i just feel very On My Own lately. like everyone around me is just tired of putting up with me and my being stalled out for the last few years, which like, yeah, i'm also tired of being stalled out and feeling like a failure. i'm more tired of it than anyone else is. i promise.

ngl lately i have been struggling with feeling like i don't... have that. especially in a career way. i don't think any of my bosses have been Looking Out For Me in a mentor/mentee sense since my job at harvard, and that relationship got fucking kneecapped by covid.

genuinely still astounded at how no one gets this fucking movie. martin's not the villain. steven and the system that let him get away with causing a father's death scot-free is the villain. just because steven's the protagonist doesn't make him not the villain.

O To Be A Young Jewish Man Attending City College In The 1930s And Debating The Finer Points Of Trotskyism And Social Theory In The Alcoves

god i wish i had the time to be an organized crime scholar as much as i want to be. i miss doing my research and all the reading and developing fondness for and beef with other crime historians because BOY DO I HAVE A LOT OF OPINIONS