And I feel guilty.

I put myself in this situation.

Friends I had I kinda just drifted away from or poured myself into work just to stay busy and not have to interact.

Family is kinda clueless but good intentioned, they wish me well and pray for me best they can.

Just gotta keep on keeping on.

Maybe it’ll all get better.

I’ve always landed on my feet.

TikTok keeps me delusional with lots of tarot and vibe readings saying I’m gonna be fine.

And at least it gives me a glimmer of hope, even if logically it’s just silly.

At 33 I thought I’d be further than this.

Guess not.

Current workplace is a disaster to be nice about it.

Cut hours to half, and was offered 2/3rds pay for full time but if I’m trying to get back into a career job I need the time to apply and work on myself.

Side projects are stagnant.

Mentally and physically I’m just plateaued.

Glasses Ruffy 🥴