So I'm wondering:
-Why?
-Did I stink that bad?
-Does he do this to alot of guys?
-Why?
-is he flirting???
-WHY?!?! 😂😂

Anywho, its in my Amazon cart for next month. That shit did last for a good while so I'm gonna buy it next month when I get paid.

And its cologne?? Sprays my wrist alittle.
Asks for my opinion and I give it, says hes a purfumist and starts talking about it. So now I'm like... is he trying to sell me cologne??? In a locker room?? But then he tells me where to buy it cuz he said its cheaper online than through him lol.

(I'm naked very briefly cuz theyre soaks and its 28 out). He darts around the corner, but I did warn him lmao. Anywho I change and let him know to get his stuff, I move to the opposite bench so he had room after that slightly awkward moment. Next thing I know he says "smell this for me"

Also:
-Bench is basically back at 225
-when registering offered an intro session with a trainer (i am broke and was transparent but its complementary), and the guy put in the notes I had moderate powerlifiting experience 🤯 i think thats a stretch but I'll take it!
-theres a wider shot of these pics😉

Or pay my student loans. Whichever is better for him 😂

Idk, I think I'm at the point where I'm too jaded and need to give all the apps a break because everyone is pissing me off 😂
Maybe I'll try a cut this winter, and focus on music stuff for next year.
Im still going to post progress pics, but they will be, as they have, be for me to be proud of 😇

Sometimes it really just feels like all thats left is the people who are emotionally unavailable due to a previous relationship, going through a hoe phase (im am by no means judging just already did that lol), or guys that will only put in effort if everything is convenient for their current life😓

Mind you, I love that for them! I am a firm believer that there is a balance to it, and while everything is not for everyone, that's still pretty ideal for me.

Atp i feel like I'm once again a fantasy for someone but not worth putting in the time to get to know as a person. And it sucks because I see guys who have found love and meaningful friendships who show just as much or wayyy more skin!

Me 3 years ago would've ate this attention up and tried to make the conversation work because I was deeply insecure. But I'm just too tired to do that now. I do appreciate the compliments, especially as someone who is typically not "conventionally attractive" (aka skinny white with a 6pack).

14 when I came out to close family and all friends, 26 now.

*technically* never came out to extended family but its not a secret by any means, and most probably know by now. I think they just don't want to ask lol, but there will be no surprises when I do pop up with a man.