I love you. I hope I get to hear you say it back someday.

For now, I feel pathetic. I'm a weak man that can't get over someone I loved. I feel pathetic for my actions, for lying that I wouldn't cry in front of her again. I can't say the words I have to say to her, and so I have to bottle them up and keep them to myself. I want to cry. I'm so pathetic

Just friends. I lied to myself about that being an unsettled fact. It isn't me, it isn't anything I did, which makes it harder, I think. I don't know. I don't want to be over her. I want to have the memories I have and be able to love them like I do now. I hope someday, somehow, we can be together.

this actually helped, i wasn't expecting it to be this big of a sigh for me. im all good, theres just a lot on my mind and i needed to scream in my virtual car for a second. i hope everybody has a good day and happy holidays :]

sorry if anyone gets these, it's nice to shout in the void. it makes me feel a little lighter, lighter than if i just wrote it or typed it in a .txt. it's the idea someone could see it, that maybe someone does hear my echo that makes it more impactful. im just an idiot

i wish i didn't have the issues i have, but wishing for anything to be different means i never would have been the me she fell in love with, so i guess no change is better than wishing for a me i never could've been. i hope my decisions are the right ones, i hope i get to hear he say she loved me

it's all so difficult. things changed and everyone got busy. i feel so alone. maybe i shouldn't, but i do. i think too much, telling myself it'll get better and then not being able to reassure myself on it. i know i never want to get over her, but i feel like that sounds crazy.

i just wish i could have said i love you one more time. maybe ill get the chance, but it's so hard to not know, to have to just sit with the thoughts, memories, and hope for the future, but being unable to do much but wait. it almost feels like every action is wrong, like im getting further away

i really do miss that feeling of being needed. honestly there's so much going on, i don't know what to do. there's so many things i want to say, but i can't. i miss how things were, i wish they could have stayed that way. maybe it's better they didn't, but it doesn't feel like it.

is there hope for any outcome as long as you don't give up? if you fight hard enough, is anything possible? that's my hope, and i'll get my answer soon, but waiting is hard. i wish i could pass the time faster

Things get better. Sometimes waiting is all you need. I hope everyone is doing good today. :]

i miss being needed and i miss being seen. feels like posting here is just shouting into the void to some extent, nobody sees these, especially not the people i know. i wish someone did. it's almost like a cry for help but i don't know what id say, i wish someone knew what i needed to hear

i feel like i'm genuinely losing my mind, i'm going back and forth in my own head about things i've done wrong and how i'll never be able to fix them. i miss being able to cry with someone but i ruined that friendship too, what do i even do now?

at work rn watching learning videos and im getting corporate sponsored app ads bro

finally, no more outlandish political slop