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// gelphie could be monkou if you really think about it *immediately gets shot to death*
November 25, 2025 at 1:13 AM
// gelphie could be monkou if you really think about it *immediately gets shot to death*
// imagining this as monkou before mokou leaves for shibuya...
November 25, 2025 at 1:10 AM
// imagining this as monkou before mokou leaves for shibuya...
you sound excited!
[ ...their tone was the exact same as it always is?? ]
okay, let's go. ^^
[ ...their tone was the exact same as it always is?? ]
okay, let's go. ^^
November 25, 2025 at 1:10 AM
you sound excited!
[ ...their tone was the exact same as it always is?? ]
okay, let's go. ^^
[ ...their tone was the exact same as it always is?? ]
okay, let's go. ^^
not... yet. i can't say it, not right now.
[ she feels awful saying that. it's just a four letter word, so why does it terrify her to even think about? even with kris' encouragement, she can't bring herself to utter it. ]
[ she feels awful saying that. it's just a four letter word, so why does it terrify her to even think about? even with kris' encouragement, she can't bring herself to utter it. ]
November 23, 2025 at 11:51 PM
not... yet. i can't say it, not right now.
[ she feels awful saying that. it's just a four letter word, so why does it terrify her to even think about? even with kris' encouragement, she can't bring herself to utter it. ]
[ she feels awful saying that. it's just a four letter word, so why does it terrify her to even think about? even with kris' encouragement, she can't bring herself to utter it. ]
[ she looks at them, eyes wide, frantic, like she's looking straight through them. ]
i cant.. even say it back. is that really okay? i can't say it back to you, i.. mmh. kris...
[ she calls out for them, pleading, but for what? she's asked so mucb of them already, she cant possibly ask for more. ]
i cant.. even say it back. is that really okay? i can't say it back to you, i.. mmh. kris...
[ she calls out for them, pleading, but for what? she's asked so mucb of them already, she cant possibly ask for more. ]
November 23, 2025 at 11:11 PM
[ she looks at them, eyes wide, frantic, like she's looking straight through them. ]
i cant.. even say it back. is that really okay? i can't say it back to you, i.. mmh. kris...
[ she calls out for them, pleading, but for what? she's asked so mucb of them already, she cant possibly ask for more. ]
i cant.. even say it back. is that really okay? i can't say it back to you, i.. mmh. kris...
[ she calls out for them, pleading, but for what? she's asked so mucb of them already, she cant possibly ask for more. ]
— i—... what the hell is wrong with me..?
[ stammering, her eyes squeeze shut, and it seems like she's slowly starting to shut down out of this pure terror that's engulfed her. she's so, so 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥. ]
[ stammering, her eyes squeeze shut, and it seems like she's slowly starting to shut down out of this pure terror that's engulfed her. she's so, so 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥. ]
November 23, 2025 at 11:06 PM
— i—... what the hell is wrong with me..?
[ stammering, her eyes squeeze shut, and it seems like she's slowly starting to shut down out of this pure terror that's engulfed her. she's so, so 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥. ]
[ stammering, her eyes squeeze shut, and it seems like she's slowly starting to shut down out of this pure terror that's engulfed her. she's so, so 𝘴𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘥. ]
i don't know. i don't know, i don't— know...
[ she shakes her head, voice as low as a whisper, yet she doesn't pull away. in fact, she grips their hands tightly, afraid to let go. afraid to let them leave. ]
kris, i just don't know.. there's something wrong with me. really wrong. —
[ she shakes her head, voice as low as a whisper, yet she doesn't pull away. in fact, she grips their hands tightly, afraid to let go. afraid to let them leave. ]
kris, i just don't know.. there's something wrong with me. really wrong. —
November 23, 2025 at 11:06 PM
i don't know. i don't know, i don't— know...
[ she shakes her head, voice as low as a whisper, yet she doesn't pull away. in fact, she grips their hands tightly, afraid to let go. afraid to let them leave. ]
kris, i just don't know.. there's something wrong with me. really wrong. —
[ she shakes her head, voice as low as a whisper, yet she doesn't pull away. in fact, she grips their hands tightly, afraid to let go. afraid to let them leave. ]
kris, i just don't know.. there's something wrong with me. really wrong. —
// dawg mine started too yesterday. suicide pact
November 23, 2025 at 10:37 PM
// dawg mine started too yesterday. suicide pact
because.. i'm willing to do whatever it takes. i'm tired of living this way. i'm tired of.. carrying this burden. if there's anything you can do to help me be free of it, then i'll.. i'll...
.. i'll do anything you ask.
.. i'll do anything you ask.
November 23, 2025 at 10:33 PM
because.. i'm willing to do whatever it takes. i'm tired of living this way. i'm tired of.. carrying this burden. if there's anything you can do to help me be free of it, then i'll.. i'll...
.. i'll do anything you ask.
.. i'll do anything you ask.
you're.. you're not stupid, or a dummy, or anything like that, so just stop saying that.
.. it's my fault, anyway. i knew my own future and my own nature this whole time and yet i still..
...
.. i got too selfish with your time. your attention. i'm such a horrible person..
.. it's my fault, anyway. i knew my own future and my own nature this whole time and yet i still..
...
.. i got too selfish with your time. your attention. i'm such a horrible person..
November 23, 2025 at 10:31 PM
you're.. you're not stupid, or a dummy, or anything like that, so just stop saying that.
.. it's my fault, anyway. i knew my own future and my own nature this whole time and yet i still..
...
.. i got too selfish with your time. your attention. i'm such a horrible person..
.. it's my fault, anyway. i knew my own future and my own nature this whole time and yet i still..
...
.. i got too selfish with your time. your attention. i'm such a horrible person..
( nc )
what the hell are you showing me right now.
what the hell are you showing me right now.
November 23, 2025 at 10:29 PM
( nc )
what the hell are you showing me right now.
what the hell are you showing me right now.
[ why does that make her face feel warm? ]
ah.. hehe. i guess you're right about that. well, you ready to go?
ah.. hehe. i guess you're right about that. well, you ready to go?
November 23, 2025 at 8:43 PM
[ why does that make her face feel warm? ]
ah.. hehe. i guess you're right about that. well, you ready to go?
ah.. hehe. i guess you're right about that. well, you ready to go?
you don't remember either..?
November 23, 2025 at 8:42 PM
you don't remember either..?
[ her eyes glimmer when they say that, the validation making her shiver when she pulls them impossibly closer.. like she were trying to crawl into their skin with them. she wishes she could. ]
me, too.. i want that, too.
... there's.. something else i haven't shown you yet. about me.
me, too.. i want that, too.
... there's.. something else i haven't shown you yet. about me.
November 23, 2025 at 11:03 AM
[ her eyes glimmer when they say that, the validation making her shiver when she pulls them impossibly closer.. like she were trying to crawl into their skin with them. she wishes she could. ]
me, too.. i want that, too.
... there's.. something else i haven't shown you yet. about me.
me, too.. i want that, too.
... there's.. something else i haven't shown you yet. about me.
— than anything, i want... god, i want..
[ her words border on nonsense but she continues to speak as if in a daze. ]
ahh.. am i crazy? i feel like.. an insane person. you can be honest.
[ her words border on nonsense but she continues to speak as if in a daze. ]
ahh.. am i crazy? i feel like.. an insane person. you can be honest.
November 23, 2025 at 10:57 AM
— than anything, i want... god, i want..
[ her words border on nonsense but she continues to speak as if in a daze. ]
ahh.. am i crazy? i feel like.. an insane person. you can be honest.
[ her words border on nonsense but she continues to speak as if in a daze. ]
ahh.. am i crazy? i feel like.. an insane person. you can be honest.
i'd let you do the same, you know..
[ now that she's started, she can't stop rambling, words spilling from her mouth as she peppers more kisses across mokou's face. ]
..i.. i've never felt that way before. wanting to consume and be consumed entirely.. but i just want to be close to you. more —
[ now that she's started, she can't stop rambling, words spilling from her mouth as she peppers more kisses across mokou's face. ]
..i.. i've never felt that way before. wanting to consume and be consumed entirely.. but i just want to be close to you. more —
November 23, 2025 at 10:57 AM
i'd let you do the same, you know..
[ now that she's started, she can't stop rambling, words spilling from her mouth as she peppers more kisses across mokou's face. ]
..i.. i've never felt that way before. wanting to consume and be consumed entirely.. but i just want to be close to you. more —
[ now that she's started, she can't stop rambling, words spilling from her mouth as she peppers more kisses across mokou's face. ]
..i.. i've never felt that way before. wanting to consume and be consumed entirely.. but i just want to be close to you. more —
// ITS SO FUNNY... im stalking yalls thread btw 👀
November 23, 2025 at 10:21 AM
// ITS SO FUNNY... im stalking yalls thread btw 👀
you're adorable.. i just wanna eat you up.
[ where is this coming from? she can't help but tease when they're being like this. ]
you'll let me, won't you?
[ she cups their face in her hands and kisses their nose. ]
[ where is this coming from? she can't help but tease when they're being like this. ]
you'll let me, won't you?
[ she cups their face in her hands and kisses their nose. ]
November 23, 2025 at 10:20 AM
you're adorable.. i just wanna eat you up.
[ where is this coming from? she can't help but tease when they're being like this. ]
you'll let me, won't you?
[ she cups their face in her hands and kisses their nose. ]
[ where is this coming from? she can't help but tease when they're being like this. ]
you'll let me, won't you?
[ she cups their face in her hands and kisses their nose. ]
[ each kiss lights her nerves, warmth spreading through her body to her fingertips. she chuckles at the way mokou speaks, almost a little dizzy herself. ]
all you. it's all you...
[ another kiss. she can't help herself. ]
don't argue with me. we'll be here all day, you know?
all you. it's all you...
[ another kiss. she can't help herself. ]
don't argue with me. we'll be here all day, you know?
November 23, 2025 at 10:08 AM
[ each kiss lights her nerves, warmth spreading through her body to her fingertips. she chuckles at the way mokou speaks, almost a little dizzy herself. ]
all you. it's all you...
[ another kiss. she can't help herself. ]
don't argue with me. we'll be here all day, you know?
all you. it's all you...
[ another kiss. she can't help herself. ]
don't argue with me. we'll be here all day, you know?
i'm.. grateful for it. really. to have your time and attention.
[ she almost craves it, at this point. ]
... i can still be helpful to you.
[ she almost craves it, at this point. ]
... i can still be helpful to you.
November 23, 2025 at 3:20 AM
i'm.. grateful for it. really. to have your time and attention.
[ she almost craves it, at this point. ]
... i can still be helpful to you.
[ she almost craves it, at this point. ]
... i can still be helpful to you.