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@koutavi.bsky.social
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nyc born and raised; you have now been warned
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koutavi.bsky.social
i've created a monster (myself)

sorry for lack of description i haven't slept at all for two nights and my brain is fork in a garbage disposal noises
added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn. added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn. added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn. added nonslip backing to the coasters and mat, plus made a little... basket? pot? vase??? to hold another four (smaller) coasters and 3d flower topper. the new 'flowerpot' set is in grey-to-maroon variegated yarn.
December 6, 2025 at 12:41 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
somewhere between coasters 3 and 4 something clicked into place that hasn't for basketweave yet and i love math so decided to brave a placemat just to MAKE something instead of purely fight with it and now the set has evolved.

whomst might one even foist fiber craft off on these days, anyway? 🤔
after culling the coasters with visible errors and making a gigantic placemat version of the same round scalloped pattern, my burgundy crochet table set is two 5-round coasters and a 12-round mat. a close up shot focused on the mat, which is easily 4x the size of the coasters. i think they're cute. but idk what to do with them either!
December 5, 2025 at 9:44 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
finished and blocked a coaster set... i might have a source for nonslip backing scraps that would work well for small pieces like these, in which case i'd be comfortable gifting/selling them for practical use.
three crocheted burgundy coasters with scalloped edges. the leftmost one has a standard mug set centered on it for scale; there is about an inch all around to spare. the full set of six crocheted coasters. i think they're pretty. baby's first crochet project, but consistent stitching.
December 3, 2025 at 3:59 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
or maybe @sushisiren.bsky.social was right and it is the usps being unreliable af? i just received this email... and sure enough, i'm in the 'didn't get mine' group. bc of course i'm in the 'fuck you' group. as always. the universe hates me.

how do i get uncursed???
a screencap of an email from the creative team of The End Times, a fictional post-apocalyptic newspaper project i subscribed to earlier this year. the relevant bits of text here are that issue one shipped out on november 14th and apparently the mail is being EXTREMELY inconsistent. some people got their papers on 11/19, some today, and some (me, i am in this last group, bc of course i am) are still waiting. and there's nothing they can do about it.
December 3, 2025 at 12:13 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
fourth is about 2/3 done, idk how many a set should even be but this skein has another two worth of yarn in it i think
three crocheted burgundy wool coasters with scalloped edges; the third has a mug on it for scale
December 2, 2025 at 7:42 PM
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all the sides (tho the cranberry i made the other day is in a jar in the fridge, as are the cupcakes) and the big chonker should be out in an hour or so...
the previous sides, plus stuffed mushrooms and traditional stuffing, browned on top the turkey has been spatchcocked, dry brined, and rubbed both under and on the skin with homemade garlic-herb compound butter. it rests on top a bed of aromatics and veggies. he's a lorge boi.
November 30, 2025 at 1:44 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
i'm still working on mine (i got a last minute free turkey but also always do birthday friendsgiving on the weekend when everything is on clearance lol) but for EXAMPLE:
my version of potatoes boulangere, which is more like the love child with french onion soup roasted brussels sprouts and butternut squash sweet potato casserole with toasted mini marshmallows on top green bean casserole, the classic, tho even the green beans and carrots in the original table pic could be improved with some butter and salt like come on now
November 30, 2025 at 12:46 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
i made too much and somehow have no takers this year?? 😭
six pumpkin chai cupcakes, three piped with a plain swirl of cinnamon cream cheese frosting and three with candied pumpkin seed brittle crumbled on top, on my kitchen counter. a 24oz jar of homemade orange-ginger cranberry sauce with honeycrisp apple; there's also a whole bunch more cupcakes in a container beside the piping bag and brittle in the background. and another 32oz jar of this cranberry sauce in the fridge. help.
November 27, 2025 at 4:24 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
pepper has been granted a stay on account of i did something Bad to my spine and can't handle a drive that long right now, plus the roof start got bumped for weather... can my pain save a tiny scared pirate? 🤞🐾
pepper is lying at OP's side in bed in the morning, head on her chest and butt snuggled against his foster sister lying next to them, looking up at the phone camera. pepper is lying on top of op (on a different morning, he is SUCH a morning boy and nanny has delayed sleep phase disorder so he loves pre-walkie morning cuddles, i have so many pics/vids of happy morning pepper) with his eye half-closed as she strokes his tiny head. he's relaxed and went down for a nap about 5 minutes after this photo was taken.
November 24, 2025 at 5:38 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
stop scraping my account for AI and maybe i'll think about it (i.e. no 🙂)

it feels very 'old man shaking cane' to say, but i remember when there were no inbox categories. so if i want to filter my incoming mail i'll set it up myself. i don't need your "smart" features!

p.s. gemini is an idiot.
a screenshot of the message that popped up on my inbox after i turned off smart features entirely because i'd disabled categories and autocorrections and suggestions and all google's other "smart" shit anyway, and had already opted out of gemini on my google acct entirely BUT THEY TURNED IT BACK ON IN GMAIL. it reads: "turn on smart features and personalization in gmail, chat, and meet to use inbox categories" with the options "turn on" and "dismiss"
November 21, 2025 at 8:48 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
#dogsofbluesky i desperately need help to save pepper. i've limited interactions for hopefully obvious reasons, but my DMs are open. if you message to condemn what is already a heartbreaking situation, you will be blocked.

tl;dr pepper needs a new foster, or it's goodbye. in nyc but will transport.
a collage of photos of a tiny (8lb) chihuahua with white and brown spotted fur, one hazel eye, and a big smile. he's pictured out on walks, lying on his back pawing his face sleepily, cuddled up against another dog napping, and lying on his foster's chest. there's also a cutout of his adorable tiny pawsies; he has pink and black spotted pads. i'm making one last desperate plea to save this sweet little guy! pepper has nowhere to go. i've rehabbed him as far as i can and believe he could thrive in a home... but it's not mine. and i can't find anyone else willing to give him a chance. i'm not sending him back to a shelter to go right back on a kill list, especially considering the terrible shape he came to me in -- rail thin from refusing to eat, brittle patchy yellowed fur, stress rashes and hotspots -- so if i cannot find a foster or trial adopter by monday i'm going to have to put him to sleep. please read the whole post before judging this decision, and if you're also heartbroken by it maybe share his story so someone with the space in their home and heart might see. pepper wants so badly to be a good boy. he's housebroken, well trained to both signs and commands, very smart, and incredibly affectionate. he loves plush squeaky toys and chest scritches, he sometimes forgets his tail is attached and spins around chasing it, he is an excellent road trip passenger, and a good long walk is his favorite thing in the world. he doesn't mind street and traffic noise or being left alone during the day, and he's never chewed or destroyed anything except stolen tissues/napkins. problem is pepper is EXTREMELY fearful, and unfortunately fear aggressive. i have done behavioral rehab for over a decade but he was so shut down it took me awhile to understand all of his triggers and how they manifest. he is very slow to trust after being abandoned. it took me a month to feel like he fully trusted me and 2.5 before i felt he might be ready for adoption trials. in the 4 months and change that i've had him, we've only gotten one application (because i'm not gonna lie that he's got a bite history, his size doesn't matter) and he failed in under 12 hours for biting the husband. he has two major traumas. 1) men -- i don't have one so have tried to work with him on this by bringing him on errands, to the park, etc, and he's desensitized enough that he can exist and accept a treat/pet or two but is still very tense, and 2) being restrained -- he cannot be crated and will not relax if his harness is left on after a walk. grabbing him by the harness or collar is a no-no, though he did eventually adjust to wearing a collar in general! he can get territorial about space, so i've had to really encourage sharing (i have 3 resident dogs and usually 1-2 fosters), establish strong boundaries, and ensure that everyone respects his. he is easily overstimulated and sometimes his excitement tips over into panic, so he'll go from happy wiggly playing to snapping. while i've strongly encouraged redirecting that energy to toys or flight (go to your room!) rather than fight, you have to watch his cues and help him with that level of emotional regulation. he's scared of large dogs and he DESPISES cats. the cat issue is really why he can't stay with me any longer. i've been begging since september to move him somewhere without cats, but we've found no one. after four months and no progress with desensitization, he finally cornered one of mine aggressively enough they swiped and he took a good claw to the nose. things have escalated since: my mother and i have each been bitten several times in the past week trying to protect them, when prior to this incident he hadn't gotten either of us since an accidental redirection on august 10th. he's just too scared, so pepper is now spending a lot of his time locked in the back bedroom now for everyone's safety, which is no life for such an affectionate little guy. he needs to be placed with a patient woman who has no cats or large dogs, who will keep up his rehab. i'm not gonna lie: you will probably get bitten at some point. that liability is why no other rescue has or likely will ever agree to take him on. i have pleaded in every rescue group i'm in, several of us have posted him various places, i've asked everyone i know personally to ask their friends, but no one is willing or able to take my little pepperoncini. putting him back in a shelter would be unbearably cruel. i've tried medicating him (lexapro, cbd) and noticed little effect except sleepiness (trazodone), though in a calmer home one of those might be a good option for him. euthanasia is my absolute last option, and i'd be there and holding him like it's a normal vet appt. but i don't want to do this! he's not an aggressive dog, he is a traumatized and terrified dog. i've just accepted that he is also a liability to most people, my home isn't safe for him as much as my cats and elderly mother aren't safe around him, and he'll likely deteriorate again if i try to keep him here isolated. if you read all of this, thank you. it's been difficult but rewarding to work with him up until this month, and i really hoped someone would come along for him. maybe it's you. maybe it's someone who will see if you repost this? if not, well. he's got until monday, and had four months of love and cuddles and playtime and a warm soft bed and good food and delicious treats. and i'll know that i did absolutely everything i could for him. he was not my pull, he only landed with me because another foster (who absolutely could not have handled him, so it was for the best) backed out last minute, but he is my responsibility now and i love the lil guy. reach out if you can give him one last chance?
November 20, 2025 at 6:19 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
or you could be me and also have bpd which means you hyperfixate on relationships & are twice as emotional and fussy about anything that seems even slightly wrong in it!!! (don't be me, it sucks, i'm gonna die alone with my rescues but plz know if nobody notices and they eat me to survive it's okay)
a screenshot of a video youtube recommended to me by "HealthyGamerGG" titled "why adhd brains don't have space for relationships" the thumbnail is the creator in front of a microphone, with a cartoon brain on a screen behind him. it's divided into two sections, one small red section labeled LOVE with the rest of the brain in pink labeled EVERYTHING ELSE. in my experience this is extremely inaccurate. i even hyperfixate on non-romantic relationships.
November 19, 2025 at 11:44 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
it was also really fun to reproduce on pumpkin chai cupcakes!
three small bowls of cream cheese icing being mixed to match the colors of a "zohran for new york city" mailer, with a tray of cupcakes in the background that have been frosted with the white as a base the finished cupcakes have white bases with piping in orange and blue and red. Z O H R A N is written in orange with red shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. "for" in blue is trimmed in red, "NYC" in all three colors is trimmed in orange, "'25" in blue is trimmed in red. M A Y O R is written in red with orange shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. i am very proud of myself for accomplishing this with only ziplock bags!!!
November 19, 2025 at 9:11 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
your last saved meme is your moral philosophy...

(...it does work because i desperately want to mix and match fork features)
five forks on a marble counter, all slightly different in length, width, and shape. they are numbered 1-5 and the image asks "neurodivergents, which is the best fork" (i've corrected the creator's grammar errors for this alt text)
November 17, 2025 at 9:07 PM
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i don't think i've ever been so actively put off by a free gift offer before... not just 'no thanks not my thing' but /leans back from screen, this seems in poor taste given the current climate???
a screencap of a promo email from adagio teas offering me a "royal birthday gift" large white text declaring "treat yourself" is centered above an image of a woman's photograph beside a tea tin featuring a (different) photoshopped image of her face on a queen standing in an atrium surrounded by sunflowers. there's a glow behind her crown and she's holding a goblet with flames coming out of it and standing beside a bowl that's also got flames coming out of it. everything is very gold, including the ribbon banner below her that says "Happy Birthday" the copy is as follows: Your birthday is just two weeks away - and we can't wait to celebrate you like the royalty you are! 👑 We've prepared something special just for you: - A free sample tea tin, custom-printed with your photo as a crowned, cloaked monarch - A custom tea blend to match your royal persona - A fun birthday memento you can sip and enjoy
November 12, 2025 at 4:23 PM
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that zohran styled text generator, but it says "CUPCAKES for zohran voters"
November 8, 2025 at 9:54 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
nice try, zuck
a screencap of a facebook survey. it reads: Meta is the company that owns Facebook, Instagram, WhatsApp, Meta Quest, and Meta Glasses, among others. In the following questions about Meta, please think about all of the apps and products it owns. Overall, do you have a positive or negative opinion of Meta? the options are very positive, slightly positive, neither negative nor positive, slightly negative, & very negative. i chose to close out of the survey bc i need that account active for rescue purposes but i'm not gonna lie. a still photo of the "that's bait" meme (from mad max: fury road) because i can't have a still image and a gif in the same post
November 8, 2025 at 7:04 PM
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i wanna pfffftttt that surely no one would fall for this, given that if they're reading it in their bsky inbox obvs their account is not suspended... but also people are real dumb so i reported and blocked before deleting.
a DM from "bskysupp3181.bsky.social" telling me that my account has been suspended due to security violations, and if i don't complete verification via the following link within 24 hours my account will be permanently terminated. the link is clearly sketchy af, but failure to complete the required verification within the specified time frame will result in the irreversible and permanent ban of my account oh nooooooo. whatever shall i do... but there are no glaring spelling errors so at least they tried harder than most of the text scams i get?
November 8, 2025 at 12:46 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
WHOOHOO!!! good job nyc, we didn't fuck it up and had the best turnout since 1969~ (nice. but not as nice as our new mayor!)

...now who's gonna come help me eat these?
i made election cupcakes. they are pumpkin masala chai with cream cheese frosting, white bases with piping in orange and blue and red. Z O H R A N is written in orange with red shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. "for" in blue is trimmed in red, "NYC" in all three colors is trimmed in orange, "'25" in blue is trimmed in red. M A Y O R is written in red with orange shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. i am very proud of myself for accomplishing this with only ziplock bags!!!
November 5, 2025 at 3:00 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
80% in and cuomo can no longer make up the difference so here's the full spread~ @zohrankmamdani.bsky.social want a pumpkin masala chai cupcake with your name on it? 🥳🎉

WE DIDN'T FUCK IT UP THIS TIME NYC!!!
my finished cupcake spread on a baking tray with the spare colored frostings off to the side and campaign mailers above for reference. Z O H R A N is written in orange with red shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. "for" in blue is trimmed in red, "NYC" in all three colors is trimmed in orange, "'25" in blue is trimmed in red. M A Y O R is written in red with orange shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. i am very proud of myself for accomplishing this with only ziplock bags!!! my finished cupcake spread on the kitchen counter, this photo taken from above so it's more clearly legible. again for the sale of alt: Z O H R A N is written in orange with red shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. "for" in blue is trimmed in red, "NYC" in all three colors is trimmed in orange, "'25" in blue is trimmed in red. M A Y O R is written in red with orange shadow, each letter cupcake trimmed in blue. i am very proud of myself for accomplishing this with only ziplock bags!!!
November 5, 2025 at 2:53 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
43% of the vote in, so have 43% (roughly) of my election cupcakes decoration...
an in-progress shot of my pumpkin chai cupcakes where i've done the lettering for Z O H R A N in orange and red like his campaign logo, and then "for" "nyc" and "'25" on separate cupcakes beneath it utilizing the blue as well... but it's nowhere near done!
November 5, 2025 at 2:21 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
channeled my nervous energy into a BAKEDOWN eyyyoooooo you're gonna have to wait for the reveal but here's a hint how those pumpkin masala chai got decorated...
a peek of that tray of cupcakes from earlier, now iced with white cream cheese frosting, is in the background... the foreground is 3 bowls where i am color mixing the remaining frosting orange, red, and blue to match zohran's campaign colors. (i got pretty close, imho!)
November 4, 2025 at 11:35 PM
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i baked them in between the electrician and the plumber! my life is currently waiting around for and stressing over how to pay Service Guys... and election (nee halloween) cupcakes.
pumpkin chai cupcakes on a baking sheet, fresh out of the oven so currently unfrosted
November 4, 2025 at 7:13 PM
koutavi.bsky.social
i need you to know that i saw this post earlier and went "yup he could be a horror movie poster hand model" but didn't think fuentes' weird fingers would lodge in my psyche... fast forward to scrolling for a snoozecast and this thumbnail dragged me back to goblin hands. 'NAZI NICK?!'
the thumbnail for a youtube gameplay video titled "this town is guarded by a 1,000 ft giant, you CANNOT escape" with a massive, long-fingered hand reaching down towards houses that would be about the size of a d100 in it palm.
November 4, 2025 at 8:34 AM
koutavi.bsky.social
they got generous treat goodie bags and lots of attention 😂
a small but very long-torso'd mixed breed dog with floppy ears and short black fur. he's in a pickle costume that says "I'M KIND OF A BIG DILL" on the sides, but i have put painter's tape over the D in DILL and written B to make it BILL because my tiny canine son has been very expensive the past few months! a small but muscular white and light brown dog with huge radar ears lying on the floor of an exam room, glancing back at the camera from where she was watching the door. she's in a banana costume. i was calling her a plantain so that she and her foster brother sorta matched (he's in a taco, next photo) and the vet tech said then she's maduros bc she's so sweet 🥹 their foster brother fit into my senior chi's taco costume bc he's so skinny, so only the middle section of his torso is covered by a plush taco costume, the sides a shell and down his back fuzzy brown "beef" and ruffled "lettuce" and sparkly shreds of cheese. he is here for some positive exposure therapy because my children love their vet's office. he was still nervous here but much more relaxed and wagging his tail by the time we were heading out! all three pups (taco, platanos maduros, and a big BILL pickle) trying to convince me to let them ride in the passenger seat (yes together) with big hopeful eyes. they were at the vet in costume bc the pickle is having an issue and they had a cute promotion where if you put your dog in a costume you got a lil discount. and they had a great time getting cooed over and posing with staff. it was very cute!
October 31, 2025 at 10:04 PM