New pfp! Trying to get better at underpainting. Darker than I meant, but I love how it turned out. I love markers as a medium, but I’m limited by not only the selection I own, but also the ink in the reservoirs. RIP Sanjoki BG1 & BG2, hello COPIC CG1 & CG2! #bara #furry #traditionalart #gay #chubby

Oh, it’s finally finished, the revised draft of the first release of Calculated Risk, written in r̶e̶d̶ i̶n̶k̶ pencil! 45 pages. Spent more time on this than I meant to, but I really love it. I’m scared as shit to get an editor. I owe it to my sons, though. First time getting lightheaded from the ink.

I promised myself I wouldn’t post them until I’ve finalized designs, but I can’t wait! These are the protagonists of my Visual Novel, Calculated Risk. Now all I gotta do is draw the rest of their sprites, facial expressions… scripting… editing… beta testing… fuck. Fuck it! I’ve got this!

I’m pessimistic about what struggles I’ll have to deal with in 2026, both those in my control and out. I’m tired of learning from my many mistakes. I know that everything I’ve done has shaped me to be who I am today, for better and worse. I have to remind myself to have hope, but it’s always there.

Conversations With My 16-Year Old Self 1

Even though I haven’t lived up to my own expectations, I’d like to think that my past self would be okay with how I turned out. #furry #debut