i could get a cheaper car. and it could last just as long . and what if i pay more and the toyota still dies. ugh . i was gonna get a sedan but ive been thinking about how nice itll be to have a compact suv for moving stuff

i just would caution against seeing diagnoses as a "true," single, innate thing with innate biological mechanisms, bc we really dont understand all that much. what i really mean is stop fucking parroting that "caffeine actually works the opposite on adhd people" shit

and i personally would not be so trusting of an institution that would have locked me away 100 years ago, and even today is still the sponsor of many mental hospitals that barbarically abuse their patients

very few people get any kind of objective imaging/testing data on their brain and right now most of our psychiatric diagnostic ability is equivalent to trying to diagnose the difference between lung cancer/bronchitis/copd/etc based on cough observation alone, with no further hard data testing

it wouldnt be for a while but im lowkey giddy as fuck about the idea of getting to do this program and working in this sector

i just never thought i'd get to a point like this. i have been struggling with ocd and health issues and self hate for so long that i never thought i'd just have a day this nice, that i'd get to be loved and treated like this. maybe i can have a life, even with everything terrible that goes on

and while we're on this topic what the hell is up with announcing games like 3 years before they're even gonna release! shareholder shit i guess? if the game requires that much work id rather them extend the release date and announce later rather than requiring crunch

oh how right i was!! so much change and letting go of things this year. and in doing so i made space for so much good. so much healing so many beautiful people so many experiences

and most of my family lives farther away so i can't rly buy household stuff cause i have no idea what they do or don't have, or what kind of space they have for stuff

st louis cemetery by alkemia & during the rain by solstice scents are insane for this btw. gaea by alkemia is also good, like really really good wet earth, but the smell fades within the hour unfortunately

i dont like being an elitist/purist about it but like, you dont have complex puzzles, you dont have inventory management, you dont have real backtracking, you barely even have a horror atmosphere, whats even the POINT !!!!!!! STOP SAYING YOURE LIKE RESIDENT EVIL!!! YOURE NOTHING LIKE HER

sucks that I wasted half my twenties being convinced that this person was a saint for loving me; it wasn't even a romantic relationship and I was still constantly made aware what a chore it was to love me. was stuck inside my house for so long too, and was convinced it was the best I could get

will never forget being told that I was like a burning house and that they got burns every time they tried to go in to help. I was so convinced it was evil for me to want to be helped and loved after that. its so obviously malicious in hindsight, but I hated myself too much to see it at the time