but I'm still only one person.
Who I was is gone. I don't have an identity outside of my health anymore. And this is why I'm easily forgotten.
August 4, 2025 at 2:09 AM
Who I was is gone. I don't have an identity outside of my health anymore. And this is why I'm easily forgotten.
It's been like this since my health got much worse. I must be unpleasant to be with but everyone pities me too much to say so. Or how good I was at games carried my friendships much more than I had thought.
I'm not sure which is worse. They're both shit. Same result anyway - on the sidelines.
I'm not sure which is worse. They're both shit. Same result anyway - on the sidelines.
August 4, 2025 at 1:48 AM
It's been like this since my health got much worse. I must be unpleasant to be with but everyone pities me too much to say so. Or how good I was at games carried my friendships much more than I had thought.
I'm not sure which is worse. They're both shit. Same result anyway - on the sidelines.
I'm not sure which is worse. They're both shit. Same result anyway - on the sidelines.
Been a tough few weeks. It's a little less tough now, thankfully. There is stuff I need to do. Maybe in a few days I can finally complete that stuff. It's been far too long.
Got the Masked Justice Senna skin and I think it's my new favourite skin. The visual and sound effects are amazing.
Got the Masked Justice Senna skin and I think it's my new favourite skin. The visual and sound effects are amazing.
July 22, 2025 at 8:59 AM
Been a tough few weeks. It's a little less tough now, thankfully. There is stuff I need to do. Maybe in a few days I can finally complete that stuff. It's been far too long.
Got the Masked Justice Senna skin and I think it's my new favourite skin. The visual and sound effects are amazing.
Got the Masked Justice Senna skin and I think it's my new favourite skin. The visual and sound effects are amazing.
Holy shit I got lucky today. Rng gave me two champion and one ward skin I've been wanting for ages.
Only a week of Brawl left. I'm going to be so sad when it's gone.
Raid later. I miss when I was good at it. I miss being able to have pride in being good at something. Fuck disability.
Only a week of Brawl left. I'm going to be so sad when it's gone.
Raid later. I miss when I was good at it. I miss being able to have pride in being good at something. Fuck disability.
June 17, 2025 at 7:39 AM
Holy shit I got lucky today. Rng gave me two champion and one ward skin I've been wanting for ages.
Only a week of Brawl left. I'm going to be so sad when it's gone.
Raid later. I miss when I was good at it. I miss being able to have pride in being good at something. Fuck disability.
Only a week of Brawl left. I'm going to be so sad when it's gone.
Raid later. I miss when I was good at it. I miss being able to have pride in being good at something. Fuck disability.
I'm going to be very sad when Brawl is gone. It's so bloody good.
June 13, 2025 at 5:30 AM
I'm going to be very sad when Brawl is gone. It's so bloody good.
Okay I think that was just a weird day. I've since done more matches and the match making wasn't crazily in favour of one team. I hope it's not common. I don't fancy fighting a group with many 60+ mastery peeps when my team is all sub 10, which I think is fair to dislike rofl.
I just want some normal games. I don't care if I lose, I just want the games to be normal. I can't improve if I'm borderline soloing my lane against a significantly more experienced team. All I learn is the match making is broken :(
May 13, 2025 at 5:08 AM
Okay I think that was just a weird day. I've since done more matches and the match making wasn't crazily in favour of one team. I hope it's not common. I don't fancy fighting a group with many 60+ mastery peeps when my team is all sub 10, which I think is fair to dislike rofl.