but hey it resulted in me randomly thinking hmmm what if i put together their VERY LIMITED AMOUNT of official art and was like hooolddd oonnnnnn im making that my banner🤩

no frrrrrrrr i be listening to music like ohhhh myy goddd an abrams edit over this would be so fireeee fuckkkkk
i can picture the clips and transitions.. but they don't exist wahhhhh 😢😢😢

mannnn anxiety can be such a pain (shocker) cus ppl will often use fanart for edits n it's fine

but im just so irrationally afraid of offending ppl...
like i would crawl into a hole and die if i offended a deadlock fanartist cus bro.. we gotta stick together.. the community is so young... 😔

maybe if i figure out a way to make it so the graphic on the cover ignores shadows and stays a consistent bright colour while not necessarily having a glow effect like abrams' eyes and cigarette... hmmmmm i think its the selfillum mask... but idk how to set that up for the book... hmmmmmmmmmm

literally my first like 12 deadlock matches were all defeats and i am completely certain it was my fault..... ive only just today managed to get to 50% winrate on abrams.. it was at 43% back in september.. but its ok... im getting better at him.. hes my main after all😔

but ive only sorta recently gotten back into actually playing the game.. and im tryna fix my win percentage after i ruined it my first few months of playing cus deadlock is my first moba and i didnt know what the hell was happening

some ppl are saying straight up dont play rn, the games just in a silly state cus everyones antsy for the december update and the current meta really doesnt matter cus when the new characters drop it'll be all over the place...

every game man theres a haze wraith infernus mcginnis on my ass not letting me leave base like ommmffgggg holy snoozefest

ik abrams is p solid rn but MAN its still just so boring like ok we get it, u can hold w+m1 and win the game

wheres the fun

sigh i know they wont... we havnt heard anything about her since that sketch of her from ivys vn.....

cadence deadlock is.... lost media?? 🥺

if they release cadence it'll be like a personal little birthday gift just for me 😊
imma make allllllll the fanart in the world for her

i knowwwww i cant get the the idea of them napping together out of my head
its just so sweet T-T
but i cant drawwwwwwwwwwwwwww
maybe some day i'll give it another go

fuck this im makin lasagna and never touching my pen again, i give up on art, imma transfer into ecology, i like plants and shit now🌱🌱🌱

guhh u get it 😔😔😔
and ty...

this is just what happens when i spend too much time on a drawing... i take too long and end up hating it

soooo 99% of my art is half assed... either i draw smth start to finish in one sitting or i dont finish it at all

i actually just can't do anatomy, it is PISSING ME OFF
3 months of life drawing class and i STILL CANT DO SHIT
releaseee meeeeee
im gonna be tweaking this for like 4 hours and it'll just ends up lookin like SHIIIIIITTTTTTT