meanwhile, whenever i go online, i see stuff that instantly puts me back down to a shitty mood. i cannot afford to have more of that in my life right now

i dont wanna do the whole "social media bad" thing. it can be good when you're in a good mood to begin with. i guess i just am not

focusing on AI!!! YAY!!!!! AI AI AI EVERYTHING MUST HAVE AI!!!! WE MUST MAXIMIZE OUR PROFIT MARGINS WITH AI!!! BECAUSE EVERYONE WILL WANT AI AND OUR SHAREHOLDERS LOVE AIII!!!! BECAUSE THEY SAY AI HMMM YUMMY AI LOVE AIUFDG LOVEVAI I HATE ARTRTIDTS WHOD PAY FOR US ANDSD USE OUTRE PROFDSUCTSSW!E!!!G;

if i were to move, id want it to be somewhere closeby, like in europe. but...yeah, that doesn't seem to be happening soon too

turkey is more developed and is way safer, as there's pretty much no crime in the area i live in

meanwhile, brazil is more free, less internationally limiting, and possibly cheaper to live in

we're both fucked in different ways, so idk if it would be much of an upgrade overall lol

part of me is hoping that this is temporary and with the next elections things will get better, but sadly uneducated old people from rural areas don't care about that stuff

either way, we will see. there's always some hope 🤞

it really goes further than internet control, within a decade the whole country hit the rock bottom

got invited to gamescom, got tickets bought for me, yet i couldn't leave. got an award, yet i can't even get the trophy shipped to me

and this is like 10% of it. it sucks but what can you do

bluesky:

"mors you should move out to somewhere else"

IM BROKE!!!! PLUS NO OTHER COUNTRY WANTS ME!!!!

it's so over

the discord ban wasn't enough, now they're looking into banning steam because "child safety" or whatever the fuck. great! i love old people!

it's probably a few months away so you guys still have the time to pick up operus dx i guess

it's not even a big reveal. it's just showcasing an engine test, maybe some extra art alongside if we can get that done. i wanna be very open with the actual development process here, with frequent updates and shit

let's hope for the best

my big main project is coming to a point where it's ready to reveal. and it's kind of terrifying! what if nobody gives a shit? what if the game doesn't turn out to be good or interesting in the end? what if ive been just wasting my time in the end?

he wanted to be fancy

porting a whole ass custom c++ engine to the switch... that shit goes to my resume holy fuck it took me such a long time

and it works!!!! it just fucking works!!!!!

WHAT!!!!!!!!!!

im angry dont piss me off otherwise i will snap your neck in half