Its so blurry and bright. Thankfully the sun doesnt hurt indoors but fuck it hurt in the car lol.

I miss the physical keyboards for phones. Especially for situations like this :/

Once again fuck the American Healthcare and insurance scam bullshit. EVERYONE should have the right to medical care, a roof over their heads, and access to clean food and water.

When we get rid of corporations [especially megacorps] the world will be a much better place.

But do they care? Of course not. They thrive off the suffering of others. Only caring about a fucking currency that'll probably be dead, gone and worthless in a few hundred years or less with the way things are going.

Im going to try to sleep now.

I dont know if itll work but here's hoping.

For those wondering about the IT south park nipple people: youtu.be/6-3eGt_Oc-s?...

-TO GET TO WHERE I AM NOW GOING THROUGH OLD BAGGAGE THAT I DONT WANT TO GO BACK DIGGING THROUGH ESPECIALLY FOR SOMEONE NEW! K. THANKS.

This shit sucks. (':

I am trying my best. I hope its good enough. It doesnt seem good enough.

One day at a time, I will survive this.

I still cant get in touch with my fucking therapist either. Doesn't help that the assistant doesnt do shit it seems like even 20+ years later. And before anyone asks: NO I DONT WANT A FUCKING NEW ONE. GIVE ME THE ONE THATS HELPED ME FOR OVER HALF MY LIFE SO I DONT NEED ANOTHER 20+ FUCKING YEARS -

It genuinely seems like the rich get off on people's suffering. Like the IT nipple clowns from south park when their internet died.

We could of solved so much shit by now but no. Greedy apes have to be greedy. Need those shiny sparkle!

Fucking disgraceful.

-Fucking half of this year BECAUSE OF THOSE MEDS!!! Couldn't tell you shit. I dont even remember my birthday. :/

How about instead of trying to drug me for me to "cope" with living with panic you make life FUCKING EASIER AND BEARABLE!?!? Ever fucking think of that?! No? Of course not!

NO fucking thank you im still dealing with the last dosage of bullshit that didnt work's side effects MONTHS LATER from this fucking year! I was doing better off of them! Being put back on them regressed me severely! I lost years of progress because of them! I still dont remember the first-

I hope after the eye docgor my stress levels go down because this month has been constant fucking panic with all the doctors to the point my doctors suggested putting me back on the fucking brain-killer meds which made my panic way worse i fear.