i could hug all of them eternally and it would never be enough

thankfully i'll have company for the week of the surgery, but. am sad that i'll be handling everything after that by myself. really wanted the company
this also means that i have to try to get my license this month, and. i'm worried because i haven't been able to get much practice

the large mysterious dream woman was very pretty and ethereal, and her hair, which obscured her eyes, floated around her face like a cloud and the waves of it looked like the night sky
and the stars in her hair slightly illuminated her and reflected off her skin

to a gnome, being a wizard is like being a cop so by default they're evil... troubling...

hmmm... maybe if the pressure washer is using water that is close to freezing! it could be strong enough to shrink the gnome and the towels would encase them

it depends on the gnome themselves and things like the lunar cycle and their mood! however, they typically tend to maintain themselves at a consistency that is like they have a shell made out of marshmallows thanks to having wizard magic

i don't think it was a gnomish wizard, thankfully!! and if he was, you couldn't tear off his limbs because gnomish wizards are made out of a shapeshifting pudding-like substance that cannot be harmed

at the very least it was a gnome and not a wizard that pulled that on me!!!! a wizard would lead to far worse consequences...

i think that i made contact with a real gnome

i'm being reminded of summer visitations when i just had to wait for it to be over, and i could then get a big hug when i got home
i just gotta wait a couple months like i used to
it's gonna be okay

like i am just. incredibly scared. i'm super anxious. paranoid of everyone and everything. i'm worried about getting hurt. i'm afraid of upsetting and disappointing friends. i feel like i'm drowning

this is all just so overwhelming

i've been getting texts every day from my parents asking me if i'm okay. i have them so worried. i feel terrible. i want to throw up. i don't want to worry them. it hurts

but i know this is gonna hurt her. but i think it's the safest way. and i could do something to try helping her. because it just. feels so scummy to me to leave like that and lie. but. i think that it's the best thing for me to do to be safe. but i just. feel like a monster

it's scary. i'm scared. i don't want to hurt her, but i also don't want to hurt. i plan on leaving 3 weeks after the surgery. i feel sick to my stomach. i'm gonna lie. i don't want to lie. it is so hard to lie. it feels disgusting. but i don't want to be hurt. and i don't want to hurt her

things get broken. i almost get hit. i'm not dumb. an almost could change. i remember how my biological father was. i keep getting reminded of how things were around him. my mother's response to me talking about something happening is that it's something he did a lot