i don't know where i can even begin with this, because i've tried looking up the symptoms, and i'm not getting a clear answer. is it bipolar disorder? because this feeling and manic episodes of crying have been more frequent. is it actually depression in a different form? i'm so confused

i hope i do

i feel like i'm hurting myself and the others around me with my real personality. i don't really care about how i feel, but i know that my friends don't deserve to be so worried

no

don't worry, i know you don't think it's bad. it's just embarrassing i guess. i don't want to post this stuff publicly, but i feel like maybe others should just know, even a little

if you're looking through this thread, i sincerely apologize. i'm not normally like this. i think i'm just finally coming to terms with the damage i've done to my body due to negligence and not taking it seriously. i'm trying so, so hard to lose weight and be healthy. it feels so hopeless

nobody is listening. and if they are, please don't. i'm just rambling. i'm going to be okay. i need to be okay. i need to be happy. i can't disappoint anyone else

i know this rambling is pointless. who even listens to what i have to say on bsky? that's why i feel like it's comfortable posting it here. yes, i'm struggling physically. very bad, as a matter of fact. that heart disease is just going to kill me, isn't it?

thank you. i'm just venting. no way i'd do it on twitter. i'm probably just gonna delete it tomorrow. i just don't think i have anywhere else to really do it. sorry.

do not worry, i will never hurt myself or end my life. i have been depressed and had scary thoughts, but i know people would feel bad if something happened to me. it's a shame, because i do not feel bad for me. i feel bad for the others who have to put up with me

LMAO you're fine dude. it isn't even you, i'm just kinda bummed out in general. you got a neat collection. i was gonna post about this beforehand