Still recovering, I have a few weeks left before I can resume normal life. I caught norovirus about 2 weeks after surgery and that suuuucked

Things are insanely expensive and I will be out of work for at least 6 weeks, possibly longer if I end up needing chemo or radiation. I'm having a hard time wrapping my head around all of it, but if you happen upon this, anything helps

www.gofundme.com/f/help-bridg...

I have not but that's a really helpful tip if I end up having invasive surgery thanks for that

Hell yes thank you

The cyst is a problem itself but im so nervous about what they will find behind it

Oh sorry it's just about!! It's so big they thought it was my bladder at first and almost said everything was fine then they realized it was not my bladder

What is?

Thank you. Unfortunately it's just the cyst getting removed so they can look at the mass. It's quite large. I have no idea what to expect with that.

Anyway, until next time, here is my totally obvious abdominal bulge that I somehow did not notice on myself for god knows how long. But now it seems obvious!!

I just... it's just that sometimes I feel like my entire existence in this world has been one big test that just gets increasingly more difficult over time and it really sucks. It really does get to me sometimes. I have run out of ways to be silly.

I find out tomorrow if the surgery can even be minimally invasive, the cyst is so large they don't think they can avoid cutting me open, and, given my other health conditions, bering cut open would cause a whole new problem as I have delayed wound healing and fragile tissues.

It feels like a joke

I'm terrified. My support system does not fucking exist. I'm more afraid of like, how I'm supposed to heal from surgery, or God forbid cancer treatments, when I dont have a single capable adult to assist me in any way. I don't have anyone to fill the gap for me. I'm just real fucking afraid.

For several months early this year I was repeatedly mocked by multiple grown men for being dramatic and always talking about being sick and I just wanna say like, sometimes people are actually fucking sick man and sometimes they find out there's a reason for it because they were dramatic enough

My great grandmother died of endo cancer in her 30s. My grandfather's mother, Clarice. She didn't find out until it was too late to do anything. That is a scary thought!

Worst case scenario, I was already diagnosed with vEDS so I mean what's another few years off the ol' lifespan

That is all I really have to share. Again, only posting for my friends and dipping back out so if you'd like to reach me, please do so via phone or IG, as I won't see messages here. ✌️ medical care in my area is slow as fuck so I won't have an update for a while

I'm really just beside myself at this point, im angry at myself, I've never missed a pap before but somehow in taking care of my other health issues I end up here.

Frankly, a lot of what I've been attributing to EDS, SVT and POTS is likely whatever is going on here.

Having been so focused on my other health issues, I missed my pap last year, unfortunately. Forgot it. I'm not sexually active so I didnt think it was a huge deal.

looking back, i had other early symptoms last summer that could have been detected early.

started losing weight drastically, and hair, I had a few blood panels that showed some markers for cancer and when they did an exam they found my uterus is three times the size it's supposed to be. I dont have fibroids. Adenomyosis not ruled out, but it doesnt cause those things

Real world actions require real world consequences in my opinion.