plus i never get time for taking care of myself........
im showering weekly at this point bc i hate the thought of taking time for myself how egotistical of me

plus my model is going along well enough to keep me satisfied

readjusted meds so i had a terrible crisis yesterday, ended up in the ER to see if they could calm me down... I went walking for 4 hours straight because I felt unsafe...

Plus I've been readjusting to losing some people, either to life being incompatible or death so I've been grieving a lot of things this year. Been rebuilding my circle slowly too so it doesn't overwhelm me too.

i was too shy to ask for one... he just heard i needed something to decompress and started motivating me in looking for something and getting it
big steps in my book!!!!

Like what's the point of trying to be anything at all... I won't ever be not depressed or burnout...

i always make the mistake of feeling comfortable

BUT im happy with my partner and REAL friends and I've had many beautiful experiences this year too so I don't regret a thing

It really has been one thing after the other this year jeez when will this enddd