maybe those same people with the loyal friends they hang out with every day are just really good at faking it and are dealing with the same loneliness as me, everyone has their own problems.

I'm told by neighbors they hardly ever see me because I work all the time. I have told them my days off and that I'm open to drinking. They see me again and say they hardly see me again, ask me if I'm working, I say I'm totally free today, and then they go out drinking without me. It's fucked.

I've apologized multiple times. It's hard to enjoy anything, it's been on my mind the whole time. I will have to live with it for the rest of my life. I will have to accept that.

I'm sorry to say something so negative here. I might delete this later. I see some vtubers I really like that are supporting the awards show and it's difficult for me to also show support when I know who is in charge. I can't help but see them being taken advantage of for clout. It makes me sad.

Nice to see you Nenechi!